Bad things happen to good people all the time – we’ve seen it over and over and over with natural disasters, terrorist attacks and more. We know as a fact that people get pain they don’t deserve…
And karma doesn’t always hurt the “bad” people either. Donald Trump is President of the United States. Alex Jones is harming families who lost their kids, and he still has a giant platform and a bunch of money. Roman Polanski has an Oscar. Over and over and over again we see karma is not giving the justice we expect…
And I feel weird about even wishing for someone to “get their karma” or whatever. I feel like I am almost always the first person to stand up and say, “Are we being too mean to [Lance Armstrong, Rachel Dolezal, Anthony Weiner (before he was a registered sex offender), etc.]
I feel like I’m always yelling about compassion and not over-doing the hurt to someone’s life, and forgiveness, etc.
And yet, I will admit, that it bothers me a bit that my rapist has suffered no consequences. He bragged to me about how he “knew I didn’t want to, but I needed to.” I left school, and he got to continue. I’ve had problems with friendships and relationships of all types, but he’s just out there living his best life. He has suffered no consequences – not professional, not personal, not financial, not even just internal of seeming to feel any guilt or remorse. I have suffered a lot, and he seems to have suffered nothing at all.
And it’s scary because when someone can so brazenly assault more than one woman and nothing happens, it makes me afraid he will do it again. And it just kinda sucks.
And it’s this very weird mash-up feeling at disappointment he has suffered no consequences (because even if I’m not pulling for his life to be ruined or anything, bad actions should probably have some consequences?) and this weird guilty feeling for wanting someone to be punished for something…. There’s a part of me that feel gross about the fact that I don’t feel happy if I happen to see him happy (off of something someone else has posted, because even blocking him everywhere doesn’t seem to mean that I can avoid updates on his life completely).
Anyway, don’t get me wrong. As cool as Sweet/Vicious is and everything, I’m not saying, “since karma’s gonna help, let’s all go get our vigilante justice.”
I’m saying as much as it sucks, we maybe just have to find peace in the fact that karma doesn’t balance everything out…
I feel like sometimes people say things along the lines of, “Don’t even worry, karma will get to them.” But I think sometimes we really have to know, “Still don’t worry about them – live your own life. But karma really might not help you.”
There were probably women who were victims of Bill Cosby who died before it came out that he’s the serial rapist that he is. And he still isn’t in jail. And he may never go to jail. So, even the women who are alive still may never see justice. But most likely, there are women who died only seeing him as a beloved man.
And that’s pretty devastating.
*sigh* So, I don’t think I have anything earth-shattering to say in this post, but that’s just what I was thinking today – that this idea that karma always has your back doesn’t really seem to be true to me.