Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 15 (The Best, Most Surprising Day)

April 4, 2022

I didn’t list in the title what actually happened, because I want you to come on the adventure with me!

So, I headed to the cricket game. Tickets were a little pricey, but since the game was almost over, I thought maybe a scalper would be dying to get rid of their’s, and they WERE!

I bought a ticket for like $10 (US). 

I headed on in. I got some food (a little macaroni pie), and some water. And of course when I was buying the water, they said I absolutely had to take a rum punch. Yeah, okay, sure. Why not?

Then, I went to the game itself.

Side note: I did see three cheerleaders. And then I had all sorts of questions about the cheering world in Barbados, but alas, I don’t know anything about that. Maybe another time, I’ll learn all about it!

There was a big group of rowdy guys to my right who were doing chants for Johnny Barstow. And then, to my left (and in front of me) was a local Bajan who was talking to two people with him about the game.

I leaned forward and was like “hey, I don’t want to butt in too much, but might it be possible I can get in on this explanation? I don’t know anything about cricket.”

They very much welcomed me in! They were so nice. (Tbh, I still don’t know that much about cricket, because they just started making conversation with me. But that’s okay. I can always learn.)

When they were asking me all about my trip, i was saying how it had just been the absolute most magical things. I loved Barbados so very much, and had such an amazing time!

I talked about diving with that shipwreck, and going on the Catamaran Cruise, the amazing hot sauce, how gorgeous Hunte’s Garden was, the beautiful island safari and Animal Flower Cave – all of it.

And as we were talking, I mentioned in passing that the only bummer was I’d really wanted to tour Parliament. 

I love government, and was interested in learning more about how it worked. But alas, Parliament was closed to the public, because of renovations.

And then they kind of had this tiny laugh. And I asked why they were laughing…. Then I asked “do you work at Parliament?”

And they’re like “oh, something like that.”

Then they started asking when I’d be leaving Barbados. I said the next morning. They’re like “oh, you’d have to tour it tonight then. Could you do that?”

And it’s like “Could I do that?! Is that a possibility?! Let’s GO!” 

So THEN, this guy gets on the phone, and boom. One phone call, I have a PRIVATE TOUR OF PARLIAMENT.

TURNS OUT this was Wilfred Abrahams – the equivalent of if I’d met the Director of Homeland Security!

He says a clerk is just hanging out and will take me around whenever I’m ready, and I’m even welcome to stay for the end of the game if I want. 

But no, forget cricket. I thank him profusely, and am on my way!

I jump in the cab, and we race to the hotel so I can put a real dress on, instead of bathing suit bottoms and a t-shirt.

I’m messaging Alex like “let me know if you want to come!” 

He wanted to, but he was tied up on the other side of the island with his old roommate’s friend. So, I made a super quick stop at the hotel, grabbed my dress, and made my way down to Parliament!

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow! 

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 14 (Saturday Single Day)

April 3, 2022

So, Alex and I part ways for most of Saturday.

It starts in the morning, because I only have to get a rapid test to get back in the states, but he has to get a PCR. The difference in how much it costs to get a rapid at the hotel vs the main gymnasium place of Barbados is negligible, especially when you factor in cab fare.

But, for a PCR, the difference in money could be argued to be worth it. And it’s not like he’s stingy with money at all. (He paid for basically every single thing we did, since the trip itself was free for him. So, he got us that sweet private tour with Island Safari, and all our touristy stuff. At the end, he ultimately even paid for my Covid test when we were checking out, which was really sweet!)

But maybe because he’d paid for so many things, might as well save a little where you can, especially since he didn’t have any giant things he wanted to do on the last day, and he was already going into town anyway to meet up with his old roommate’s friend who happens to live in Barbados. So, why not just go early and get a Covid test?

Well, okay. I have other ideas haha. So, I’m gonna grab my test very quickly at the hotel, and then get on the road!

I got the sense that Alex wanted a semi-low-key last full day. And I wanted more like a last hoorah – trying to fit in everything recommended from tourist books etc., just checking off that list! So, we happily went separate ways for the morning/afternoon, with the idea that we would meet up for dinner.

I hired a driver for a handful of hours. (Thank you Wheel of Fortune for that extra spending cash.) And I told him all the things I hadn’t yet gotten to hit, and asked if we could try our best to do it all. And we did!

We headed up to Archer’s Bay, which was a fun little beach (covered in… seaweed, maybe? Definitely covered in something!).

It was cute though, and relatively empty/serene.

Then we went to Hunte’s Garden, which was actually really gorgeous. Someone had recommended Hunte’s Garden, and I was sort of thinking, “I’m from LA, where we have Huntington Gardens, which is sprawling and gorgeous, and has stuff from so many areas of the world. I wonder how unique this garden will be.” But it was unique!

It was reeeeally peaceful. Barely anyone was there. It was a perfect spot if you wanted to clear your head or read a book or something. The air felt so fresh. It was small, but mighty.

Then, I went to the animal sanctuary during monkey feeding time. There were a lot of monkeys! I always talk a big game with monkeys, like “oh yeah! I wanna be monkeys friends! I wanna hold a monkey!”

But then when I see a million monkeys running around in the wild, I’m like “aaaaagh! Monkeys!” haha 

One of these days, I plan to hold a monkey! Today was not that day. (But you’re not supposed to hold them there anyway. You’re supposed to look at them.)

I also stopped at the “Hot Pot” which is a little makeshift natural hot tub on a beach in Barbados. It was kinda warm, and I’m glad I got to see it in its glory.

I also stopped at this bar I’d kept seeing every time we went to Bridgetown, which had this blow-up obstacle course in the ocean. Sadly, I didn’t have time with all I wanted to do to go to the obstacle course, but they did tell me about it. And if you feel like it, they’ll boat you out there and let you play!

If ever I were to go back to Barbados, this would absolutely be on my list of things to do.

So, then!

While I’d been scuba diving earlier in the week, Alex went to the cricket game and had an amazing time!

I’d never been to a game of cricket. And I think I mentioned, maybe, that while we were there, there was this HUGE tournament that happens only once every four years for cricket. 

Basically everyone in our hotel was there for cricket.

Cricket, cricket, everywhere.

So, why not? I headed over to the stadium to see if I could get a ticket.

And this(!!!!) – this A+++++ such a memorable Barbados experience is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 13 (Oisten’s Fish Fry)

April 2, 2022

So, first we stop by the the Harry Bayley Observatory, because I love space and science. And it’s also a ‘little known’ thing in Barbados, and I like getting off the beaten path.

So, from everything we can gather, every Friday night, the observatory is open to the public.

Well, our trip has been largely unaffected by Covid. And we’re very lucky! Practically everything is reopened. Rates are low right now. The world seems fairly safe and accessible in this moment. But alas, the observatory was still closed.

And the person who was there when we got there was SO nice. He wanted so badly for us to be able to look through the telescope, but he said for various sanitation reasons, he just couldn’t make it work.

But at least we got to head up there and see the big telescope. Then on down to Oisten’s we went.

Oisten’s is a HUGE fish fry of a bunch of restaurants that happens every Friday night.

Alex and I took quite a long walk around the area, which was really nice – walking by the water and everything.

It was really sweet because his original plan was to stop by the hotel after Mount Gay, but ultimately we didn’t. And he noticed I was carrying my sort of heavy purse and our souvenirs from Mount Gay. (I didn’t say anything. He just noticed before I even really clocked that it was heavy or anything.) And he carried my bright pink purse, like the manly man he is, not afraid of carrying a girly purse!

I thought that was really nice. We waited in a long line for some food, and played some games in the line. It was super crowded and hard to find a place to eat, but we found one more out toward the water.

Then we walked around the fish fry, which by this point was in full swing. There were dancers on a stage. Overall, it was pretty fun. It was maybe the most touristy thing we did. (We were told later if you want to hang with locals, don’t go until after 10pm.)

I could sense there was a little exhaustion in the air, but it was fun. We got home and went to bed.

(And one random cute thing was that I woke up for a second in the middle of the night, and we were two little matchy-matchy people. We had the same t-shirts on (from Mount Gay), and we were sleeping in the same position with one leg up like we were flamingos, and we had the same eye masks from JetBlue. It was so funny, and it was just such a special trip!)

And tomorrow, I’ll talk about our A+++++ Saturday! 

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 12 (Mount Gay Rum Cocktail Making Class)

April 1, 2022

So, if you’ve been reading the whole story, you remember that we made all of our final plans pretty late in the game (at the layover, on the way to Barbados haha).

The only thing I had locked down early was scuba diving, because I didn’t want to leave it to chance, since I couldn’t go to Barbados without scuba diving.

All that being said, we knew we had to go to Mount Gay. Everyone said so. It’s the ‘birthplace of rum’ – which is like, Barbados’ thing.

And they have lots of different options for what you can do there, but the only thing that still had tickets when we were planning was the cocktail making class – which I was totally cool with, because of all the things we could do there, I thought cocktail making would be the most fun, since it’s so hands-on, and maybe even a small little skill.

But man oh man oh man were we drinked-out at this point.

The first part of the class, they kept giving all these samples to explain the differences between the rums. It was so hard to drink them all! We were suffering a little.

Alex only then told me that he had originally wanted to go to Saint Lawrence Gap on Friday night (if you remember, we moved it up because nothing was happening in Holetown), because he didn’t want us all drinked-out before Mount Gay. But it was a little too late to late for me to learn that now haha.

So we just made it through.

Now, the people at Mount Gay were super nice. It was a lovely place. So, nothing against them or any of that, but it’s crazy how much Alex and I were consistently on the same page.

We ‘graded’ everything we did, just for funsies. And everything had gotten an A so far – even the cave that just had the trolly thing through it, because it was cool and they had the greatest drinks of all time.

But, he said that he’s never been an alcohol-tour kinda guy, and I agree! I don’t really super dig that stuff either.

And I thought maybe if they taught us really specific cool Barbados cocktails, we might feel a little differently. But we ultimately just made two pretty simple, known drinks.

It was cool. But it was the first thing that didn’t get an “A.” (Actually, in general, Friday doesn’t get an A, as you’ll see with the rest of the stuff. But it’s okay because spoiler alert, Saturday gets an A+++++.)

It was funny that we kept trying to super water down our drinks and hide that we weren’t using the correct amount of alcohol, but there’s only so much people can drink – even in Barbados!

After we made our drinks, we chatted up a couple who seemed fun, who happened to be from where Alex was from. So, that was pretty lovely.

And I can’t even believe this, but after all these years, I didn’t know why Alex had gotten into working in television, and his story was INCREDIBLE (but I’ll leave that for him to tell, as this isn’t his blog, so I don’t need to be airing all his incredible stories on it). But if you run into him, ask him! It’s so good. And he’s such a good storyteller (which makes sense, since that’s what he does for a living).

After that couple had left, we hung out on a bench while we waited for our cab and we talked a little more about the new info I’d just learned about Alex. And it was really special, continuing to get to know him even better after all these years.

And then we were off to the observatory! (Again, just warning you, Friday doesn’t get an A. (Spoiler alert: the observatory is closed because of Covid.)) But we’ll get to the rest of Friday tomorrow!)

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 11 (Friday Morning, Post Office, Etc. (AND BARBADOS HOT SAUCE))

March 31, 2022

Okay, so the part that I forgot to mention yesterday is that while we were waiting for nightlife time to start, we walked to the local grocery store!

One thing I really like doing in foreign countries is going to grocery stores, because it’s cool to just kinda see what the local stuff is all about.

And specifically, we went to that grocery store because I’m absolutely obsessed with Barbados hot sauce.

So, there’s this random unlabeled bottle of spicy sauce at every meal of the hotel. And I’ve been pouring it on everything.

Because it’s random and unlabled and I’ve never tasted exactly anything like it, I just assumed it was something special and unique that the hotel made.

But THEN there was something incredibly similar on the Catamaran Cruise. And then we had to know – what is that?!

And apparently, there’s just special Barbados hot sauce, in all sorts of brands! It’s like the local thing down there. So, we walked to the grocery store to grab some. And in the store, Alex asked a man who was walking in the aisle what brand he recommended.

And he was so super helpful! He recommended “One Drop,” but none of us could find it anywhere on the shelf. So, Alex and I picked a random one and moved on.

So, Friday morning, Alex and I had a little time before we went to Mount Gay. So, I made a little run to the post office.

One thing I loved about the post office was when I looked up, the tubes for air conditioning or whatever were green! Everything is so bright and wonderful in Barbados! Even random tubes in the post office.

I sent some hot sauce home, and to my dad. I also stopped by a little store where I got some souvenirs.

Everyone was so incredibly sweet. I was fatter than I wanted to be, going to Barbados, but people were always commenting me on my ‘curvy body’, like it was the ‘perfect Barbados body,’ so that was something! haha (I mention that here because specifically the sweet woman at the shop said I had the perfect Barbados body.) Even though I was heavier than I wanted, everyone always made me feel like one of the prettiest people on earth. So, if you’re fat, but you’re curvy, go to Barbados and they’ll make you feel loved.

(Everyone was SUPER nice. I didn’t meet a mean person in all of Barbados.)

So, after my errand running, it was time to go to a cocktail-making class with Alex. And that’s what we’ll talk about tomorrow.

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 10 (St. Lawrence Gap!)

March 30, 2022

There are no pictures of us getting super drunk (which is for the best haha), so enjoy some more pics from our safari!

After we got back from Harrison’s Cave, we had a delicious dinner at the good ol’ hotel that we loved. (The Club Barbados. xoxoxo to them!)

And now that scuba diving was over, and there were no more early mornings or important things you had to have a right mind for, it was time to see the nightlife side of Barbados.

Originally, since we thought the weekend would be more happening than weekdays, we were going to wait for St. Lawrence Gap until Friday.

But we still wanted to do something, so we thought we’d check out Holetown (the area where we were)!

Well, we went to the area/intersection that was suggested to us… Every bar was a ghost town. There was nothing going on.

But at this point, we’d already dressed up for going out. We’d already pregamed at the hotel where drinks were free (and where I was trying to eventually get through their whole list of special suggested/signature cocktails, and knocked down a couple that night). We were already out and about. We didn’t want to call the night a bust… So we went to St. Lawrence Gap, because we’d heard it was the place to go for drinking/nightlife…

And it was.

All the bars were popping. There were a bunch of outdoor bars, which was great.

The most memorable thing – I don’t even know if I’m supposed to say this, or if I’m gonna get in trouble somehow (but obv this guy’s nickname is not his real name, so it’s probably fine), but this guy walked up to us at one bar, and introduced himself as “The Pharmacist.”

Now, I had no idea what this meant and started asking genuine questions about what made him want to get into medicine, when Alex had to be like “it’s a code word. He’s a drug dealer.”

And the dude was like “yeah, I sell coke.” And then he asked us if we wanted to buy coke.

Now… I will say, Alex made a promise to me before we left that he would not let anything bad happen to me.

[I don’t normally go out and get drunk. I’m not scared of Barbados. I love the people there. But I was hit on a lot at that point, throughout the week (especially whenever Alex wasn’t around), and in general going to bars as a woman is dodgy. You always have to keep guarded and everything. But Alex was very much ready to be a protector, there for me, to be sure nothing bad would happen. He just nicely promised that before we left the hotel.]

I don’t really wanna do coke, BUT there was a small part of me that wanted to challenge him on his offer/promise to take care of me and make sure I got home safe.

“Oh yeah? Is that so? What if I start taking strange drugs from strange men in the middle of the night? You gonna be able to keep up with keeping my safe?” hahaha

But no, my desire to challenge him didn’t override my desire to not get caught up doing drugs in a foreign country. I was about to say my streak of never doing coke continues [which is true], but it’s hard to say it’s a real ‘streak’ when this was literally the first time in my life I’ve ever been offered the opportunity to buy coke.

Finally when I was drunk enough that I was doing the whole can’t-stand-straight/support yourself thing, Alex got us a cab and got us home safely.

It was the cutest cab ride. I’m sure the driver thought we were nuts. We were just being sentimental and telling each other how special we were and sharing random small secrets. It was silly and adorable… And of course I only remember pieces of it hahahahaha. And I’m sure it looked ridiculous from the outside, but from the inside living it, I loved it.

Off to bed we went, as the next day we had a day at My Gay Rum… Oh yeah, that’s correct. More alcohol! I’ll tell you more about it tomorrow.

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 9 (Harrison’s Cave!)

March 29, 2022

Welp, it wouldn’t be Barbados if I didn’t start out by talking about the alcohol haha.

When we were welcomed in, of course we were shown to the bar to wait. I was still hungry, but was worried we didn’t quite have enough time for me to order real food. So… obviously the smartest idea on an empty stomach is to drink some alcohol, as that’s gotta make you feel full right?

(Don’t worry. I didn’t get overly drunk (at Harrison’s Cave at least, wait until we get to St. Lawrence Gap, but that’s for later). So, everything was fine. But I did finally partake in the drinking! Scuba diving was over. I didn’t have to be responsible for anything else! So, I got a “green monkey tail,” and I think it might’ve been my favorite drink I ever had.

I wrote down the ingredients, but I have no idea about the amounts. But if you want to make your own Green Monkey Tail at home, it’s:

  • Blue Curaçao
  • Watermelon Liquer
  • Mount Gay Silver Rum
  • Passion Fruit Juice
  • Lime Juice
  • Simple Syrup (sweetener)

I thought it was ironic that once I finally started drinking, no one on this tour drank but me! I’d been to a number of events where people constantly had a drink in their hand. But not this one. Aye, aye aye.

[This was the only time this happened in Barbados. At every other place I mention (except scuba), just imagine everyone is drinking… though you probably won’t have to imagine it, because I will probably remind you.]

So, anyway, if you’re reading these posts, and you don’t know who Alex is, he is my Sky Team co-captain for life.

[The Sky Team is something we made up. It’s not a real thing. (I actually do think it’s a real thing, in the sense that Delta and Air France and all those airlines that work together call themselves the “Sky Team,” but we didn’t know that when we started using the phrase, and for our purposes it’s a made-up, not-real thing.]

All it means is that Alex is my best friend. And for many years, he’s done my “new birthday thing” with me. I like to do things in the sky. And many of the birthday experiences we’ve done together have been in the sky (e.g. hot air ballooning, bungee jumping, helicopter flying class). So, we are the “Sky Team” aka, Alex is my super adventure buddy, and anytime something can be more adventurous, I try to make it so with him, because I don’t know if I know anyone in my personal circles who’s more game for stuff/ready for adventure than Alex.

All that to say, there used to be a tour through Harrison’s Cave where you could crawl around, do the tight spaces thing, swim, just explore that cave fully and get a full experience.

Alas, because of Covid (which I’ve been trying to gloss over, so it’s not remembered as a big part of this magical trip), it was deemed as too close of contact with people. So, for now, you can’t do that tour.

We did still get to go in the cave! We just had to ride a tram through it instead. (They always had the tram tour as an option for people who didn’t want to do the active cave tour. That’s not something that was started as a pandemic response, though that would’ve been impressive had they revamped all the cave stuff in such a short time.)

So yeah, we got a tour where we learned a bit about the cave and saw some parts of it. (You had to wear hair nets and helmets, so the pictures aren’t the prettiest anyone’s ever seen haha.) But it was fun!

So, I was sad I couldn’t do the version of the tour that lives up to his adventure level. But he didn’t seem bothered! Our driver was so funny and fun! It was completely a good time still! And it was fun to see how they were building things out. They’re making a ziplining course, and it seems like it’s gonna be a place you can do many things.

[Sorry I don’t have that much to write about the cave itself. but yeah, get yourself a green monkey tail. Mmmm mmmm mmm.]

[If we were to ever go back to Barbados for any reason, while I do feel like we saw the whole island and I’m incredibly happy with how things turned out, IF I randomly had the opportunity to go back, doing the intense-r tour of Harrison’s Cave would be toward the top of the list of things I’d do – and I’d do the zip-lining, and obstacle course, and whatever else they’re building. I think things would be a lot different by the time we got back!]

And speaking of alcohol, I’ll talk about Thursday night tomorrow.

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 8 (A Little More Scuba Diving And Just Some Wonky Stuff)

March 28, 2022

So, now we’re up to Thursday, March 17th.

I started with my second day of scuba diving, which we’ve already talked about in another post.

But one little part I forgot to mention – we did our deep dive, we used this rope to help us descend. And as you can see, there’s a bunch of stuff on it.

As I went down, I accidentally cut my thumb, and it looked crazy, because if you pressed my thumb, weird green stuff was coming out of the cut, just bloop, blooping out since it was going into the water.

Ultimately, no weird moss grew out of me or anything, but it looked slightly crazy.

So, after scuba diving, I was fairly starving. I’d skipped breakfast. I didn’t want to be deep diving on a full stomach or anything. (I just wanted to make sure my stomach had no issues during an awesome dive.)

And then I’d gone scuba diving, which can be somewhat tiring, carrying your gear to the boat, doing the deep dive itself (and the shallower one afterward, etc.). So, I was happy that I was getting to the hotel with about 35 minutes, give or take, to spare before the van was coming for us (as Alex said it was supposed to come at 3pm).

I thought that’d be enough time – if I hurried – to eat pretty quickly, and change into something cute.

Now, for whatever reason, even though my phone is usually so reliable and wonderful, and usually works overall pretty great internationally, for whatever reason, it was failing me.

I forget if we’d noticed it the night before, or in the morning. Either way, we noticed my phone was just absolutely not working to save our lives. No service. No matter where I went. It was just kaput. (This was actually never really explained other than ‘things get weird internationally sometimes, and it was working a few days later.)

But anyway, since I couldn’t use my phone, he was unable to reach me, and I promised to come back right after scuba diving and meet him in the room, so we could meet up and have lunch and then go to this cave together.

And I worked out with the cab driver I had to scuba in the morning to to come get me at 2. And I told him if for some reason the boat is not back to please, please wait for me, and I’d pay extra. Because I had to leave as soon as I could to get back to Alex, and I had no form of communication on me.

(Obviously had the cab driver not pulled through, we weren’t far from a Hilton. I could’ve asked them to call a cab, or probably the scuba place would’ve. I could’ve used another diver’s phone. I wasn’t like in the wilderness. But I just wanted to make sure there was as little room as possible for error.)

Oh, also! A silly little cab story! So, I’d pre-booked a cab through the hotel, on my first day of scuba diving (Wednesday), to come at whatever time I needed it in the morning. And when I got to the lobby, there were approximately a billion people there. (I may be exaggerating a little, but you get it.)

And I was like “uuuuuh, do you by chance know where my cab is?”

And some wires had accidentally gotten crossed and the cab wasn’t there. But then the hotel was like, “it doesn’t matter. Take any of them. Everyone is going to the game, so you can jump in one of these vans with other people.”

It felt hilarious to be the one person not going to the cricket game. And when they realized, “oh you’re not going to the game?!”, they immediately got to scuba just fine, and all was right with the world… But that was kind of hilarious to me.

(We’ll get more into the cricket game later.) So, back to where we are now on Thursday –

I jumped in the cab after scuba. I went straight to the room. And Alex was like, “I’m sorry. I made a mistake. I thought it said the shuttle was coming at 3, but we are supposed to be there at 3.”

No worries!

So, we skipped the food. (It’s all right. We could always pig out later!) I literally just threw a kind of flower over-wrap dress thing over my bathing suit, so it looked like I was wearing somewhat normal clothes as there was no time to change.

We whatsapped the cab I’d just been in, asking him to come right back, which he did. We booked it to the front to meet him.

And then we got to Harrison’s Cave. And we ultimately did have time once we got there, but it was a race to do it!

And Alex’s prediction had come true. The one and only bump in the road we ran into was handled like a team (the Sky Team, as we call ourselves). And we were indeed very chill. And we made it!

And I’ll talk about Harrison’s Cave tomorrow!

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 7 (Catamaran Cruise (Part B)!)

March 27, 2022

(I know everyone always says don’t give out free feet pics on the internet haha, but I didn’t take a ton of photos on the cruise, so here’s one of our feet.)

So, anyway, we got to have a nice, long boat ride back and watched all of sunset, which was beyond gorgeous.

We spent most of the time together, and he told me some stories of his childhood I didn’t know, which was nice to learn.

We also spent some time talking to our new friends (me with the girl, and him with the guy), and Curtis showed me a little about navigating the boat.

It was just so calm, and the ocean air felt great, and the views were beautiful. It was, like most of Barbados, perfect in every way.

And THEN, as if the day couldn’t get any more perfect, to get back to the hotel, we got to ride the party bus!

And it was really just so special and magical. Perfection. (Sorry, I know I use a lot of the same flowery words and phrases. I just loooooved Barbados so much.)

So, anyway, we get on this party bus. Everyone is slamming rum, because… it’s Barbados!

I’m still taking it super easy, and didn’t even drink 1/4 of a drink on the boat. (I’ve gotta get up early and go scuba diving the next day! So, I’m trying to be responsible, plus, I’m not a big drinker to begin with.)

But it is fun and cute to see everybody loving everything so deeply, and everyone just singing the party songs so loudly.

And Alex and I had talked about this adorable family that was there, having so much fun, and he kind of talked wistfully about how cool it would be to be one of those kids, having such a laid-back super-fun time with your parents.

And as we’d been talking about how fun it would be to be on this trip with your family, as we looked at each other, while we were singing and dancing at/with each other on this bus, I realized… I am here with my family. He is family to me.

And so this silly little party bus just meant so much.

[I didn’t post the video of us singing to each other, because you gotta keep some things private haha, but there he is looking out the window when there was a break in the singing.]

So, anyway, there was another absolutely perfect day in Barbados, and then we roll into the next one!

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 6 (Catamaran Cruise (Part A)!)

March 26, 2022

Outside of scuba diving [which is obv only for people with a specific hobby] (and a VERY special surprise you’ll hear about toward the end of the week), this is the number one like “normal” thing I’d recommend doing in Barbados.

It was SO fun. There were a million highlights of the trip, but this was a huge bright spot, and if I could only do one “normal” thing, it’d be this.

[Just to keep orienting us, this was Wednesday, March 16.]

So, we got on the boat (the Tiami Sunset Dinner Cruise), and we could already tell it was gonna be amazing, because the vibe of the people was amazing.

He came from the cricket game that he went to that morning, since I was scuba diving. And… I’m sure you’ll never be able to guess what happened as soon as got on the boat.

(Alcohol. Obviously alcohol. It’s always alcohol in Barbados haha.)

And the boat partied and had a good time until we reached the first destination for a swim.

They gave people snorkel masks (but I already had mine, since I’d just come from scuba diving). The first swim was cool, and chill, just a little fun.

I thought that was gonna be our only swim. And it’s funny because everything I’d read/seen said there were ALWAYS turtles and you would see turtles. But we didn’t. And I didn’t think too much of it, because animals can’t be guaranteed. But it turns out, we absolutely DID see turtles. We just had to wait ’til the second swim.

In between the two swims, we met this cool couple, that we later had dinner with on the boat. They were fun and nice and interesting, and it’s always lovely to meet people, of course.

Also, in between the swims, when I was offered alcohol again (always, there’s always rum in Barbados) by one of the crew mates. I thought I’d have just a little.

When he was telling about the special rums they had, and asked what I wanted with the rum I chose, I said “I don’t know? What goes well with it?” He reached out his hand and said “Hi, my name is Curtis.”

(Get it? He’s what goes well with it.) I thought that was so funny.

(Also, this was my first experience having Mt Gay rum, and it really was delicious. I don’t really drunk rum, so I don’t have a ton to compare it to, but I believe the people of Barbados that Mt Gay rum is great.)

So, we went on the second swim and saw the turtles! It was magical. I was so happy.

I didn’t wear my fins, since it was just snorkeling and no one else was. (Even though one of our new friends suggested I do, and just be fun and different – and he was RIGHT.)

I was fine, but those turtles get pretty close to your feet, which is VERY cool, but their little snapping mouths get a little scary! So, if I had fins I wouldn’t have been doing my silly push/pull of getting close to them to see them up close, just to sneak away to try not to get bit.

After the second swim, we got on the boat and had dinner. They had SO much food. You could definitely get full on it.

Also, I wouldn’t think of Barbados as like the French dressing capital of the world, but the French dressing was PERFECT. Amazing. Probably the best French dressing I ever had.

Speaking of the best sauces in the world, I could not get ENOUGH Barbados hot sauce. (We’ll get to that tomorrow, but it was so very awesome.)

And since this post is getting a little long, I’ll pick up here with the rest of the perfect sunset cruise tomorrow!

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 5 (Scuba Diving – Shipwreck Certified!)

March 25, 2022

So obviously, if I was going to an island, I needed to go scuba diving!

[Sadly, Alex is not certified (though I hope to convince him one of these days).]

I looked around for scuba places, and luckily, I found a great one!

Oh my gosh! Also, this is the part I found super cool!!!

So, I got my Open Water and Advanced certs done by a woman (Chrissy). And I thought it would be super cool if all my certifications from here on out are done by women!

Women are the minority when it comes to scuba divers, and it would be cool to sort of swim on the shoulders of women in the field.

So, I thought it would be cool, but it wasn’t an absolute requirement. And when I was calling around to dive shops most of them had male instructors.

And even this one I thought I might! I wasn’t sure exactly who my instructor would be, but when I got to Barbados Blue Watersports… it was Aimee!!!

And then began the two-day journey of getting my scuba certification!

Wednesday and Thursday morning, I headed out early to dive.

I chose to get a shipwreck specialty, because if I’m going to be diving anyway, I really want to rack up some more certifications!

So, when I was looking up the best/most interesting certifications to do in Barbados, shipwrecks was the thing! Every book/website/etc. said so!

And they were right. We started in this bay full of shipwrecks, looked around, and did the basic shipwreck stuff (mapping it and that kind of stuff you have to do to get your certification).

When we left the first day, we were told that if conditions were right(!), we’d get to check out the Stavronikita, and the conditions were right!!!

I was so happy the stars aligned. We got to dive down to this deep ship, and even go inside! It was a little scary, but in a fun way.

Boom. Certification done.

So, Wednesday, after the first day of diving, I headed over to the Catamaran Cruise to meet up with Alex!

I did have a little time in between, so I walked about Bridgetown a bit, stopped and walked around a mall, and asked a cab driver what’s a good truly local place for food (since I didn’t plan on doing much eating outside of the hotel, but there wasn’t quite enough time to get all the way to the hotel and back to the Catamaran Cruise, plus the expense of getting there would’ve been more than stopping for food).

But while I was out, he took me to a little hole in the wall place, that didn’t even have a sign/name, or I’d drop it here. My favorite local Barbados cuisine was macaroni pie (which is probably the most American thing of the local Barbados cuisine, but what can I say, I have the simplest palette of all time).

So, after the quick stop off, it was time to meet up with Alex, and that’s where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 4 (Island Safari!)

March 24, 2022

Aurora-and-Alex-on-the-lion-on-Gun-Hill

On Tuesday morning, we woke up first thing and went on a 6-hour “Island Safari.” (So fun!)

We had fantastic guides – that’s right. Guides. Plural, because we had Cory on his last training before he was about to be a grown-up guide by himself the next day.

They started by offering us rum punch. We quickly learned that you will be offered alcohol everywhere you go, always, all the time, in Barbados.

They took us up to Gun Hill where we sat on the famous lion statue. And they took us to every parish in Barbados – except for St. Philip (but I’ll get there later in the week).

We stopped by Bathsheba – which is like a famous beach/rock area.

And we off-roaded many times, tumbling around as much as possible being all thrown around in the back, which Alex couldn’t get enough of, because he loves rollercoasters and things of the like. (I obviously loved it too, but in part I just loved how much he loved it.)

We stopped off at Hackleton’s Cliff, which I think is maybe the 2nd highest point in Barbados? It’s a really nice view of the east coast!

We also stopped by Little Bay, which is VERY cool! It had all these little “blowholes” because of the shapes of the rocks, so the water would sort of bloop bloop up out of the ocean. Very cool!

We saw a lot of beautiful views, and a number of beaches.

Both of our favorite parts were going to Animal Flower Cave.

It’s all the way at the top of the island. It’s like this gorgeous little cove. We actually got there just in time to be last group who got to go down in the cove, as the weather was getting weird. It was cool, looked cool, felt cool, got cool pictures.

And then we made our way back down our side of the island, ending in Holetown (where we were staying).

Once we got back, we hung out a little at the pool again. I finished some scuba diving lessons on my phone, as I had to pass all the modules before I started a speciality certification the next day.

Also, I forgot to put this in our first day, so I’ll just put it here, that we met our new friend Jamie. He was sitting alone at dinner, so we invited him to sit with us. (He had just finished eating, so he didn’t take us up on it then, but later in the week he saw me and we exchanged instagram handles, and we all drank on our last night there… but we’ll get there.)

Anyway, I learned that the GIANT buffet was only a Monday night thing… which was fine, because all buffets were still FULL of options. But the big over-the-top, tons of cooking stations etc., that was a Monday night thing.

(There also was a whole upstairs restaurant we didn’t realize was it’s own special thing until later in the week, but we got there! The main buffet usually had a couple Barbados staples peppered in, but upstairs was all about local cuisine.)

[For anyone tracking my Barbados drinking haha, at this point, I’d barely drank anything… Just a few sips of the welcome drink from the hotel, and a few from the island guys. But I was mostly staying away from alcohol, because I had to be ready to scuba!]

After dinner, we just headed to bed. And then it was time to get up bright and early the next day!

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 3 (Arrival & First Night!)

March 23, 2022

Okay, for whatever reason, I’m having trouble with the media, so you may not be able to see that video, but trust me, it is magical haha.

So, we hop in the cab, and the driver tells us a bit about life in Barbados, and points out some things like a famous statue we pass and everything, until –

Something like 24 hours from when we arrived at LAX we arrived at the Barbados hotel (on March 14)! The Club Barbados. Everyone was SO nice.

(And they handed us welcome drinks. This is the beginning of a long line of everyone offering us drinks all the time.)

We had the BEST room. It was incredible. We could open the door and be ON the beach. And we were just steps away from the bar and dining room. Wanna be drunk at 9am? or midnight? Or really whenever you feel like it? Great news. Take 10 steps and all the free alcohol you could ever want is at your fingertips.

The hotel also gave us a calendar of all the little things we could do everyday! It was pretty cool.

Wheel of Fortune gives you $500 as spending money for your trip, and you absolutely could’ve gone to Barbados, stayed busy completely never leaving the resort, and gotten by on that $500, since the resort was all-inclusive, so it just would’ve had to cover tips [and like airport transport] for the week.

But alas, we didn’t do any of the hotel stuff, because there just wasn’t time! (I mean, maybe there was time that very first day, because you’re about to hear how lazy were were on night one haha, but overall, we had a lot to do!)

Basically, we just unpacked, showered, changed clothes, ate dinner, and then fell asleep at like 7:30 pm, or something insane (after all the travel and time zone hopping – especially, obviously for him, and staying up all night [even though we did sleep some on the plane], etc.).

We did spend a small bit of time at the pool before dinner, and it was really lovely and sweet. And we were playing this question game on my phone. And when one of the questions was what are 3 things you had in common, one of his that came quickly to mind was he thought we were both very chill about everything on vacation and we wouldn’t run into any issues (and boy was he correct). I don’t think of myself as a chill person, but perhaps I’m chill in times, or perhaps I’m chill with him. But it was a chill, amazing week.

The dinner on the first night was amazing! It was the HUGE buffet with everything you could ever imagine. And there were outside stations of people cooking various meals and deserts. It was so decadent.

I truly loved everything about everything – Barbados, the hotel, the room, the food, Alex, the workers the hotel. It was magical. And it just keeps getting more magical after that. So, stick around for part 4!

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 2 (Flying NYC to Bridgetown, Barbados!)

March 22, 2022

So, we sat in JFK and made our itinerary. We actually ended up being thankful for the random very long layover [which originally, we weren’t even supposed to have. The flight for some reason was moved way up and was going to be landing not until 6am, so yay for changes and our layover], because it just took a long time to kind of go through everything and sort out what we wanted to do and compare when various tours and stuff were available vs other places, so we could puzzle piece it all together.

I don’t need to lay out the itinerary for you right now, because you’ll see it as the week unfolds!

As we were completing the itinerary, we had some breakfast – breakfast strombolis, to be exact – which were delicious.

Then we walked around a little, waited for our flight, played some more word games online – any iteration of Wordle we could find, including the math one.

And then it was time… to fly to Barbados!!!

Which… I slept through. (And I think he did too.)

Here comes the part that was most hilarious to me.

Barbados was very strict about Covid entrance requirements. The place where I normally get my PCR tests done didn’t even qualify. I forget exactly why, but like an actual doctor had to do it or something… Whatever the stringent requirements were, I read them very carefully, and I confirmed about 8 million times that I was getting the correct test at the correct place, and it would work.

And Alex asked me a bunch of times if I was sure I was getting it done correctly. He’s been living in Singapore for most of the pandemic, so he made this big deal about how strict international travel is during the pandemic, and I really needed to be careful, etc.

And I was like “I would never mess up our trip to Barbados. I have checked this a billion times.” And then I told him, like “hey, I know you know what you’re doing and you’ve travelled internationally during the pandemic. So, I don’t mean to question you… but… You’re definitely getting the right one, right? Because in reading the Barbados requirements, they are strict. My normal PCR place doesn’t count, and it’s a legit setup with nurses, and it’s good, and accepted by my workplace, school, and doctors offices… but not Barbados. So, it’s tricky.”

And he’s like “I have it under control. Don’t worry.”

And he even made some jokes on the way there about what if I’d messed up.

Well, as you perhaps have guessed from this story, HE’S the one who had a test they didn’t take hahahahaha. It was… so funny to me.

So, he had to get a test done at the airport. So, he was taken to an area I wasn’t allowed to go to, for people who didn’t have the correct test (to get it re-done). So, in the meantime, I went ahead and picked up the bags and started walking around the airport.

Then I found a little Chefette, which is the fast food restaurant of Barbados. (They call KFC Keep From Chefette, because Chefette is the thing out there.) I’d read about it in tourist books, so since I was waiting anyway, figured I might as well go get some Chefette. And it was totally fine. Nothing to super write home about (even though in some ways that’s what I’m literally doing right now), but certainly not bad! I was glad I got the random chance to try to the Barbados staple.

Soon enough, Alex was out of Covid jail. We had a big ol’ laugh about it, but I didn’t want to rub it in his face too much. I wanted him to laugh, not be annoyed or feel embarrassed, so we had a laugh, forgot about Covid tests, and hopped in cab to go to our sweet hotel!

Spring Braedos! (Barbados) – Part 1 (Flying LAX to NYC (first leg)!)

March 21, 2022

Oh my goodness gracious!!!!

I’m gonna tell every little detail because I care too much, and sorry because I’m sure none of you care as much as I do, but for you, you can just skip to the parts strangers might find more interesting.

So, anyway, I’ll start by saying, I never took a traditional “spring break” in all of college or young adulthood, etc. So, it was really cool that this lined up with spring break!

Originally, I was supposed to be flying from New York, but forget that. Blah, blah, blah many reasons, but also, I wanted to fly with Alex, so he didn’t have to be alone for 6 hours!

We were texting on the way to LAX, like “What time do you think you’ll get there?” “What time do you think you’ll get there?”

And then I thought we weren’t on the same schedules, that I’d just meat him at the gate, but I was checking in, he came up behind me and I wanted to cry!

He’d been trying to throw me off slightly, so he could surprise me like that, because he’s quite literally the best.

It felt like forever since I’ve seen him, and when I turned to see who was tapping me, and saw him, my eyes got SO wide, and I gave him the most giant hug.

We checked in for the flight and headed to the gate.

At LAX, we just kind of caught up a bit. We walked around.

We went into the F.A.O. Schwartz there and saw the most GIANT stuffed animal – which was like over $1,000.

I’m think it might’ve been LAX where our Wordle/Octordle/etc excitement first happened. (We definitely played in New York when we had so much time at the layover, but we’ll get there.

So, anyway, we headed to first class, baby!

[Wheel of Fortune did not pay for first class, but they did fly us Jet Blue(!) without us even asking, which was amazing because it’s my favorite airline for life. And your girl has 80 billion points, so I upgraded myself and Alex, because I wanted to surprise him and have this trip be absolutely perfect, and I’m glad because a perfect trip did indeed start of perfectly.]

The pilot came and talked to us! He told us all about where we’d be flying and the weather looked great and all that. We felt like celebrities. Neither of us had ever had a pilot come just say hi for funsies on a flight before.

We talked a little at the start of the flight – especially with some ideas about what we were gonna do in Barbados, and ultimately, we fell asleep for the end of the flight, because we knew we had a long night ahead of us in NYC, and I’m sure his body was super confused about what time it was, since he had come from Singapore and was on his way to yet a new time zone.

We got to New York around 1am, and our next flight left at 8am.

I actually had an apartment in midtown because of grad school! So, we shortly considered going there, but because of how long we thought it would take and the expense, and how much time we’d actually get to spend there, it didn’t seem worth it. So, we stayed at the airport.

I had to pick up my bags, since I tacked on the LA > NY flight, since I told Wheel I wanted to go from New York [because that’s what I thought at the time].

Then there was this HUGE hours-long line forming for people to check their bags. We heard from someone the ETA was something like 3 hours. But thankfully we did not have to wait in it, since we got to go straight to the Jet Blue Mint (first class) area, and they re-checked my bags immediately with no hassle. Boom. Taken care of.

(Seriously. I love JetBlue. They don’t sponsor me in any way, but man would it be great if they did.)

Then security for some reason opened earlier than normal (maybe just because of the sheer amount of people there on apparently a very busy travel weekend). So, we went through and set up shop at a table and chairs to plan out the next week.

(Yes, perhaps we should’ve done this before, but we were both mega busy and on different timezones, so this was the easiest time to do this together, and thankfully we’d both done a fair amount of independent research, so we were ready to combine forces and figure things out!)

And this is where I’ll pick up next time!

It Was Potentially For The Best That I Didn’t Win Toooooo Much Money on Wheel of Fortune

March 14, 2022

[Imagine this posted on March 14, 2022. I’m so sorry everything is continuing to come so, so very out of order. I’m doing the best I can!]

This is posting while we’re in Barbados. And I thought I might as well do a little post about Wheel since we’re taking the trip and everything! (So this is a time to think about it.)

I talked a lot at the time about how much I had wanted the money for plastic surgery to put my body back together after years of weight fluctuations. Well, first off, my weight ended up (for a number of reasons) fluctuating during this pandemic as well.

Maybe, as much I believe I can be someone who’s fit and thin and maintains it, maybe I’m someone who’ll be struggling her whole life. Who knows. (Maybe had I gotten plastic surgery, my pandemic would’ve been different and things would be different. I dunno.)

But anyway, I talked about how I was sure that if I’d won a lot of money, I was going to use it for plastic surgery. And here are the two good things that came out of not winning the money.

  1. Since we went into a pandemic, I ended up having the opportunity to go back to school. And since my parents wanted to pay for it the first time, they went ahead and helped tremendously with me going back to finish. And they made it super clear that had I had a LOT more Wheel money, and not wanted to spend it on school? They would’ve respected that, but they wouldn’t have helped with school at all, in that case.

    So, had I won more (including the bonus round), I would’ve absolutely used it for plastic surgery. My parents would not have paid for school. I wouldn’t have had enough for school and plastic surgery. So, I wouldn’t have gone to school. And now, not only am I done with my Bachelor’s. I rolled right into grad school!

    I don’t know if my education will ever mean anything. But now I’ll have a Master’s degree, when I wouldn’t have otherwise. And hopefully that will do something for me, at some point!

  2. I started teaching private lessons, and I really liked it!

    I felt bad that I had ‘lost’ so much money. (I mean, it’s hard to lose when it wasn’t yours to begin with.) But I wanted to figure out some way to ‘get it back’. So, I started looking at every little way I could to earn extra money.

    Now, I haven’t made anywhere near the $37,000 (bonus round money) from teaching. But! I’ve met some really cool students, and figured out new ways to share my love of music and dance!

    It’s really been a good addition to my life, and I highly doubt I would’ve done it otherwise.

So, in the end, everything always works out. You can almost always find silver lining to things. And these were my silver linings about not winning more money on Wheel!

2 Years After My “Wheel of Fortune” Episode

March 13, 2022

Well, I can’t believe exactly two years after I taped my episode, I’m at an airport waiting to fly on the trip I won.

(Normally, it would’ve been one year. But… you know. Pandemic.)

Anyway, I recently re-watched the episode. And you know what? It kinda held up way better than I thought.

At the time of the original airing, I was so embarrassed, I wanted to crawl into a hole. I was just really super wildly embarrassed. And I was a little bit catastrophizing.

But looking back on it now? Still not the best day. Some of my little fake laughing when I’m trying to play the game, but trying to also play nice is a little cringey and annoying still. But at the time, it just felt like such an overwhelming failure and embarrassment, that seeing it as just a little cringey feels like a win to me.

I’ll take it! And I CAN’T WAIT to tell you all about Barbados, as I’m positive Alex and I are already having the best time as you’re reading this!

SPRING BRAEDOS! (Barbados on Spring Break ;))

March 12, 2022

It’s time for the trip I won on Wheel of Fortune!

I am taking my best friend in the world, Alex.

I have no idea how busy we’ll be, if there will be time to blog. So, I’ll just posting random nonsense on autopost while we’re gone, and on the 21st… get ready for all of the tales!!!

I’m beyond excited!

Spring Braedos. Here we go baby!

My Last Job Before The Nightly Show (2015)

February 22, 2022

Picking up from yesterday –

Originally the Job or No Job people sweetly asked if I wanted to roll onto another show. But I politely declined because while I loved their vibe, I was reeeeeeally hoping I was going to get into BMI. And I didn’t want to leave them high and dry, knowing I wouldn’t get to give much notice at all.

Plus, I had an offer on the table for a union gig. Money toward my pension. Health insurance weeks. The whole thing. And the money was pretty good for an AE salary. (I’m pretty sure it was around ~$1,850/week, which seemed very fair for AE stuff, at the time.) Plus, it was a reasonably simple job that wasn’t as complicated as shows needing to sync a million cameras, etc.

So, that seemed smarter to take. [I did need to take something. I had to live as though I wasn’t going to get into BMI – even though I was hoping I would.]

I took the night union gig, feeling all grown up that my boss who gave me my first AE gig was seeing me as not such a newb anymore.

And then I got BMI. But! I happened to work a Tuesday night – Saturday night schedule. And as crazy as it sounds, it seemed more financially feasible to stay in my affordable apartment in LA and fly out once a week (most weeks) than to spend all the money to move to NYC.

So, that was my plan!

…But then I got The Nightly Show, which I had to take. And which was the best dream of my life thus far.

That has been covered very, very much in detail on this blog. So, I’ll drop a link here to where you can check that out, whenever I organize this blog (if ever haha aye aye aye). And then tomorrow I’ll pick up with after The Nighty Show!

So What Do I Hope For In The Next 10 Years of This Blog/My Life?

January 19, 2022

Blogging is already slightly ‘out of fashion’.

Most people have moved on to videos. In the last 10 years, Vine came and went. YouTube is still kind of around. TikTok seems to be the thing of the moment now.

So, I don’t know if this blog will still exist. I hope it does! I hope as long as wordpress keeps existing, I keep writing. And if wordpress doesn’t exist, I hope I’m able to move this blog to a different website. So, okay, let’s assume that somehow in whatever crazy future we’re living in with holograms and chips implanted in our hands and stuff, that somehow, someway this blog is still existing, and I’m still writing in it –

Well, I would actually, from my first blog post, still like to run a marathon in every state. So, I’d love to be at least halfway done with this. So, if right now I’m at 7 states, I’d like to get 18 more, so I can be at 25 states.

I’d also in general like to do a marathon on every continent, so it’d be nice if I could be halfway (or over halfway) done with that. So, maybe marathons on 3 more continents (since I obviously already have North America).

I want to visit every country in the world. I don’t know that I need to be halfway done, per se – though I would love to be! But even if I can be somewhere in the vicinity of 60 or so countries (total, not just in the next 10 years, but including ones I’ve already been to), I would call that a huge win, as international travel can be somewhat hard to make happen.

I’d loooooove to be at least two awards into an EGOT. Sadly, a fair amount of that is out of my control. But some of it also is! So, I can try my best, and cross my fingers. I really do want that EGOT – although as I get older I realize both how much harder it is than I thought, and seeing peers win a number of those, I see how winning awards never actually fulfills people in any meaningful way. But still. I think I would love it nonetheless.

On a personal note, I’d like to be a lot better at being a thermostat, not a thermometer [a great things Cory Booker always says], and setting the tone in my life rather than letting other people set it, or responding so hard to what they do – and I mean this micro and macro, to be good and emotionally regulated in close relationships, and also in small things or with people I don’t know at all – e.g. to not to so exasperatedly exclaim “representative!!” when I’m in an annoying robot menu of some business.

I’d like to feel more deeply connected to people, and I’d like to have more connections in general. Pre-pandemic, one of my friends always joked about how I knew everyone, and if he needed access to an astronaut, he’d come to me, because he’d know I would know someone who could get him an astronaut.

I think I’ve let a lot of people fall away during the pandemic, but I like being that ultra-connected person. So, I’d like to be that connected, but also having deeper connections with people, and really try to prioritize that instead of just clearly measurable goals (such as number of countries and marathons and that type of thing).

I’d love to be on at least 5 more game shows. Technically, you can be on one a year, and I’d like to try to be on a bunch (with the idea being that just due to tape schedules and stuff, you’ll probably never be in a perfect rotation of as soon as a year passes, immediately getting on your next one). But 5 is assuming every other year. So, while I know you don’t always get cast in every game show, I’m gonna do my best.

I really want to be on a dance team for a professional sports team – preferably in the NBA, but practically any sport will do. I have always wanted to do this. And if I don’t do it in the next 10 years, it is extraordinarily unlikely I ever will. (I mean, there have been cheerleaders in their 40s, but they are VERY rare. And I guess you could be in that group for seniors that dances for the New York Liberty, but that’s not really what I’m after.) So, in the next 10 years, I’d LOVE to be on a professional dance team for some team, somewhere. Even just a season would scratch the itch of that urge.

I want to finally give my freaking kidney to a stranger! How long has it been that I’ve been trying to do that?! Geeeeeez haha. So, if I get 10 more years, that BETTER happen.

I’d love to raise $35,000 more dollars for charity/political causes I believe in, in the next 10 years. I’ve done a little over $15,000 through various charity stuff so far, and it’d be nice to get up to $50,000 that I’d done in my lifetime. (It’d be great if it could even be more.)

I want to learn to ride a bike already haha. That’s something I talk about doing all the time. And then I want to use it to enjoy more athletic events – century bike rides, triathlons, just some cool stuff!

I’d like to have another advanced degree (besides my MA, which I’ve already done). And I won’t pick now, because I think a lot of them could be super interesting, but whatever one I get (if I do get one), I want it to be something I’m SUPER passionate to learn about. I don’t want to do it for another bullet point on a resume, but I want to get things out of it, truly – to expand my brain.

I’d like to do at least 5 more “52 in 52 projects,” outside of the one I’m currently doing. And I’d love if at least 3 of them felt truly worthwhile. The ones I’ve done thus far have kind of run the gamut. And the one I’m currently doing (52 yoga poses) is basically just to remember to stretch, and something that was doable in the pandemic without breaking my streak. So, I’d love for them to be things that that feel worthwhile, and not just “time for a project.”

I guess all that to say, I think I want to try to like overall live a little more meaningfully in the next 10 years. While a lot of the “stuff” might be the same I want to live more to do the things I want – not just the things that will look good, but the things I really want. And I want to try to really enjoy them instead of always wondering what’s next, and looking to the next thing…

It’s good, of course to always want more, to want to do more, achieve more, grow more. But my ability to truly enjoy the present moment has waned back and forth throughout the years. And I hope I’m fairly successfully at that over these next 10 years.

If you have anything you think I missed, any other ideas, etc, please let me know in the comments. And I check on this in 2032, and see how things worked out!

10 Years Since The Blog Started!

January 18, 2022

Wow. I can’t really believe it’s been 10 whole years, can you?

I’ve been trying to update the blog lately, so I’ve been going back to the archive, to keep looking to find my blank spots in the calendars.

And I noticed that when you look at the years up top, it’s been 10 whole years.

So, I went back and read the first post.

In that post I say I want to continue to have a lot of adventures, and make the world a better place, and become more of a well-rounded person.

I say I want to have an adventure-filled life, and that my life and the blog will hopefully encompass a lot of things.

I also say I have plenty of goals. I lay some of them out in the post, and then I say I’ll talk about some of them as time goes on.

Well, let’s see how things have turned out over the past 10 years.

As far as having varied adventures and hitting goals –

  • I was on three more games shows. (I’d already been on one before the blog started.)
  • I worked for Jon Stewart, which was dope! (In fact, I worked on a number of interesting shows – including with the Jacksons!!!)
  • I finished undergrad, and will be finishing grad school within the next 6 months [edited to add: I finished].
  • I lived in LA and New York multiple times each, and I even did a few-month stint in Mexico for a job.
  • I hadn’t visited Europe yet, and now I’ve been multiple times. And I went to Africa for the first (and second!) time as well.
  • I tackled multiple “52 in 52 projects” – the half marathons, the volunteer activities, the performances, and more.
  • I got back into dance, which I missed a lot. And started doing ballet en pointe!
  • I said on that blog post that I wanted to run a marathon in every state, and I did 7 of them so far. (Would be nice to have more, but not so bad, especially considering we’ve been in a pandemic for the last 3 years).

If I’m forgetting things, please, of course feel free to tell me (if somehow you remember something about my own life I don’t, which would be funny, but also possible).

And overall, I’m sort of doing it. I’m lived a fairly varied life. I’ve had adventures. I’ve let you in on most of it.

And it’s wild to think 10 years have gone by.

I did say in the first post that I wanted to win an EGOT and be a neurosurgeon. And man, let me tell you… I am not even one award into that EGOT. I am not even one *nomination* into that EGOT. So, I don’t know what’s gonna happen with that, if anything, ever. I’ve been on the pre-ballot – to get to the nomination round 4 times. And yet!

And the neurosurgeon thing, that was mainly tongue-and-cheek silliness, but I don’t know how anyone would’ve possible known that on a first blog post, so it was a bit of a silly thing to say, but also part of me still actually thinks I might be a neurosurgeon someday. So who knows! Anything is possible!

Sometimes An Ethical Maze, Working In TV

January 16, 2022

I hardly even know where to start.

I think this is one of the reason I loved The Good Place so much. Everything is just so sticky, and hard to pick apart, and nuanced.

When I was growing up, I think I loved to believe that there weren’t a million ethical quandaries in working in entertainment. But as I’ve gotten older, that’s clearly changed.

I think working in reality shows at all [the ones based on ‘real’ people, not already famous people, or people who have a ‘reality show persona’] in and of itself had a million ethical issues.

But now, with the rise of Trump – who came from reality TV (oof), I can imagine someone who worked on The Apprentice, AT THE TIME, thinking “mmm, not a great show, a little overly fake, this dude is a blowhard,” but it not seeming like the end of the world.

And now… a Trump show is on their resume. (I mean, maybe not. Maybe they’ve taken it off, unless they worked on it for many, many seasons so it’s a big part; or if they use it as an insane conversation starter.)

But like who would’ve POSSIBLY known the full extent to how bad Trump was? (Maybe a lot of people, and I’m naive. But, back pre-2015… I don’t think(?) we all knew? I didn’t know!)

So, working on The Dr. Oz show was kind of a dream. He was so nice when I was a guest on his show. Great when I worked on his show. He tried to keep people in the loop about their futures, as he was gonna give up the show. They paid good money. We had VERY reasonable work/life balance (or, at least my job did).

So it’s hard to work at such a cool place with such cool people, but it feel weird… I mean, I knew he was a peddler of things we were all reasonably sure didn’t work. But I didn’t feel that was too crazy, because it’s a daytime talk show. I sort of think that’s just part of the daytime talk/beauty/diet/etc industry that you expect people to tune out a bit (maybe?).

Plus, I mainly did the digital side. So, just editing yoga videos and stuff that just seemed like ‘whatever, how could this possibly be bad?’

But. Now that he’s gone SO red, SO vocally, SO fast… like… being against vaccines?! (And as a doctor, no less?!)

I feel like in some ways, it’s almost silly and funny to work for a ‘known charlatan’ but it’s a whole different thing when it’s like… a Trump surrogate. And now it’s like (eeeeeep… what are people gonna think when they see my IMDb page?)

And in this case, I worked with him CLOSE to him going and being a Trumper. So like… that’s probably worse than had it been 10 years later or something.

It’s a minefield out there (as The Good Place let us know – if only I could work on shows like that)!

How Did I Ethically Feel, Working For Dr. Oz?

January 15, 2022

It’s kinda weird…

I don’t think I fully understood the extent of who he was, or at least who he is now, before he started running for Senate.

When I went on the show, it was an episode about sexual assault. He seemed reasonably informed and empathetic. He had pictures of him with many democrats in the dressing rooms and the halls – including Michelle Obama!

I met a number of people who worked on the shows who were democrats.

I never knew him to be this super red, gun-loving, science-hating dude.

I mean, I did know some people thought of him as a bit of a charlatan. And I didn’t think all of his weight loss tips and tricks probably worked. But I didn’t imagine that to be that harmful. Lots of people give meh weight loss advice.

Also, I mainly did stuff for “OzTube,” which meant I was just editing yoga videos and stuff, and that’s simple enough. That didn’t seem too harmful.

So, it’s really interesting how people can ultimately seem to be far more harmful than you initially realized.

And I don’t know if that means they just were more harmful to begin with, and hid it. Or if I’m a little pollyanna. Or if people change. Or if it’s mixes of all those things. Who knows!

But yeah, I was unaware of the full extent of everything while working for an arm of the Dr. Oz show [and while being taped as a guest!] And that’s why I did those things.

I’m surprised to see how he’s acting now. And obviously, just because I worked there, I, in no way, endorse his Senate campaign.

Our Final Episode of The Dr Oz Show

January 14, 2022

Well, what a whirlwind it’s been…

From taping an episode of his show as a guest, to it not airing, to be a digital editor working for the show, to now the show ending, it feels like I’ve had a lot of interaction with something I ultimately haven’t been super connected with. I’ve only been to the studio one time!

The people I worked with there were incredible. Super nice. I didn’t meet one mean person there, or one person who didn’t pull their weight.

They had super reasonable hours. A nice work/life balance. They even gave us 5 paid days off!!! I don’t know that I’ve ever had a job that gives you paid time off. They even offered insurance(!).

Also, Dr. Oz himself was really good about keeping us updated with what his plans were gonna be, and that we should be preparing for the show to end. So, he’s tried to be very human about it all.

It was really a great job in every way.

Now, how I ethically felt about working there – I’ll cover it in another post. But overall, it was a good job. Now we’re done, and they’re rolling us all over to The Good Dish, which I’m excited about!

I Finally WATCHED The Ball Drop! – Part 2 (Okay, The Actual Ball Drop Part)

January 4, 2022

Picking up from yesterday

So, the actual ball drop was pretty cool.

It was cool immediately before to see the Times Square screens turned into TV screens to watch all the happenings of New Years Rockin’ Eve.

And then the ball drop was so dramatic. I don’t know why I didn’t remember from the televised event the super loud clicking for the whole 60 seconds.

I also didn’t realize it was a whole 60 second thing. I thought it basically just the last 10 seconds. And for some reason I expected the ball to go so fast.

You would’ve thought I’d never watched it, based on how surprised I was.

Anyway, it was SO cool to see in person. Like, truly, pretty amazing.

I will say though, that back when I lived on 46th, it felt a lot more “in the action.”

It’s crazy how much literally just a couple of blocks (still being in the 40s!) can affect how much you’re in the middle of it/how much confetti rains down on you (well, also there were fewer people all over this year, so that could’ve been part of it).

One thing I thought was kind of cute was how when I looked around, the cops were in awe and a few were taking video themselves.

I feel like it’d be easy to be jaded about the magic of Times Square New Years. So, I was happy to see them seemingly enjoying it.

I darted back in and was one of the first on the elevators, before everything got crazy and things got crowded inside – trying to evade the deadly virus and everything.

As far as my main person Times Square “FAQ” I had going into it – I thought living in Times Square would basically allow me sooooo much access all around Times Square. Like, I thought maybe I’d go check out the delicatessen up a few blocks because I’ve always been curious if people wait to watch the ball there.

Well, I couldn’t find out. Once you’re in, you’re in. There were barricades at the top, bottom, and both sides of my block. I guess I could’ve left, but it seemed super hard to get in, so I just stayed right on put.

So, yeah, I suppose that covers it. If you have any questions for me, please let me know! And I will take another Covid test in a couple of days to be sure [I hope!] that I didn’t get it 🙂

I Finally WATCHED The Ball Drop! – Part 1 (So Scared of Covid)

January 3, 2022

Okay, first off, I know it’s so easy for the first reaction to be “omg, how could you with the Omicron surge? And I totally get it. I was kind of judgmental of it all happening still. But, please know that I spent *literally* 2 minutes outside. I was double masked with an N95 and a face shield. I was outside of the barricade, outside of the crowd. I literally live here haha. So, let’s hope that precaution was enough! Now, let’s get into it!

If you’ve been a long time reader of the blog, you might know that I have been JUST off the edge of the ball drop 2 years. I used to live in the mid 40s between 6th and 7th, and I was SO close. I might even argue officially ‘closer’ than I am now – but no view of the ball.

And when I moved back for grad school, I very specifically picked a building where I could SEE the ball. So, it became this whole internal struggle of whether I should watch the ball drop. I picked this apartment in large part for the ONE night.

But I also am hardcore being intense to people about being responsible in the pandemic.

All that being said, I went up to the roof a couple of times during the day. There were signs saying all of our public terraces/rooftops in the building were closing at 8, due to New Years.

So, I went to take some videos of the ball – and the crowd – from an above view, to get a sense of it and update my curious friends.

At 7:45 I went back up to the roof to get one last look at things before they were gonna shut it down. (I also wanted to see if it was possible I might be able to secretly stay up there… I could not.)

There were cops and NYC transportation people and all these official people all around my building. They did a full on sweep of the roof at 8 – every little nook and cranny you could think of, and they completely locked it up. And I even asked “had I somehow been able to hide, would I have been able to chill here for the next 4 hours to watch the ball drop?” and they were like “no. We have snipers there, there, there [pointing], and they’d call in there was someone on this roof who needed to be swept.”

So, the roof was a no go. Weirdly, the roof seemed more dangerous than just being downstairs, since too many maskless people were up there. So, I fairly quickly got out of there.

And then I kept seeing everyone’s tweets of how irresponsible it was to be in Times Square. And I thought “oof, I don’t know if I can do this. I can’t be the worst.”

So, I went down around 11pm.

[I can’t directly see the ball from my apartment window, but you can see it right outside my door.]

So, I went down and the whole entire sidewalk was open and the crowds were herded in the middle of the street.

I sat on this big rectangle on the sidewalk until a cop was like “nobody can hang out here until 15 minutes ’til. This area is locked down.”

So, I went back upstairs, and around 11:45, I heard a huge group of people from the apartment next to mine laughing and going down the hall. I remembered how many people were on the roof and how many people live here and just thought “oh boy this might be dangerous!”

I was just gonna skip it so as not to press my luck. I even got in bed, like “just go to sleep.”

But then around 5 minutes ’til or so, I put on masks, goggles, and face shield, slipped on shoes, and ran down the stairs. My doorman was like “geez, just a minutes to spare!”

As soon as I got outside, I was filming another little video of how I wasn’t at all *in* the crowd, and I was just on the sidewalk far behind everyone – even the people who’d come out from my building.

But as SOON as I’d started, the 60 second countdown started and we were off to the races.

2021 In Review – Part 4 (Nov/Dec – Conclusion)

January 2, 2022

Picking up from yesterday –

November – Marched in the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade. So cool, right?!

I also re-passed Advanced at The Groundlings (over zoom). You only get 2 years to take Writer’s Lab after you pass advanced, and I passed in the fall of 2019. So, in the fall of 2021, since I couldn’t take writer’s lab (as it still wasn’t being offered [pandemic – shots, shots, shots, shots, shots], and I was in NYC), I retook it online.

[Note: The Groundlings is allowing people to extend their results because of how long people haven’t been able to take classes in person. But since we don’t know for sure how long that’s gonna last, best to just get this done.]

And I was in class with the coolest people. I had SO much fun!

December – Finished my first semester of grad school (getting an MA in Creative Media & Technology specializing in Writing & Design for Musical Theatre). And got a 4.0! I also got to watch the ball drop live in Times Square, which was pretty darn cool.

Overview: As you can tell, this year was very much wrapped up in… school? Music? Writing? All of the above. A few side musical theater projects, and going to school – that had a lot of writing for lots of musical theater elements. Yeah… a lot of work…

A lot of being indoors… I mean, some not. This didn’t all make it in the things by month review, but I did go to Florida and scuba dive a bit before grad school, as things seemed safer. And I did travel back to LA and do all the theme park stuff. It wasn’t like zero adventures happened. Or like I never went outside. (I marched in the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade and saw the ball drop! haha)

But yeah… I guess it was a lot of school and projects, ultimately – especially in the first half. What a surreal year that both flew by and also took 1,000 years. But I suppose that’s how time works in general.

2021 In Review – Part 3 (August – October)

January 1, 2022

Picking up from yesterday –

July – Built a video game. We were going really hard toward the end of the semester/end of undergrad completely. So, pretty much all I did was work on projects. And one of those projects was for one of my minors – Sound Design for Video Games.

My game was overall based on a template, and it was fairly simple. So, it’s not like I built something that’s gonna change the world. But it was cool to be flexing the really technical muscles in my brain and know that I built a video game!

August – I freaking somehow did it. Finished undergrad after all these billions of years. Double major in Music Production & Engineering, and Electronic Production & Design with a double minor in Sound Design for Video Games, and Creative Coding. I also technically finished all the requirements for Music Business, even though Berklee doesn’t officially offer 3 majors.

September – Started working at The Drew Barrymore Show. Loved getting another talk show under my belt, and having a job in New York, while in grad school.

(Oh, I also ‘moved’ to New York [LA is always home base, but for the year], and started grad school.

October – The Ava DuVernay reality show I worked on aired! That was cool. (I don’t generally do reality anymore, but working for her is an obvious exception.) I felt lucky to be a part of it!

Also in New York, I did my first live performance since the pandemic started. (I know, I know, a pandemic mention. Take a shot.)

My friends had a comedy show, and asked me to come do a couple comedy songs. So happy they included me!

Also, in October, I did aaaaaaaall the Halloween things in LA. I’d always wanted to see what the various theme parks and things were like in LA. For various reasons, I spent weeks in October here. So, I got it all in!

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

52 Yoga Poses in 52 Weeks!

December 31, 2021

Welp. Like many many things in the last 2 years, this is yet another one that’s changing.

I do a new “52 in 52” thing ever 2 or so years, and I HAD to start one before 2021 ended, because I wanted to have one in the 2021-2022 year frame.

Originally, it was supposed to be “52 New York things in 52 weeks,” and I decided to make a last second change before it was too late to change!

I got about 6 deep into the New York things, and then this new surge of Covid hit like wild and I just don’t know what the rest of the year holds. So, I’m gonna still do some New York things [ball drop in Times Square coming tomorrow!] but, I’m switching it up!

The “official” project for this year is going to be 52 yoga poses in 52 weeks.

This one will be interesting, because it feels like the first one that will have a lot of work on the front end for a lot of results on the back end.

But yeah, I was looking for something that realistically can be done from anywhere because who knows if we go remote and I’m in LA again, or wherever I am if I’m kinda stuck at home. And I wanted something I felt was really going to add to my life – and help build up something that felt like it was missing.

Over the pandemic, I’ve been sitting more than I’d like and my body’s getting a little more creaky. I need to stretch more. Flexibility will help with dance and fitness and my confidence. So, what seemed to be the easiest way to measure flexibility? 52 yoga poses!

I don’t know if I have to have an “official” one “done” in 2021 for it to count as me “starting” right now. [I did stretch today!]

But if I do, rest assured, I know child’s pose perfectly!

I look forward to learning more this year!

2021 In Review – Part 2 (April – July)

December 30, 2021

April – Fully vaxxed, baby! I know I’m trying not to over-mention the pandemic in this blog. If we already can’t escape it, no sense in talking about it all the time – especially in the sort of ‘record’ of my life I’m keeping. It’s something I don’t imagine I’m going to want to deeply remember. But anyway! I guess I don’t always have to give that preamble haha.

Thank goodness for science. Thank goodness for the vaccine. And I was finally able to get my shot in April!

May – Started up at Westside ballet again – virtually, since we are in a pandemic and everything. But last year, I had broken my foot. It took forEVER to heal. Tbh, I’m not even 100% sure it is 100% healed even still. But I LOVED taking ballet there when I had a job on the west side in 2019. I always miss ballet when I’m not doing it. So, I’m stoked to be taking some virtual classes there. And I’m so happy they offer virtual as an option!

June – Fire breathing, baby! That was my new birthday thing. It was very, very cool. I love that I got to experience that.

July – Finished another sketch class at the Groundlings. (I know. It’s not a big year. I guess keep in mind most stuff is still happening virtually at this point. Plus, it just felt like I was always doing homework. I was in SO many classes, and hard classes for undergrad. And the world was still not open for the first part of this year. So… I know finishing a sketch class isn’t a huge deal or anything. But it is something I did in July. And it was nice to get more sketches in the book!

This is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

2021 In Review – Part 1 (January – March)

December 29, 2021

Every year, I say there has to be a better way to do this than by month…
And every year, I do it by month anyway! haha

So, I had a little trouble doing these first couple months, but I suppose here’s what I’ll go with.

January – This was one of the many months I was working on and off with the New York Public Library “Across a Crowded Room” event where people (oftentimes, including this time for me, strangers) write a mini-musical together. So, that was cool to work with new people, including the NYPL.

February – Pretty deep into undergrad here, in my second-to-last (and a very tough) semester. I was learning stuff about physical computing, soldering, and all that crazy stuff. Let’s go!

March – “Between Us Productions” (a place where I’d put on the mini-version of my domestic violence show years ago) reached out to me and asked if I’d be up for being in a virtual festival they were doing – raising money for Black Girls Code. Of course! Any excuse to write music and be in another festival. (Plus, I love Black Girls Code, and am so happy to support them.)

The mini-musical I wrote was called “Can’t Wait For Next June.” It’s about a person never fully taking in the moment, because they’re always too excited about what comes next. It was an idea I had a long, long time ago for my BMI year 1 final. I never explored it. And it didn’t turn out exactly how I thought about it in my mind back then, but I was happy with how it turned out, and I think they were too!

They hit their financial goal for Black Girls Code, so it was a nice night overall!

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

A Little Girl Rating Emmys Dresses

September 14, 2021

I saw a TikTok of a cute little kid rating Emmys dresses.

And I feel like this is how we should always do it?

Too often, I hear people talk about Emmy fashion in ways that’s more about bodies than the dress. But this little girl just noticed all this little stuff… All the little jewelry and stuff. She seemed to think basically everybody was pretty. And even someone making a ‘weird’ face, she didn’t judge it. She just asked if they were asleep! haha

It felt so innocent. And selfishly, I extrapolated it to not just think about Emmy people, but myself. Imagine if we could treat ourselves with this level of excitement and love – happy about our frills and everything!

So How Did Undergrad Shake Out?

August 28, 2021

It was kinda hard!

But if you can believe it, I finished!

I definitely did feel at the end that I was so ready to be done, after such a hard push for what felt like a really long time.

It was a weird dichotomy. I felt kinda sad in the spring that it would all be ending. Felt like a chapter closing that in many ways I liked having open – as though there were always possibilities as long as the book was open.

I had so many great professors, and I was really gonna miss them! Plus, I loved making friends with tutors and some classmates. So, the idea of leaving was kinda sad!

But… a bunch of them were graduating. A bunch of people were already gone by the time I started summer, which made it easier.

Also, there was a lot of pressure on the summer classes. They were the big final classes for both my majors and both my minors, so just very project-full. And I was pretty beyond exhausted – which also made it easier to let go of the bittersweet ‘I don’t want to leave’ feeling.

So yeah, I did successfully finish. I did learn a lot!

Some things that stick out (that I don’t think I’ve mentioned too much yet) are:

  • how to make a personal sound library and good personal sound effects
  • how to use a turntable/techniques for that
  • how to use the program Max
  • how to do basic programming in multiple computer languages
  • the basics of how to make a video game

And I increased skills in understanding ProTools and things I had some knowledge of before. But those come to mind as things basically brand new, within the last year, if not the last semester or two.

Very happy to end with Prince Charles as my last professor in undergrad. He’s a gem. I will miss him, but I’m sure I’ll still bug him sometimes.

So… yeah, I don’t know much else to say [unless anyone leaves any specific questions or anything in the comments] except… I’m done! 🙂

[…And now we’re about to start grad school!]

The 3 Birthday Questions (2021)

June 24, 2021

Bahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Goodness, goodness, goodness gracious. What a freaking year.

Buckle up ’cause this is a really long post (sorry… I’ve been gone a while, and a lot has happened to reflect on).

Now that the world is opening up again, I reeeeeally want to start blogging again, and I was gonna do a whole post that was sort of like “I’m emerging. Here’s what happened during quarantine.” However, I actually think I can probably just fit that all in here, since this is a reflective post on the year anyway…

So, I guess let’s get to the questions.

1) What are you proudest of from this year?

Big oof! haha Okay, we’ll get to failures in the next one, because I don’t have a lot that I’m proud of this year, but I guess I’m gonna go with –

I got accepted in a grad school program I really wanted to do. (I’m going to Berklee to studying writing for musical theatre, and I’ll start this September).

I also just (like just under the wire of my birthday haha) got hired to work on an Ava DuVernay show, so that is pretty dope.

Besides that, you know, I dunno. For the first like 7 or so months of the pandemic, I kept up with things pretty well, worked out a lot. Overall kept my sanity haha. Kept up with zoom ballet and even some zoom improv and sketch. I also went back to finish undergrad (because if I’m gonna go to grad school, I obviously have to have graduated from undergrad).

I worked on my first ever cartoon (obviously from home, as that’s where basically all computer-y jobs went). And I also worked on a documentary about racial justice issues produced by LeBron James.

And I worked on a talk show and got to edit some great episodes (Cory Booker, Anita Hill, Debbie Allen, Pete Buttigieg).

I also volunteered during the pandemic. I did this phone volunteer thing to check on seniors and make sure they were getting food.

I think that’s all the sort of good I can think of. But when you write it out like that, maybe there’s a liiiittle more good (at least for part of the year) than I give myself credit for).

2) – the opposite of that question in a way in which you choose to look at it (e.g. your biggest failure, regret, lesson etc.)?

Oh my haha.

So… I know a lot of people really struggled during the pandemic – all in various ways. And to some extent, it maybe hardened all of us. So, I’m sure I’m not alone in calling this a “tough year.”

That being said, I feel like I just keep calling every year a “tough year.” For the last like maybe 5 years (which is really starting to be like… a long time! That’s like half a freaking decade! Where is my life going?), while I’ve had some very super bright spots, overall, I just keep thinking I’m in a “tough year” or a “rough patch” or a “tough spot,” but it’s like a temporary setback and things will be great soon…

But then I just hit another setback and I like never actually get the real momentum I want. I always feel like I’m on the precipice and something happens.

And I can’t 100% tell if it’s because I’ve had some unluckiness, or if it’s because a traumatic thing from about 5 years ago knocked me out so badly, that I’ve been so ‘weak’ every time I tried to fully get up that any normally smaller thing just like knocks me on my feet –

or if it’s that my resilience gets lower as I get older and more like ‘life battle scars’ or whatever… or if maybe in some ways, I’m not doing *as* bad as I think, and I’m sort of overblowing it?

But for one thing,
A) When it comes to regrets and lessons and stuff, I sincerely hope I don’t say on my next birthday, “oh, it’s been a really tough year.” Like, even IF it is a “really tough year,” I hope I am able to have a higher level of resilience and positivity and willpower, and just like basically force it to be a good year haha

So, that’s sort of an overall thing. As for some other failures this year:

B) I feel like I’ve been way more selfish than I’d like to be. My last “52 in 52” project was “52 interviews in 52 weeks” where I interviewed either strangers or people I knew just to like get to know them better and try to put the conversation on them more. [I’m so far behind on this blog, I haven’t even published most of them.]

And the whole reason I wanted that specifically as my project was because I thought I was sort of inward focused on some of my personal problems. I was distracted and bad at staying present, ruminating on things I needed to “fix,” and kind of leaning on others too much in my stress.

So, i wanted to be a better listener, and a better friend, and go first more when it came to asking questions/asking people how they are/how their day is/etc.

But the project didn’t really stick. I was hoping I’d form a habit. But if anything, during the confluence of events in my life in quarantine, etc., I feel like I’ve gotten even more inward/more distracted/more selfish. So, I hate that.

And I haven’t been selfish all the time, of course. But more than I wanted. A good example is a friend whom I don’t know if I’ve ever missed their birthday – I even sent cards all the way to Afghanistan when they were over there… I forgot to even send a text last week. Like, that’s not good.

So, I just want to re-open my eyes to other people and really make them feel loved.

B (conclusion)) Yeah… I wanna love more. [That’s not my like “official” answer to the question. But I would like to do that.]

C) Trust my gut more! The issues that caused me more and longer pain than they should have mainly came from not just trusting myself. I have a good (iiiish kinda) internal compass. I should use it.

D) I didn’t give my kidney away! (Cry face!) I will give that its whole entire update post. But aye aye aye aye aye aye aye. So, the biggest goal from last year was not indeed achieved.

E) I told myself I would never gain weight back after losing so much. And after some years, I finally did indeed gain some back. Which sucks. In September of last year, I took a huge emotional hit right at the same time I broke my foot. So, physical health not good, which emotional heath not good, while starting 22 credits at school and working full time for part of that. And then I took another giant emotional hit in February. Like… there were just some perfect storms where I ended up gaining some weight back and I greatly regret that a lot. It’s embarrassing and it feels crappy.

It’s not so out of hand it can’t be fixed. And I’m working on that now. But eesh.

F) Not standing up more for myself. This is probably applicable in many ways. But one of the ways is my medical care for my broken foot was kind of confusing and all over the place with the plans often changing and they decided to take my cast off early. And my leg was itchy and I trust doctors, so like, “okay, if they think early is good, I should get it off early after all.” But no. It didn’t totally heal correctly, and it’s affecting my ability to do ballet, and that’s not helping with the weight stuff. So, I would’ve rather just had the cast on for another month than have problems with my feet that I’m scared I might now have for the rest of my life. [And this goes hand in hand with the trusting my gut thing too.]

G) I didn’t do what I said I was gonna do last year – not just in the kidney thing, but in the not riding the fence thing! I rode the fence even HARDER. [I don’t really want to get into it because it’s about a relationship and I don’t like to talk about those publicly/on the blog]. So, I’ll just kind of quickly and vaguely say I both kind of loved and hated someone. A real Ross and Rachel sitch. And I couldn’t really decipher between love and hate haha. And we did the 1,000 breakups. And I can say all I want like “he was confusing and I was following him. How could I not ride the fence if he was? I needed him to get down on one side or the other, so I could join,” but like… I have autonomy and freewill. So, I went exactly AGAINST what my lesson was supposed to be of last year and caused me and someone else (and probably my friends and other people in our circles) heartache. So, that sucks. So, no more riding the fence, for real. Which leads me to my actual lesson I’d like to work on (and a bonus one):

H – The “OFFICIAL” answer) Cory Booker says all the time he wants to be a “thermostat, not a thermometer.” You don’t want to react to the temperature. You want to set it. And I feel I’ve been very reactionary, at least in the past year, and maybe even before that. So, I would like to work on setting the temperature. And that can be really hard because I know I’m kind of a people pleaser at heart. So, I look to others for their moods and how to try to keep them stable… But I’ve kind of realized that the more I’m just trying to find reactions to keep the stable, the more unstable things get, because either I don’t know what they need and misjudge when always looking to other’s emotions first. OR I actually get it right, but I become so very resentful in the process for “having” to take care of someone else’s emotions [I put “having” in quotes, ’cause I’m doing that; they’re not making me], and for not getting to worry about my own emotions that they bottle up, and though it takes a whiiiiile, eventually, I’ll go from “0-60” in like a second, because I’m not at 0. I’m at like 59 and no one’s noticed, ’cause I’ve been pushing it down. I also just want to sort of be a more active participant in my own life. So, if I don’t like the room, I’ll leave it, and if I do like the room, I’ll try my best to set the temperature/keep my own steady temperature, rather than be such a reactionary thermometer all the time.

I – The “Bonus” answer) Even IF you end up sort of riding the fence about something – you’re dipping your toe into something you don’t have enough information about or whatever. Or maybe it’s not even riding the fence. If you’re doing something you reeeeeeally do not want to do, but for all intents and purposes, you “have” to. [I mean, we don’t have to do anything, but there are sometimes steep consequences, like if we all quit working and had no money, you might get kicked out of your apartment etc.]

So, if your life circumstances (or mine, at least, ’cause I’m meaning this lesson for me, really, I don’t ever know if any of this is applicable to anyone else)… But if my life circumstances make it so I “have” to do something (work a job I don’t love, take a required class I don’t love, etc.), like of course I’ll try to get out of it as much as I can, but if I reeeeally can’t, or if it’s gonna take a while to get out of it, I want to choose to want to be there. I want to find the reason it is indeed beneficial to be there, and get excited about it for that reason.

e.g. [thankfully, I’ve only been an editor anytime I worked this year, so this is not a specific example to this year, but just an example in general, from last year, really] “Man, I reeeeeally don’t want to be an assistant after years of editing, that sucks” – instead of focusing on that part, being more like “I want to pay rent this month because I love my apartment. And at least as an assist, I can catch up on podcasts [etc.]”

Like, focus on the good you’re getting out of something, and find excitement in being there. And if you reeeeeeally can’t, then you’ve gotta change it. If it sucks THAT much, quit school. Quit your job. Work at McDonald’s instead. Like, I did too many things this year completely out of “obligation” AND didn’t find the joy in them. So, I really want to not be in that position again – I want to either drop the obligations if they’re THAT much of a burden, or find the joy/good parts of them.

Oof) So, yeah, you know, I wanted to write this really happy-go-lucky excitable thing about everything I accomplished during quarantine, and how I’m gonna come out with more television credits (including my first cartoon), and a bachelor’s degree and all of that. But realistically, for the last 10 months I’ve struggled greatly and I would say this year, for me, was more of a failure than a success. And I want to make sure the next 5, and hopefully all the years after do not look like that again. I’ve gotta awaken that inner strength and “sunshine in a dress” needs to come back with a vengeance!

3) What’s your biggest goal for the upcoming year?

I want to have the best body I have ever had. Preferably with the measurements of “Baby Got Back” if I can make my body fit them. (“36”, 25”, 36”? Only if she’s 5′ 3” [she is haha]).

Let’s make it happen! 2021-2022, here I come!

The Ten Year(?!) Anniversary Of Open-Heart Surgery (What?!) [P.s. I guess now it’s the 11th]

March 22, 2021

Wow, 10 years. Crazy, huh? It seemed like this all-encompassing thing while it was happening. But now, it’s basically just a distant memory.

Originally, I had tickets to the east coast this weekend. I was going to go up to Boston and give care packages to the two main doctors on my case (the cardiac surgeon and the electrocardiologist), but alas, here we are in the midst of the Covid-19 crisis. So, it doesn’t look like anybody gets to travel anywhere!

It is weird how similar these times are to some extent – being tied to one place, not being allowed to travel, not really knowing how long the thing you’re going through will last, not being able to physically go to school or work anymore. Now everybody’s experiencing what it’s like to have a long-term heart problem! Sorta… I know they’re obviously different, but for me, it feels like a lot of similarities! Maybe that’s why I actually feel like overall I’m handling the pandemic okay (I think).

I mean… it could be privilege. I’m sure a lot of it is that. But it’s also (maybe?) emotional/muscle/neuron memory of like “okay. Life’s been thrown upside down before due to weird medical stuff, with lots of unanswerable questions in the right now. I’m ready.”

“A Quiet Place”

March 20, 2021

[Another post I drafted when I was on break from the blog. Here, have it now!]

I just saw A Quiet Place, and I am so moved, I needed to say something.

It is just as phenomenal as everyone says it is. It is terrifyingly heart-pounding. AND it’s so moving. I had no idea how super emotional it was. I sobbed so hard – and so unexpectedly, which really made it all the better.

The twists and turns! Loved! I loved all of it.

It’s the kind of movie that makes you just sit there for a minute at the end. It’s still all hitting you. (And at the end of my screening, they had a small “making of” about it. They should do that at the end of all movies. It was awesome.)

And not only do I love it on its own, as a movie. I love that John Krasinski was able to come up with this specific, interesting, riveting story and shepherd it through to what we have now. I love that we get to see that he’s not just “that guy from the office.” He has a depth of creativity that produced something so exceptionally unique.

(He’s obviously not the only comedy guy who’s done this, as Jordan Peele semi-recently did Get Out, which was also a masterpiece.)

And it’s nice to see that people are more than we think they are.

I’m just really inspired. The Quiet Place helped me to remember that there are suuuuper original stories to tell.

And it was a great example of something you get lost in. There is no world outside of that movie theater when you watch A Quiet Place.

Anyway, if you’ve been putting it off, I super encourage you to get to the theater ASAP. (And everyone is right that seeing it in a theater will enhance the experience so much. So, go before it’s too late. It’s exceptionally worth it.)

And now, I just feel a burning desire within me to create something. Thanks, John Krasinski. Can’t wait to see what he does next!

Can You Imagine What It’s Like To Be Smart At Smart-Person Jeopardy?

March 19, 2021

[This is just a random thought/post I drafted back in, March of 2018, but I was officially on “break” from the blog. Now that I have the time, I’m posting some old drafts.]

So, recently, I’ve gotten kinda back into Jeopardy!

(I love game shows, after all.) And tonight, I killed it on a category titled “My TV Dads” – every question correct immediately. If I ever landed on a Daily Double in a category about TV or sitcoms, I would have no issue betting it aaaaaaall!

But then there are all these super-smart people categories. (Books! History! And more!) And so often, I’m sitting there pretty dumbfounded, and people are hitting it out of the park.

Can you imagine being as confident in smart-y things as I am in TV things? But that’s how these people feeeeel!

I feel ready to see the next answer (because we give the questions, right?) in a category about sitcoms, TV dads… stuff like that. I’m on the edge of my seat screaming at the TV – and ready for the next one. Can you imagine what it would be like to be able to play a whole Jeopardy game like that?

So, anyway. I dunno. I guess it’s good I know so much about my field of work. But I could probably know some other stuff…

…But. I’m plenty good at other game shows. So, maybe it’s okay that Jeopardy’s not the one for me. Or… I dunno! It’d be so cool to be for real smart-smart about a whole lotta tons of things…

Anyway, that was just my random thought for the day!

What’s The Update On Undergrad, Now That We’re In a New Semester? – Part 3 (I’ll Finish It All!)

March 12, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

I have tutoring every week with an EPD tutor, plus standing time with another tutor in the Creative Technology Center. Plus a saxophone tutor.

Basically, anything they offer, I’m trying to take them up on it.

(I’m also taking a class at LA community college that I need to transfer over for my one remaining history class needed…. meaning, I’m actually basically in 22 credits instead of 19. I did pass my conducting test out, but I still have to do my arranging one. [Edited to add: I passed the test out!])

So… it’s just a lot.

And there is so much really specific technical homework. I’m trying to have a fun time getting creative with as much of it as I can.

I am busting my butt to have as many classes with As as I can. I’d love to finish out my undergrad career at least somewhat strong.

[Edited to add: 8 of 11 classes [16 of 19 credits] were As! Could be a lot worse!]

One thing I think is super cute is that I got to have my old saxophone professor from when I was ‘actually’ in undergrad (all young and in-person and such). And he’s retiring this year! So, I will be in his final class!

It’s SO fun to be with him. He’s unbelievably cool. His name is Jackie Beard. And I feel really luck to have gotten to/get to play saxophone with him!

So yeah, I’ve made actual friends with some of the tutors and that’s been cool. I’m still getting an incredible amount out of it, even online.

The physical computing class is pretty hard… Even just learning to solder (and spell that haha) felt like such an accomplishment. If I get anything I build in this class to work well this semester, I’m gonna call it a win!

So, I think that covers it!

Things are falling in place, and going to plan. It’s all happening.

What’s The Update On Undergrad, Now That We’re In a New Semester? – Part 2 (It’s a Lot, But It’s an Abundance of Good)

March 11, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

Professors are great again. At first I sat here and started listing them. I don’t know if you need a whole list, but I guess for anyone looking for good teachers, here is a handful (though I have even more great professors this semester!):

Radar for turntable is amazing. Thavius Beck has been fantastic for one of our senior-level classes. Jennifer Hruska is a genius. Rachel Rome is incredible at explaining programming.

And yes, as you might be able to guess, I made my slate of teachers as diverse as I could. This is my last full semester. I want to squeeze as much as I can out of it, and be taught by different voices!

I’m enjoying it, even though it’s very busy to have this many credits – especially when a fair amount of homework is involved….

Including saxophone lessons/practice. I’m in two lessons right now, because I have to pass two more levels of proficiencies to graduate.

I love to joke about what a great musician I am or whatever [and in some ways, it’s true]. But my brightest saxophone days were a while ago. I haven’t touched it much in years…

In fact, my uncle had it for the longest time, since I didn’t think I needed it anymore!

He very sweetly left me have it back. (He’d literally bought it from me, and was like “I’ve had it long it enough. You have reason you need it. You don’t need to pay me back anything for it” – which was SO kind!)

So, I got my saxophone back and now am trying to get through! You wouldn’t think it’s that much, but it feels like a lot. The songs are technical. And the SCALES! You have to play not just major and minor, but all your modes. And all your modes in 3rds. Arpeggios. Just all the – everything.

A lot of memorization. Just… a lot

What’s The Update On Undergrad, Now That We’re In a New Semester? – Part 1 (Overview of the Spread of Classes I’m Taking)

March 10, 2021

It’s still going well! I think. Depends how you define well. I got a 3.462 in the fall, which, while it could be better (of course) I don’t think it’s so bad.

I did have a great time. My teachers rocked. Susan Rogers was everything I was hoping she was gonna be and more.

So, now we’re in the spring!

I’m taking 19*(!) credits in total – 15 of which are for EPD or EPD electives. 2 of which are instrumental labs, also of the EPD bent that can count for some of the minors (Remix & Mashup Lab and Turntable Technique).

[*And it’s actually more like 22, because of a 3-credit liberal arts class at community college, but I mention that a little more later.]

Basically, I am trying to shove in everything as much as humanly possible. It’s unclear whether Berklee will still have an online option in the summer. (Right now they’re hybird for this semester, after two semesters (summer/fall) of remote only.)

My understanding is EPD will do whatever necessary to help people who are very close to finishing. So, I wanted to be as close to finishing as humanly possible, so that hopefully even if there is no ‘official’ remote option, maybe I can do something in the ‘degree completion’ vein where we can work something out, if I’m just a few credits shy.

You’ll notice I’m not taking an MP&E class. It’s because I only have one left – it’s basically the portfolio class to make sure you have a great handful of songs.

I didn’t want to take that when I’m already taking kinda way too many classes. I want space to really try to make the best thing I can, and to enjoy it to the fullest extent.

Prince Charles has already stated I can take independent study with him over zoom even if the school goes fully in-person again. I’m not in danger of losing my major.

So, let’s get EPD as muuuuuch taken care of as possible.

(The other credits not mentioned for anyone doing the math are private instruction credits.)

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Leaving (Well, Being Told To Leave haha) – And Coming Back To – The Carlos Watson Show

March 8, 2021

I was not gonna share this part of the story, but the whole thing there became so messy. [Edited to add: And they may be getting investigated by the FBI.] You can hear this silly part of the story.

So, I like to think I absolutely killed it in the 1st season – just did so well. BUT.

All the editors ended up being let go. We were the most expensive. And they wanted to save the money. So, off we went. I think they were gonna outsource things or whatever.

Well, within a couple weeks of season 2 starting, they asked if I’d come back. I asked for more money, they offered *slightly* more. I said my last offer was making equal to what the editor getting paid the most on season 1 was making. They offered me a little below that and said it was their absolute final offer/the highest they’d go.

I said ‘thanks so much for the offer. I’m sorry though. I can’t go any lower.” And then the next day they were like “okay, we talked it over; we’re gonna give it to you anyway”

Bahahahahahahahahaha. So satisfying!

So, then I was back on, baby!

 

Editing for “Bear Witness, Take Action,” Done By LeBron James’ Company (2020)

March 7, 2021

One of the silver linings of the pandemic is being able to take on multiple projects at once, since there’s no physical commuting. (So you’ve got extra time.)

And especially with all the holidays and days off here and there, it was helpful to have two jobs going at once. And I could space them out on the holidays we ‘weren’t working’. (I usually hate losing aaaaall that work time and money in November/December.)

Anyway, this show was great. We talked about some important issues. The people were quite lovely. Good lil’ short-term gig! [One of the parts I edited is here.]

And we’ll talk more tomorrow!

After Quibi, Got Hired On The Carlos Watson Show (2020)

March 6, 2021

Next up was working on The Carlos Watson show, which overall I really loved!

What a fun way to spend so much of the pandemic – editing interesting episodes of interesting people.

(There is a little more to it, later in the story. But we’ll get there.)

As for now, I’m just mentioning this to try to keep the chronological order as much as possible. But this has basically already been talked about here.

Working At Quibi (On “Your Daily Horoscope”) (2020)

March 5, 2021

I’d finished my current job literally I think a week before the pandemic started. Then I had something that was supposed to start March 16th…

But nothing started March 16. We were told to hold tight. (Eep!) The beginning of the pandemic was slightly nerve-wracking.

I gave up hope that the new job I was supposed to do was gonna come thorough. And I didn’t know what else might become available…

‘Oh man, if production of things are shut down, are long are we gonna have footage that’s ready to edit?’

But then… I got hired on a cartoon! My first cartoon. How lucky!

We basically had two rounds – first, an animatic. Then we’d get the actual animations (based on the animatic we made).

Put it all together and there you have it – a fun new experience!

Working At Tastemade (2019)

March 4, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

I was pretty stunned to get the offer. Thought they would basically feel like I kinda got in their face with my interview question (even though I like to think I asked it in a light way).

But I got the offer nonetheless!

So, I started working double duty. Tastemade in the day. And Bridezillas (and sometimes some other shows going on at the company) at night.

I didn’t want to be working in reality, and I didn’t want to be assisting. Hence the daytime job of editing and food stuff.

But I like money and ease. Hence the nighttime job.

Tastemade was fine. Overall the people were nice. It was way on the west side, so we could get Native Foods delivered there, which was amazing. The vibe was good, though a little crowded with everyone at desks just right next to each other.

But yeah, it was fine. We had more than enough time for deadlines. So, it was nice to pick up the extra money. I bought a new TV for my room (among other things)!

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Interviewing At Tastemade (2019)

March 3, 2021

While I was working as a night assistant editor, I was looking for other things. What’s next, ya know?

Off of StaffMeUp, I got an interview with this place that basically edits food videos for social media. [If I find one, I’ll put it up here so you can see.]

The funniest part of the interview is I was a little… I dunno the word… cheeky, maybe? haha

With nothing to lose [as I was already employed. Plus, they’d stated this job for editing was gonna pay less than my AE job (I guess since this was just social media stuff, not TV)]…

Anyway, I had nothing to lose, so I asked an interesting question at the end.

They’d walked me around and I saw (fairly unsurprisingly) WAY more men than women editors (way more). So when they asked if I had any questions, I was like “yeah, where are the women?” Bahahaha.

They said that they’d had many women who moved on to bigger and better things. They were kinda like ‘I wish we had more women. The women are better than us.’ It was an interesting (and semi-funny) spin.

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Then A Couple of Fun Side Gigs (2019)

March 2, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

While I was night AEing, I was always looking for other things. I didn’t want to AE. So, I was trying to generate what might be next.

So, I ended up getting a couple of side gigs. For instance, this is when I worked with Nancy Meyers.

This was around the time I worked for Will Smith as well.

(And sadly the Night AE job was the job I mentioned that I did instead of trying to come back for more and more days at Westbrook. Looking back on it, it might’ve been smarter to just keep going with the Will Smith thing, since it paid more, probably would’ve looked better on a resume/been more interesting. I just had no idea what the stability would be since it was on such a day-to-day basis. And the commute… while I would’ve figured it out… it was just soooooooo long. It would’ve been hard to keep up with practically anything else. So, I dunno *shrug*.)

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Night Assistant Editing Again (2019)

March 1, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

I hate to admit it. It’s pretty embarrassing to me that after editing on a number of shows – and some impressive ones! – I had a tough time finding a job after I came back to LA.

A working hypothesis is that maybe a lot of the people I knew here thought of me as an assistant editor, and it was hard to get them to see me differently.

But I was struggling, and needed another job.

I loved the ease of night AEing, and the vibe of the people I interviewed with. So, I tucked my tail between my legs to night AE on a silly reality show.

And this is where we’ll pick up next time!

Editing on “Beauty & Bubbles” (2019)

February 28, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

So, in 2019, I pretty severely needed to work. Started looking for anything and everything. And on StaffMeUp, I found a job being an editor this new show Beauty and Bubbles. 

It was low budget, brand new, for someone trying to build up a media empire.

I really liked it, because I love learning about ways to stay prettier. I even ended up getting a severely discounted facial by one of the guests, which was very cool!

The schedule was relaxed. The show aligned with my interests. It was great, and sad to see come to a close when the season/series ended!

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Continuing Laying Out The Story of My Career (2018 Was Basically a Blur)

February 27, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

So, it’s kinda wild because 2018 feels truly like a blur. Looking at my calendar, taxes, IMDb page and everything, it seems like I didn’t work?

Like… I think I just… didn’t work in all of 2018? And barely got by mainly on unemployment/being poor/any money I already had.

So… yeah… I think that’s 2018. haha

Time is such an insane concept. When I was first starting, I thought if I missed so much as just a weekend gig, it was gonna be the end of the world. Now I was out for a whole year, and it’s like ‘huh, kinda hardly remember that, then.’

Anyway, life is wild. And on to 2019 – which is where we’ll pick up tomorrow!

Editing On “Talk 30 To Me” (2017)

February 26, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

After the semi-fallout at The Daily Show, I got a job working on Talk 30 To Me – a title that ultimately didn’t clear, so it was renamed to Grown & Sexy.

Basically, it was a lot of comedians in their 30s doing talking heads and sketches about live in their 30s.

The show was so relaxed. The offices were gorgeous. People were super nice and funny. Money was great.

It was awesome. I worked until the show ended, and then, as always, it was time to move on to what was next – which is what I’ll talk about tomorrow!

My Jobs Just After The Nightly Show (2016 – 2017)

February 24, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

Soon after Nightly, I got to work on Dancing with the Stars while they were in New York. That was awesome. And as you can see, you have posts all about that from real-time.

Then I worked on Greatest Ever, which was quite lovely. Still friends with a few cast members/writers. My boss couldn’t have been nicer to me.

The show was funny. The money was good ($3,500/week). The environment was SO relaxed. 5 out of 5 star experience, no question.

Then I got The Daily Show, which has been covered at length in here. I don’t know how much I truly covered the ‘downfall’ of it all. [I actually kind of covered this in a post around the time of my birthday.]

But yeah, we had that whole money issue toward the beginning of it. And from someone I’d talked to, they said their hypothesis as to why The Daily Show was so annoyed that I was annoyed at them asking me to take so much less money was because most people who worked there were dying for stability because it’s so hard to get stability in New York.

But I come from California. So, I just didn’t care that much.

Anyway, eeeeeverything was a fight after that. It was just old working there (which was sad because I loved it so much before that).

I think I both started isolating myself, and I felt like they were isolating me. And it just got worse and things got torn up. And I ended up working a union job downtown instead, which I will talk about the day after tomorrow!

(And tomorrow I’ll talk about another thing that was a big example of why I was ultimately happier to not be at The Daily Show.)

A Few More Jobs (2014 – 2015)

February 23, 2021

Picking up from last time –

After Jacksons, I went on to be a post-coordinator for a show called Smile. It was a simple gig. I got to do a lot of it remote, which wasn’t the norm at the time. So, that was cool. I remember randomly working on it in San Francisco, because you could work on it anywhere. So, why not?

Then, I worked on a show called Job or No Job. I remember my boss being SO. NICE. He was supportively following along with me auditioning for BMI! A total dream boss who also made work seem super human.

One tiny thing that sticks out in my mind was that as the night AE, I was invited to the premiere party. They easily could’ve been like “you have to work,” and forgotten about me. But they insisted I be included, which was very sweet. I’d work the people there again, for sure. Loved the vibe.

That show ended. And the person who’d given me my very first AE job hired me to be a union night assist. So, it felt kinda special… which meant I hated that I had to disappoint her…

And that’s where we’ll pick up tomorrow!

Learning to Let Go of a Few Thousand Dollars (2014)

February 22, 2021

I’ve kept alluding to the fact that we never got paid for our last ~2 1/2 weeks of work on Living with the Jacksons. Obviously we all wanted to be paid. (And should’ve been!)

Different people went about it in different ways – small claims court, trying to use the channels of the state and labor-law-type things.

It was a very long drawn-out process for ~ $4,000 – $5,000.

But, I’m stubborn. And that’s a good amount of money!

I did push for the money with the channels of government(?) that deal with that. Got a hearing. I forget all the rules now, but I think basically I had to show up, even if they didn’t. And they got a second chance. (I think?)

Also, a small corp had been opened just to pay for this show, and I’m pretty sure they were filing bankruptcy for it. So, all the money that was chase-able was gonna be non-existent.

I got the notice for another hearing while I was already on The Nightly Show.

Between the plane ticket, and the time off work, I was gonna end up spending so much money in the hopes of getting money back that it just wasn’t worth it.

My life had become so wonderful. I had a dream job, was in my dream writing program, living alone in midtown Manhattan. I might be stubborn, but in this case, it was just better to let it go.

No sense in letting this money anchor me to a thing in the past when everything forward looked so much prettier. The money would’ve been nice (especially with how expensive moving is), but life moves on!

A Little Note On Some Hodgepodge Jobs

February 21, 2021

I also had some various tiny gigs here and there that I basically just forgot about.

While I’m trying to be super thorough (and for the most part, I am!), there were small gigs here and there that got lost to time.

So, while I don’t think it matters “on the record” haha, know there might be a little more out there. [E.g. I don’t think(?) I mentioned when I went back to America’s Got Talent for a week to help out in LA in a future season because they needed small fill in help, so why not? Etc.]

Anything that truly made an impact – a stepping stone, or something that came back around, etc., is accounted for. But small stuff like that may have slipped through the cracks. (Sorry)

And that probably holds true for future parts of the story as well.

[This little side note was probably unnecessary. You’re suuuuper getting well more than the gist. So, I think all is fine. I just – I can’t remember every teeny tiny gig. So, just thought I’d mention that as I go further down the rabbit hole of trying to remember it all/re-piece it all back together!]

Producing on Living with the Jacksons (2014) – “And Jermaine Is Gonna Hate, Hate, Hate, Hate, Hate”

February 19, 2021

Oh boy oh boy oh boy.

Okay, one of my favorite memories is this incredibly silly thing, which is that Jermaine Jackson is my nemesis. Like, in the most playful and silly way ever. But still. 😉

I don’t even know if he knows I’m his nemesis haha.

But basically, he wasn’t on our show (though he would’ve been welcome to be, to my understanding). But he wanted his own show, and he didn’t necessarily want a show that followed his ex-wife.

So, he would learn (usually from his kids) what place(s) we’d be filming. And then he’d poach them! He’d offer more money or access/fame, etc. And I’d have to scramble at the last minute to find a different car dealership, etc.

I’d be waking up in cold sweats at 2:30 in the morning, reaching over for my phone lighting up, wondering what Jermaine had done now. Chloe and I never slept.

Anyway, there were other small things. But I don’t need to make this sound like a complete Jermaine Jackson hate post. I don’t hate him. I laugh about our rivalry that to him was probably a rivalry with a completely nameless stranger. Well, hello strange nemesis. It was me 🙂

Producing on Living with the Jacksons (2014) – Trying To Stay Cool As Michael Jackson’s Biggest Fan

February 18, 2021

I think overall, I was good at doing my job, and just keeping it together. And treating the Jacksons like people… as that is exactly what they are.

But this was the first time I can remember ever working on something where I was like a true super-fan.

So, some of the moments that were so crazy for me:

  • Katherine Jackson coming by for dinner. (Michael Jacksons mom?!!?)
  • Prince Jackson accidentally bumping into me. I was sitting at the kitchen table. He was playing with his cousins. When he bumped into me, he was like “oh, sorry.” And I’m like “omg, of course no worries.” Then he goes, “I’m Prince, by the way.” And I said “nice to meet you. I’m Aurora.” But in my head, I’m like ‘duh!’ Haha
  • The Jacksons talking about Michael. Anytime they reminisced about him being a loving, great family member, etc., I wanted to ask a MILLION follow-up questions. And I’m sure I could’ve asked some. But I didn’t want to impose.

I somehow did make it through the show without everybody being like “this weirdo?”

Surreal experience!

Producing on Living with the Jacksons (2014) – A Funny Story About Ringback Tones

February 17, 2021

This is just a silly little story, but one of the stories that was a little funny was before working there, I had so many things themed with Michael Jackson.

He used to be the background picture on my phone and computer and everything. And I was like, ‘hmmm, better change all this. Which is probably for the best anyway. I’m not like teenybopper mega fan anymore. (Or at least, I shouldn’t be.)’ So, I changed everything out.

BUT the thing I FORGOT was my ringback tone.

For anyone who doesn’t know, a ringback tone was where the person calling you would hear a little song instead of the sound effect of the phone ringing.

Mine was set to P.Y.T.!

One of the Jacksons called me for something. And they commented, “oh, you have Mike on the ringback tone! That’s so nice you’re getting in the spirit!”

And it’s like… yep. That’s me… Getting in the spirit. Definitely did that because I’m excited about the show, not because I’ve loved Michael Jackson from before I could speak.” Tehehehe

Producing on Living with the Jacksons (2014) – Some Things I Just Truly Loved About Producing On That Show

February 16, 2021

As I think I’ve stated many times, this was overall a great experience.

I didn’t mind the insane amount of hours, or even really that we never got paid for the last few weeks, because it was a dream to produce and to have the opportunity to do so much – especially with the Jacksons.

Plus to work with friends of mine. There were definitely things that weren’t the best (e.g. they never paid some of the vendors *I* was the point person with, and that was super annoying, and I do feel bad for those vendors).

But if we push aside that guilt, overall, it was a great time.

I’ve talked in some of the other posts (and have more coming up) about some of the things I loved.

Well, I really loved all the stuff I just mentioned – feeling like I was really contributing, working with friends, all that stuff.

Another thing I loved was just how kind the Jacksons were.

I even had a Flat Stanley for part of my time there, and they were so nice and took pictures with it, so I could send it back to the elementary school class.

I loved all the long drives with Chloe (but I will talk about that in a future post).

Producing on Living with the Jacksons (2014) – Jaime Coming To Do Yoga!

February 15, 2021

One of the many super cool things that happened was that I got to have one of my friends I’ve known for a long time come do yoga with The Jacksons!

I loved being able to book the people I love! And I love that she came down from San Francisco with little notice to help us out, because spontaneous fun is so special.

I thought we’d have tons of footage – since I thought the show would air! haha. I’m sure I took some pics here and there, so let’s see if I can find them and include them!

Producing on Living with the Jacksons (2014) – A Few Highlights

February 14, 2021

Even though this show was absolutely crazy and we had to change a lot of things semi-last minute, I loved so many things. So, here are some of the highlights:

  • Going to see the Batmobile!
  • Hanging out at a cool dance studio
  • Recording studio
  • With a vocal coach

[And hopefully I update this with specific names and pictures when I actually find them all. Aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye]

Producing on “Living With The Jacksons” (2014) – (Overview)

February 13, 2021

Picking up from last time –

So, I went back to StaffMeUp, and got a job producing on Living with the Jacksons. That’s right. The Jacksons. Jermaine’s ex-wife and the kids she has with Jermaine, and the kids she has with Randy, and the son she adopted.

If you been around this blog at all, you probably know I loooove Michael Jackson. Love him. So when I had the opportunity to work with his family I was like *giant-eyes-surprised-face*.

They were having a very skeleton crew on this show. So, I think they wanted someone hungry – which I was. Ready to take on this next level by storm!

I was the only producer other than the EP, and an AP who helped with cast stuff. So, I booked every venue and every guest.

It was SO much work in such an exciting (but also insane) way. I was given so many tasks that seemed next-to-impossible, and completed them all.

Also, I was able to get my friend Chloe a job! She came out to LA, stayed with me, and had her first job in TV. She was a SUPER star.

Ultimately, the show ran out of money. We never got paid for our final weeks of work. And it never saw air. But I have a number of pictures, and there are all the articles saying we were gonna have a show… But we didn’t.

And I’ll talk about a few of my favorite stories from the show over the days!

Post Coordinating On Project Runway For Kids! (2014)

February 12, 2021

Picking up from last time –

So, the amazing job I got was being a post-coordinator (a real post-coordinator who go to have a post supervisor and everything) on Project Runway for Kids!

In some ways, I was actually lucky I had that job I hated… I don’t think I would’ve gotten this one without a post supervisor/post coordinator credit.

It was truly lovely. Everyone there was SO nice, and some of the people there are my friends to this day. I got to go to the Emmys with a group of editors who were nominated from their work on Project Runway.

The staff sweetly celebrated my birthday with me. My boss was cool as all get out.

I got to do some of the scratch VOs, which always was a fun bright sport in my day. There was a place nearby that had delicious breakfast burritos.

Downstairs, there was a workout place that did barre workouts, and I slowly but surely convinced a bigger and bigger group to go down with me at lunchtimes.

It was awesome all the way around, in every way. I truly loved it.

But alas, like nearly all shows it had to come to an end.

The next job I had was so unexpected.  And I’ll talk about it tomorrow!

First Post-Production Supervisor Job (2014) – Part 4 (Heading Out of There!)

February 11, 2021

Picking up from last time –

With such blatant discrimination to my colleagues based on look, and with no way to change things as all my options had been tried and failed, I set out applying to basically every job and giving my absolute all with interviews and thank you cards etc. to land another job – which I did. And we’ll get there next time.

AND not only that. I made sure our awesome night AE got out as well 🙂 A brand new sparking union job.

Once I was sure was my job was locked down, I took all my things with me one Friday and wrote an email I would not be returning. Very sadly I didn’t get to see the night AE [so weird to say ‘the night AE over and over, but obviously name redacted for privacy] leave in a blaze of glory.

But, the lore is that they were VERY upset to see him leave, offered him tons of money to stay, and he was pretty much like “you should’ve offered this to me before.” Mic drop.

One crazy thing about working that job is that it was… I’m pretty sure the worst job I ever had. But. I made some of my best friends in the world there. You know Alex whom we love? Birthday Alex? I met him at that god forsaken job haha.

So, plants grow out of concrete [or whatever metaphor/analogy things works there]. That’s for sure!

And I had an AWESOME job after that – which we’ll get to tomorrow!

First Post-Production Supervisor Job (2014) – Part 3 (When I Absolutely Knew I Had To Leave)

February 10, 2021

Picking up from last time –

So, our day assistant editor got injured and wasn’t able to come to work for a couple weeks. So, we had to prioritize what we could survive without. And we had to change the shift of our swing and/or night AE so someone was there to help in the day.

Well, our night AE was a complete and total superstar. One of the best AEs in the building. And our swing AE was brand new, and didn’t really know what he was doing.

But our swing AE was good at seeming impressive – being charming, dressing super well, that kind of stuff. And our night AE was totally fine, but had a beard that wasn’t totally even, and classes that had a piece of tape on them. Like, it was 100% fine. But.

It was used as a reason by my boss’s boss to explain why our night AE couldn’t be the day AE. He didn’t “look” the kind of person he wanted around ‘should the head of the company come by’. And I just thought, ‘are you kidding me?!’

Now someone who doesn’t overdress for work isn’t a ‘protected class.’ It’s not like he said he wasn’t moving this person to a slightly more senior position (even temporarily) because of skin color or sexual orientation or something. But still! I couldn’t believe he wasn’t prioritizing TALENT! Just looks?! And said the quiet part out loud?!

He said he was never going to promote our night AE. And that was the straw for me.

This is where I’ll pick up next time.

First Post-Production Supervisor Job (2014) – Part 2 (‘I Always Feel Like Somebody’s Watching Me’)

February 9, 2021

Picking up from last time –

I wanted so badly to like working there. And I tried so hard to find the positives. But it just kept getting worse. The amount of work for the amount of money was becoming untenable. The ethics stuff was getting weird. A certain personality there was hard to deal with. There was just a lot.

But I just wanted so badly to build up good relationships in the industry. And my resume. So, I tried to find any options that made things better without quitting.

I tried to see if I could switch departments. I’d heard maybe field was better. I was not able to do that.

Even tried getting the union involved to see if they wanted to try to flip the place, but nothing much came of that.

At the time, I didn’t say anything publicly about the fact that I didn’t like it there. There was a public Tumblr account that had very funny memes about how awful it was to work there and how cheap they were and everything.

Of course those memes made me laugh. So, I liked one. That’s it! I merely liked one! I didn’t even leave a comment.

Got called into my boss and boss’ boss office the next day to be admonished about it. Like, WHAT?! You guys are monitoring the likes of a post that lightly (and rightly!) makes fun of you?! And not only monitoring that, but you’re admonishing (with a boss 2 levels above them) employees who just LIKE it?!

WILD.

So, they ask me if I have any issues, as if I’m liking something like that, I must. And I’m like “yeah, actually I do.” And this is where I’ll pick up next time!

First Post-Production Supervisor Job (2014) – Part 1 (Getting The Job)

February 8, 2021

Picking up from last time –

I don’t remember what exactly was going on with Shahs, but I think for all intents and purposes it wasn’t coming back at least for a long time, because there was about a year break between episodes from early 2014 to early 2015.

So, in early 2014, as the season was coming to a close, I needed another job. Yet again, I turned to StaffMeUp.

I applied to basically any place I might even kinda sorta kinda be qualified for. I kept wanting to explore different areas of TV and things I might be able to do.

Being good at admin stuff, and having experience in post-production, I got this interview to be a post coordinator.

Now, at this place (Gurney, I’ll just tell you; I don’t care haha), they don’t actually have post-coordinators. They only have post supervisors. If you got hired as a post coordinator there, you were going to be acting as a post supervisor. You were going to be communicating with the network and holding a lot of the responsibility.

The only hired ‘coordinators’ (as supervisors) because they were trying to save money – which was a running theme.

Most even just coordinators (who didn’t have supervisor responsibilities) were making ~$1,200/week, give or take. But I was only offered $900/week since I had no credits in this role. That in an of itself seemed fair. You’re new, you make some less than standard.

But I was told if the first show went well, I’d get rolled over and get a raise. Well, when I got there, I learned that many people had been there with years and no raise – just an empty promise of one. Some even had to carry 2 or 3 shows which no raise.

It was a wild environment that grated on me more and more as time went on.

Every little thing just showed people being taken advantage of, and ethical things I thought were weird (like using illegal copies of software instead of bought ones).

And this is where I’ll pick up next time!

Two Jobs At Once?! (2013)

February 7, 2021

Picking up from last time –

In fall of 2013, I started working a night job on a dating show (I Wanna Marry Harry).

I really lucked out. They were looking for people to only help for about two weeks. After only two AE jobs (and lower level ones that that, where I wasn’t expected to do all the AE duties), I don’t know that I would’ve been heavily considered at many places.

But since this place needed short-term help immediately, I think they hired me with the idea of, “Meh, it’s just two or three weeks. What’s the worst that could happen?”

I didn’t want to leave my ‘day job’ early because they’d been so good to me. I didn’t want to make them feel slighted. (And I didn’t want to leave a place early for a 2-week job… even though the day job was almost over.) Also, I really wanted to keep getting those paychecks, son!

But, I couldn’t very well turn down the opportunity to meet more people and get another show on my resume. Thankfully, it was a night job. So I figured I’d just do them both.

Those two weeks were incredibly hard. The night job had LOTS of cameras to sync. The commutes were LONG. The sleep was rare. But I made it through!

The day job came to a close, and the night job extended me out, and eventually moved me to another show – Shahs of Sunset.

It was cool because I learned a lot. The people were nice. I got to do a little sizzle reel for Ryan Seacrest. And I got to edit some bonus online content.

So this was a place I got to grow a lot in AE skills, and beginning to have editor skills as well.

And this is where I’ll pick up next time!

Getting Another AE Job! (Mid-2013)

February 6, 2021

Picking up from last time –

And one of my friends texted saying the woman we worked for on my first AE gig was looking for AEs again.

Well, my my! I’ll be. My friend passed my name along to say I was looking again. My old boss called and asked if I’d like to work with her again. I said surely. And I started right after I flew home from the party.

This job was yet again in Burbank and yet again day shift. But at least this time we got bays!

It was nice to be around some of my ol’ homies. I also got to learn some new assistant editor skills here, but I still was mainly responsible for the easier tasks. But I also got a bump from my last AE gig. So, you know, movin’ on up.

There was this super loud machine room I had to spend too much time in. But that was the only part of the job I disliked. So, I could deal with that.

As this job was coming to a close, I started putting the word out that I needed my next gig. I went back to trusty ol’ Staff Me Up. And sure enough, I got hired for a job that would start two weeks before this one ended!

And I’ll pick up here next time!

Going Backward? Transcribing Again (Union!)? (Early Mid 2013)

February 5, 2021

Picking up from last time –

When I got the call to be a transcriber again, I took the job for a lot of reasons.

For one, I needed a job. Also, this was a union transcriber gig! (There aren’t many of those.) So, I got to join the editors guild, and make a sweet amount of money (as far as transcribing was concerned). I got to work my dream night shift in a place pretty close to home and very easily accessible. Plus, I got to work for a boss for whom I knew I really enjoyed working.

The job was lovely. (It was the one the Ben and Jerry’s truck visited.) My boss really trusted me and gave me some extra responsibilities, making me the lead transcriber.  It also was a show about emergency medicine, so the subject matter was really interesting. That’s not always the case with what you’re working on. So, it’s a gift when you can get into the subject matter.

I worked that job until the show ended, which was sometime around early June (2013). [Side note to place us in time: That June was the June of my theater teacher’s party.]

During June, I was telling my friends my show had ended, trying to get the word out and everything.

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

The End Of My Time At Playboy (Winter 2012-’13)

February 4, 2021

Time for another Friday post about my career in television (thus far).

When I started at Playboy, we were about 25-ish minutes from downtown (by bus). The assistant editors and me (the media manager) were put in our own special awesome (dark) room. Life was so good!

Not terribly long into my time there, we moved to Burbank(!). Dun dun dun [*scary chords*] The commute got so long. And we moved to being among everybody. We’d hear casting people on the phone all day on one side of us. We’d hear moans and groans from the editors on another. (They didn’t get their own bays. They had cubicles.) In fact, everybody (as far as I know) who used to have bays of some sort got cubicles instead in the new arrangement.

I don’t really know who did the layout, but people didn’t seem to super love it.

Still grateful for my job and still wanted to be good at it, but I could feel myself slipping. I know I should be able to deal with any working conditions. But I’d been so spoiled. Once we moved to this super far place with cubicles out in this overly-sunny area, I was just struggling.

I felt like I was always snacking at my desk (which made me feel kind of slobbish a little). Also, I wasn’t doing my body any favors having so much sugar all the time. (And I kind of think that led to me being even more tired.)

So, everything was fine. I was doing fine.  Not a star, but my job was getting done. I felt bad about just being fine and doing fine, but figured as long as the job got done everything would be fine – which it completely was.

But in December, big honchos came in and there was a huge round of layoffs. I think about half the people I knew got laid off – including some superstars and some people who’d been there for a very long time.

My boss was shocked at how well I took the news. We laughed about it even. I enjoyed it Playboy, but I was ready for another hiatus – which is exactly what I got.

I was off from the end of December to sometime in March, when I got a call from my old boss from 2011, whom I’d worked for as a transcriber. (It was my through-line job when the other jobs weren’t going super great.)

He asked if I wanted to come be a night transcriber again.

I was getting kind of nervous because I’d been an AE (a year ago!). Then I went to media manager, which I thought was a step down. Now I’m gonna go back to being a transcriber? Oh no! Am I not as awesome as I once thought? Am I nosediving my career here? I hope not.

And this is where we’ll pick up next time.

On Open Letter I Wrote About Body Image – While I Worked At Playboy (Written in 2012)

February 3, 2021

Picking up from last time –

I told you I posted something on my old Facebook while I’d been working there. Well, now that I have a blog, I can post it here.

[Note: It was back in 2012 that I originally wrote this. I feel like lately I have been barraged with messages in the media of “love yourself no matter what!” “You are perfect the way you are!” And truly, I hate it. There are so many (so many!) commercials, campaigns, etc., and to me they often comes across as aggressive – and as cheap, manipulative ways to sell me more (sometimes beauty?!) products. So, I do *not* mean to be adding to the attack of manipulating “positive” body-messaging. When I wrote this, it was with a very innocent and good intent. And I’d like to document my feelings from that time. So, here they are.]

Dear women,

You are beautiful.

I wish each one of us got at least a day to work with tons of footage of professional naked women at some point in our early adulthood.

At the end of my first week at Playboy, I have seen numerous beautiful naked ladies from every possible angle, and you know what? I guess I always thought Playboy women truly were like literal perfect specimen. This is the first time I’ve seen Playboy models before they were edited, airbrushed, cropped, etc.

You know what every single one of these women had in common – women who were *getting paid* to be naked? Each one of them had stretch marks somewhere, a bad angle, off pockets of fat, and plenty more “imperfections.”

They were all still beautiful, but they sure as heck weren’t perfect. Not even close. Of course, we’re gonna cut everything to make them look as close to perfect as possible. The public will not see the same girls that I see.

So, if you questioned your body image today, or this week, or ever; and you thought, “I’ll never look like so and so” – please remember, “so and so” doesn’t look like that either. She truly doesn’t.

This has been a public service announcement brought to you by the woman paid to look at naked women.

You’re beautiful. Don’t sweat it.

And Then I Worked At Playboy

February 2, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

I was unemployed for some months after my first assistant editor job. That was somewhat stressful.

“Will I be able to get another AE job?”
“Heck, will I be able to get another job?”

I ended up (yet again through Staff Me Up (…didn’t realize ’til writing these posts how many jobs I got through that service)) getting a job at Playboy in June.

I got a job as a media manager – which basically means I manage the media. Photos and videos would come in from shoots and I’d organize them by girl and date and such.

It was a pretty simple job. The people there yet again were quite nice. (It kind of sounding to me like I’m saying that a lot, but I guess I lucked out with a string of jobs populated with nice people, and in an industry where it can be easy to complain sometimes, it’s nice to remind myself of that.)

Working at Playboy is interesting (as you probably assume it would be). But as you also probably might imagine, working on sex stuff is not necessarily sexy. It’s a job like any other. For part of my time there, my desk was close to some editors’, and I’d hear them getting notes (un-sexy notes).

For instance, certain specific body parts or camera shots should only get a certain number of frames before you want to pull away. So, all kind of stuff like that. But hey, now I know how long you should focus on a [*self-bleeping, as it’s not totally appropriate for the blog*] to make porn sexy. I don’t know when that skill will ever come in handy. But it’s there!

The first week I worked at Playboy, I thought perhaps I’d be the only girl there, as practically all I saw were men. I think the show in the suite next to us had the week off, because once that office was repopulated, I saw way more women. Basically (as it is in too many offices), I met a lot of women doing admin roles. I’m the only one I knew of on the tech (editing) side.

Also, if you’re wondering if there’s a sexist culture there, I’d say just a little. There were small instances of that. For instance, if one of the bosses gave petty cash to a woman for a real errand, he hand it to her saying, “Go get yourself something pretty.” People also sometimes referred to the models as “the one with the forehead” or whatever instead their names.

So, there was stuff like that. But ultimately, I felt extremely respected and never harassed. It was a great company to work for.

Back when I worked there (and saw more footage of naked women than I thought I ever would), there was a message I posted on my old Facebook profile, because I thought it was important. And I will post it here tomorrow!

My First Assistant Editor Job!(Fall 2011)

February 1, 2021

I never finished my story about my road in the entertainment industry. So, why don’t we get into it now?

It was a little over a month before I got my next steady full-time job.

I lucked out so hard. I was applying on Staff Me Up to basically anything for which I thought I was even half qualified. And I applied to this assistant editor job.

They said they were mainly looking for help sorting b-roll. I’m sure I can help sort things.

So, I went in for an interview. I admitted that I’d never even worked on Avid (the editing software). But I said I’d watched other people do it and I love learning.

They were paying about 3/4 of a normal assistant editor’s rate (which was still better than a transcriber’s rate) for this job – because you didn’t have to do many of the normal assistant editor duties. They needed an extra set of hands, not a completely fully functioning AE (since they already had multiple people filling those roles).

They just wanted someone who could sort and label tons and tons of footage. They figured I was an organized person who’d already labeled tons of footage as a transcriber. They weren’t going to get any experienced AEs at that rate (while I was grateful or the pay bump).

I brought a thank you card to the office soon after my interview (since I knew they were deciding that day or the next). And my positive energy and willingness to learn got me the job!

I loved that job. The people were wonderful. I learned a lot.

The petty part of me wanted to say to my old boss, “You tell me to stand in line? Well, guess what? I already found someone who wants to encourage learning, not put an eager person in a corner. (Nobody puts Aurora in a corner! ;)) . And now, because you pushed me, I’m an AE way earlier than any of us thought I would be. I would’ve quietly sat at that job for many months just learning in my off hours and being thankful for what I had. But this is a million times better. So, um… in your face! 😉 (And yay for me!)”

Of course I never did that. And there actually would’ve possibly been a nice way to actually thank her for pushing me… but not really. I can’t fathom a way in which it wouldn’t have been at least mildly petty. So, I never spoke to her again.

But I came to be extremely thankful for me AE job. I also got to work nights at that job. (Is it even possible to get any better?) Originally, it was in a super convenient place. Then it moved pretty far away. That was the only downside. But even that was like, “Eh. It’s just a bus ride. Read a book.”

While I was at that job, sometimes I’d come in a bit early to learn about editing from someone who to this day is my friend. I also kept an assistant editor book (that I still have and use) where I wrote down everything as I learned it (throughout more AE jobs to come).

Thankfully, this job that was originally only supposed to be for a few weeks kept getting extended longer and longer. I got to work from October 3rd – January 20th. Woot!

What happened after January? We’ll talk about that next time.

We Are All So Much More Than One Thing

January 31, 2021

[I know Dwayne Wade retiring is quite old news at this point, but I’m posting some old drafts that I had while I was on my break from blogging. So, why not post it now?]

If you’d asked me recently, what I know about Dwyane Wade, I really only knew one thing – that he cheated on Gabrielle Union.

That was the only fact that permeated my world somehow between twitter and whatever.

But recently, because he’s retiring, I saw this video.

Look at how beloved and wonderful he is!

I feel like many people may just think of him as “a cheater” – that one thing.

[It’s so easy to put people into boxes…. I had this in brackets because I was reminding myself to expand on it. I don’t know what I meant to say, but you get the gist.]

But, he’s not merely a “cheater.” He’s everything we see in that video and so much more.

I guess that video just made me say “huh.” And I thought I’d share that “huh” with you!

Have You Been Listening To Slow Burn?! (2018) – Part 2

January 30, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

I wish everything had played out differently for Monica Lewinsky, but I hope her life has ultimately worked out to be pretty good, even if it could’ve been something totally different.

ALSO! Did we all know that Bill Clinton line of “I did not have sexual relations with that woman” was made at the end of a random speech!

I was never “cool” with him lying. And I thought it was weird to lie so emphatically. But I used to try to empathize and think “well, it must’ve been so stressful being under so much questioning. Maybe anyone could’ve cracked and told a lie eventually with all these people constantly asking questions in your face.” But he just said it off the cuff, talking about something completely unrelated (not cornered during a question-time or anything). What are you doing, Bill Clinton?!

It’s also just so weird to me that any time I’ve heard this story referred to in pop culture, it mainly revolves around an “affair.” But like, that’s the least egregious part about all of it? I mean, my goodness, gracious.

I hardly even know what to say.

And what a weird life for Hillary Rodham Clinton too, where it’s like, I’m sure you don’t want to see Monica Lewinsky all the time, but now she’s famous too. And you can’t really hope that she’s ostracized or anything, because she was the wronged party. But also you were pretty wronged yourself. So, you both are just living with the consequences of this man’s decisions for like the rest of your life, trying to navigate running in some of the same circles (and he was the only one who got to be President). I dunno. It sounds exhausting.

But the podcast is really amazing. I can’t wait to finish the story, and then listen to season 1 (Watergate).

Have You Been Listening To Slow Burn?! (2018) – Part 1

January 29, 2021

While we’re talking about media I enjoy, these are some blog posts I DID draft back while on break from the blog. So, it’s got some details – even if they are unimportant haha

Oh my GOSH!

So, I was too young to really get into the Clinton-Lewinsky scandal when it happened. I mean, like most people, before listening to this podcast, I knew basically that he slept with an intern, there was a blue dress, and “I did not have sexual relations with that woman.” That was pretty much the extent of my knowledge.

Slow Burn is this great podcast from Slate (It sounds like I’m advertising it, but I’m not. They don’t know who I am.) Anyway! They’re breaking down the whole scandal, and holy goodness! I hardly even know what to say, or where to begin. I was walking around New York City last night with my mouth just literally wide open, because I was in shock at everything I was hearing.

[Spoiler alert, I guess, to this 20-year-old scandal.]

First off, Monica Lewinsky is just betrayed left and right. Dang!
Bill Clinton had her reassigned to the Pentagon?! SHE LOST HER INTERNSHIP IN THE WHITE HOUSE BECAUSE HE DIDN’T WANT TO KEEP THE WOMAN HE WAS SLEEPING WITH AROUND?!

That is SO unfair. It’s already an incredibly precarious situation to sleep with an intern – and this isn’t just like a big company. This is the White House. So, to be married, and to have that much power, and be nearly 3 decades her senior – it’s already a weird power imbalance. But, stuff happens in a work environment. People fall for each other. Sometimes it’s boss/someone they’re in charge of. Fine, whatever. I wasn’t there, so I don’t know how much power was being wielded vs how much of it was just two adults making eyes. But we can just not get into the weeds on that stuff, because there’s the really important part that HE TRANSFERRED HER OUT OF THE WHITE HOUSE TO PROTECT HIMSELF?! Noooooot cool.

You shouldn’t affect someone’s future career and livelihood just because you made a decision to have an affair with her. Okay, so that’s first betrayal, and really crappy.

Also – Linda Tripp?! What the heck?! Someone who supposedly is your friend tapes your phone calls, and rats you out to the FBI?! What the HECK. Basically, everybody sucks in this story.

Except Monica. She was amazing. The first episode really gets into her fierce loyalty and ability to think on her feet. I can’t even fathom going through all that; what an incredibly strong human being.

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Attending a Taping of “Full Frontal with Samantha Bee” (Date Goes Here)

January 26, 2021

Speaking of Samantha Bee, I got to go to a taping!

She’s funny as all get out, but we already knew that from watching her on TV.

There was a time for audience questions and I asked her something along the lines of how if working on other shows completely prepared her, or if there were still things she was learning now with her own.

And I think her answer was basically that in your own show there’s just a lot more pressure on you – even if you’re a KEY player on another show, it’s never gonna be the same as your own.

Also, on your own, you can always play to your strengths/favorites. [E.g. if you love field stories, you can rely heavier on field stories, etc.]  And you can do the stories you want.

At least, I’m pretty sure that’s how it went down! I hate how much I’ve forgotten! Aye aye aye. Moving on!

FYC (Spring 2019)

January 25, 2021

And speaking of the Television Academy, FYC season of 2019!

I feel bad and sometimes wonder if there is even any point to these posts of things I don’t remember. But FYC was fun indeed. I always love going to little events.

[Media to come of Sam Bee FYC even and more if I can find it]

Attending Television Academy’s Visit With NASA (Date Goes Here)

January 24, 2021

Speaking of science, The Television Academy got to go visit JPL. I’ve already been (and talked about it on this blog). But I went again, because when am I gonna turn down a chance to hang out with NASA?

They had all these cool demonstrations and such for us to encourage our use of space and science in TV. I’m in! Let’s make a documentary! haha

Yuri’s Night (April 2019)

January 23, 2021

Science!

There was a science-y part silent disco thing happening at a science museum in Los Angeles. I always heard it was super cool. So, I went to check it out myself.

I made pals with Gary Anthony Williams. So, that was lovely.

And sadly, on brand, I don’t remember enough since I didn’t blog about it at the time! So, this is all I’ve got!

Songs When Covid Started – “You Are Saving The World… At Least A Little bit” (March 2020)

January 22, 2021

Speaking of songs during the pandemic, I started taking commissions.

‘Cause I was a) wanting to stay creative b) get as much money when possible from small things like this, since I had no idea what was next.

Someone commissioned me to make this fun song. (It’s too personalized, so I think it’s safe to publicly share it here too!)

[Media to come when I figure out media upload stuff!]

Songs When Covid Started – First Up, “You’re Alive; You Are Breathing” (March 2020)

January 21, 2021

While we’re talking songs –

When the pandemic started way back over 10 months ago, which is somehow both an eternity but also not a long time(?) – who possible understands how time works.

Anyway, when the pandemic first started, a lot of people had an initial freakout. Whenever possible, IF I’m gonna have a freakout, I like to wait and not have an initial freakout, but a later one.

So, in trying to be as positive as possible in that initial time period, I wrote some songs, and for funsies, I thought I’d share some here!

First up, “You’re Alive; You Are Breathing.” (Hope you enjoy this silliness!)

[Media to come, when I figure the media out!]

Songs From “Such a Good Guy” – “Such A Good Guy”

January 16, 2021

I know I have a lot of catching up to do – but I also have a ton of space to fill in a time when there’s not much to do but stay inside haha.

So, let’s pull out and expand on some of these. I’m gonna drop some of my favorite songs here. [Also, Spoiler Alert for the show.]

Here’s a group number. [Media to come when I do the media pass through]

xoxo

Reading of My Full-Length Musical in Los Angeles (October 2019)

January 15, 2021

I took the notes from the New York reading, did some re-writes, and presented the full thing in Los Angeles. And it went SO WELL.

SO many of my friends came. We had a nice sized audience. I LOVE LA.

There’s really not a complete ton to say on this. I loved the support and people showing out. I loved my friends taking part. I just love everybody.

Some of us went out to a nice lunch afterward. It was great.

The show did exactly what I was hoping – it got people asking the questions I wanted. It spurred the conversations I wanted.

The notes were few and far between. So, I think I’m really getting somewhere. Yay!

Reading Of My Full-Length Musical In New York (Need To Add The Date Here!)

January 14, 2021

Boy oh boy, I’m trying to catch up and I don’t even remember when this was! haha

But it was fun. I did a tiny little read/sing through of everything just to see it in order and with different people, and get an audience’s perspective – which was SUPER helpful!

Originally, the show was two acts. And people helped me to see they don’t need the second act at all actually. The way it used to work was the main story was in the first 1. Then there was intermission. Followed by basically her ‘aftermath’. And people thought it was enough for them to see her main story.

The show is about domestic violence. So, even though I try my best to inject as much humor and energy as possible, it’s a little heavy. And they couldn’t take much more than act 1. They made is super clear they could definitely take act 1. That wasn’t too much. It was just perfectly enough.

I was grateful to the actors and musicians who participated and the people who came and gave great notes!

xoxoxo

UCB 102 (July 2018)

January 13, 2021

While we’re catching up, and talking about performance stuff, let’s talk about when I took UCB in the summer of 2018!

Because of having taken so many improv classes at another theater, I was allowed to come in at UCB 201. I wanted to get more writing/performing in. So, why not?!

I don’t have tons to say about this. (Again, we know, we know. This is why I have to blog in real-time. I’m so sorry!)

But I remember everything feeling VERY chill there. There’s not the vibe of “oh my goodness, we’re in a cut program.” [Groundlings] People like to hang out in the cafe, and that’s fine.

It’s just a veeeeery relaxed vibe.

Good classmates, good teacher, fun show. And of course I ‘passed’, as there is no real passing/failing at this place haha (well, until… I think the end; so we’ll see if I get all the way there and how I feel about it then!).

You Wanna Be A Dancer, Be A Dancer

January 12, 2021

Sometimes I try to distill things (like when I said “you are who you decide to be” on this blog (and on The Price is Right haha)). And sometimes it feels like I then don’t take into account nuance.

I know there is a lot of nuance and things aren’t so simple all the time.

BUT… OVERALL… it seems to be true that if you want to do something/be something change something, if you just start to change it, before you know it, it’ll be something you are/do/have/etc.

[I know. I know it doesn’t work with everything haha. And also, obviously I’m not a professional dancer. So maybe it’s sillier than ever to say “if you want to be a dancer, be a dancer” and to imply I’m a dancer!]

But one thing that has been nice is… I oftentimes wonder what are the top 10 things people think about me – like that’s potentially a good sign of how I’m coming off, and are the things that I think are important to me, or that I hope to do – are those things how I’m coming off to other people?

And I think the tide has already turned that most people are thinking of me as a dancer!

You audition for a few things, and start to take a few classes and then boom. You get invites to other auditions and classes and things. Your friends ask you how dance is going.

Before you know it, it’s folded in – it’s a part of your life!

Sparks Dance Team Workshop (Fall 2019)

January 11, 2021

This was a little hard, but overall wonderful.

You had to learn the dance faster than at the Clippers audition, and it was more fast paced.

But the people there were SO nice and supportive. Loved that.

Again, this is why(!!!) I need to be better at blogging in real-time. I’m sorry I don’t really have more details to give, except I loved the vibes, and loved getting to dance with the Sparks Dance Team members!

Auditioning For The Clippers Hoop Troop! (Fall 2019)

January 10, 2021

Since I didn’t make the actual Clippers dancers, they had *another* team you could audition for – The Hoop Troop.

It’s basically the people who do the t-shirt cannons and that type of thing. You just have to help the crowd get hype, without needing all the super technicalness technique of dancing or anything like that.

I thoooought I killed it. I thought for sure I was gonna get a callback to the interviews.

I did not haha.

I gave a ton of energy (I thought). But I dunno. I guess there could be a million reasons they didn’t like me and whatever one there was, I didn’t get a callback.

But(!) I did give it my all. I had a good time, and I’m sure there’ll be more fun teams to come!

Back in Ballet, Baby! (Fall 2019)

January 9, 2021

As I said, while I was there, my confidence grew in my looks, flexibility, ability to learn quickly, and ability to do the ‘simple moves. But there are a few technique specific things that need to be better.

So, I’m going about trying to fix it!

I haven’t been in ballet for a while, and now I’m studying with Jenny.

Love her. Love being back in the dance studio/at the ballet bar. Excited for everything the future holds!

Trying Out To Be A Clippers Dancer! – Part 2 (The Audition) (Summer 2019)

January 8, 2021

Picking up from yesterday –

So, I check in. And I feel like my confidence grew a little more the whole day.

Well, I suppose until I was cut haha. But, tbh, even being cut felt fine, because the day went so much better than I expected!

Starting off by just walking in, I think I expected every single woman to be like a literal perfect specimen. But there were plenty of women of various sizes. I was worried I’d stick out like a sore thumb without a perfect body, but I didn’t stick out as abnormally large or anything.

Then we got to stretching. And I was able to hold my own! It thought I was gonna be with a bunch of Cirque Du Soleil people or something. But no. I kept up!

Then we learned a routine to do down the floor. I was afraid I wouldn’t keep up. Perhaps they’d teach it so fast, I wouldn’t be able to learn it.

But no! They did it multiple times over.

It was such a great day where I was so comfortable and kept up every step of the way – until I got cut that afternoon haha.

But they were super nice!

They didn’t give the exact reason I was cut. But based off what I could guess, I thought my technical skills weren’t up to par. Specifically, there was a leap I don’t think I executed well. But perhaps if I work on the technicalities, maybe just maybe I could make it in the future!

We’ll see!