[I still indeed have some back posts about New York. So, please don’t completely think that we are totally done with talking about my roller-coaster relationship with it…]
But one project I thought about doing when batting around ideas that ultimately became Project 882, was this idea of “show me your New York.”
I’ve said before [or I will be saying soon, from yet *another* drafted blog post I haven’t posted], that I feel like I’m hovering somewhere around 20% better. And I feel like a wildly large part of that 20% is really feeling totally free and safe and happy in New York.
I’ve also talked about how when I even began to make a tiny small effort, it still felt like I couldn’t escape sexual assault guy.
And I just fly away all the time…
That’s not reeeeeally sustainable.
I mean, I guess to some extent it is. It cannot still include going to Europe 3x a year (I’m pretty sure), but I could go some place semi-close by every single weekend.
But even if it’s technically sustainable to at least leave New York proper every weekend… I don’t really want that to be my life. Like, get out or get in, to some extent, is how I’m feeling a little bit.
And I think I wanna at least try to get in… at some point… in the semi-near future. I still don’t feel completely ready yet, but I’m starting to think of the future – the future that feels close enough that I can be.
And one of the ideas I had was this idea that I’d try to get a New Yorker to show me something they loooved about the city every week. I’d meet new New Yorkers and do new things in the city and expand my horizon, and hopefully by the end of the year, I’d know New York and I’d have met a bunch of people and I could be less afraid and resentful and upset and all that jazz…
I’m not doing anything with this right this second, but it’s an idea I’m still potentially kicking around in my head for a thing to do when Project 882 is done…
If you had opinions/further ideas on this, I’d love to hear them! For now, it’s just an idea I’m kicking around 👧🏻