Please don’t leave just because I said acting!
I know. Every person in Los Angeles is trying to be an actor (or writer). And that can be exhausting – not only for the person doing it, but the people who have to hear about… especially when those people are probably trying to do it too. So, I know it’s possible nobody wants to hear about another person who has dreams of performing.
That’s partially why I’ve tried to talk so much about so many other things. I’ve almost always downplayed (both on this blog and in my real life) my desire to be on stage.
But that’s dumb.
How are you ever going to get where you want in this world if you don’t put it out there, Aurora? You gotta express what you want. If no one has any idea what you want, how can they help you? And how can they push you? And how can you push yourself?
How can you learn and open yourself to new experiences?
In December of last year, I worked on an Equity show for the first time in a few years. And I thought, “What am I doing?! Look at these people acting! They’re doing it. I could do it too. But I’m standing at the back of the theater in the dark telling the lights when to go?! What? Why?”
(Also, a lot of what happened on Living with the Jacksons (the TV show I worked on before that) is what pushed me back toward what I want to do… But that’s a post for another day. :-))
I thought about all the excuses I made. Some of them are true.
I do spend an inordinate amount of time working when I’m on a show. (Buuuut, that also means I have tons of free time on hiatus. Why have I never auditioned during said free time?)
Also, I do have a big nose. And I do (still!) need to lose more weight (even after losing over 60 pounds). But, even though I maybe couldn’t book everything right now, there are small Equity theaters all over Los Angeles. People who look like me act. I’m someone who looks like me! And I want to act.
So, it’s settled. Aurora, get your butt to an audition.
…And then I realized what a mess I’ve become in these past years. There was so much I used to take for granted because I just had it.
Basically, I was pretty woefully under-prepared to be an [*over-dramatic tone of voice*] actress. And that’s what I’ll talk about next time.