Aurora's Blog

Perhaps I spoke slightly too soon when I’ve declared around my life, “I’m not leaving New York!”

For reasons too convoluted to talk about right now…

Here’s where my life stands.

• No job
• No apartment
• No school (BMI) either

No nothin’!

BMI was supposed to start today. I’m not there. I was going to renew my lease, but I have to be out in two weeks now. (I will get to these stories.) Aye, aye, aye, aye, aye.

I’ve got no plans and no responsibilities.

On the one hand, it feels like my life is in shambles. A mere 6 or so weeks ago, I had the dream job of my life, an apartment pretty close to Central Park, and a commitment to go back to BMI.

It was a pretty beautifully set-up life and practically exactly what I wanted (for now, at least) in oh so many ways. And every single one of those things fell apart.

Oof.

On the other hand, though…

I’m free right now.

So free.

I don’t have to worry about making my expensive rent in New York. I don’t have a workplace I have to report to. I’m not tied to New York on Mondays for class.

I can go anywhere. I can do anything.

I’m still certainly hoping to do BMI next year. (But, for real, though.) So, I have about a year to experience… So… what do I wanna do? Go to school? Go to Europe? Just work in television like normal?

I am a little bit free, and that’s a little bit exciting…

I cannot wait to see what in the world happens after next. I am ready for ideas and adventure!

[Edited to add: This was written by a girl reeeeally struggling, but trying to see the bright side. If you want more about BMI, you can click here. Or more about sexual assault (the reason why I surprisingly left BMI), you can click here. Thanks!]