Picking up from last time –
I didn’t get the job. But I tried to stay in touch with the lead editor. She was the only even semi-connection I had into the Jon Stewart world. We did get along nicely in the phone interview. So, I tried.
I emailed her after the premiere episode to tell her how I enjoyed it. And I emailed her a couple of other times – maybe once every few months just to say I liked a piece or something.
She never wrote me back.
Side note: Actually, before all this happened, I have a drafted post on like “how hard is trying too hard,” and that type of thing because I’m always a little on the intense side. Sometimes it works and sometimes it turns people off… And I’m not great at just picking up on cues. (Oof.)
During this time, I just think, “Oh, she’s probably just busy.”
Of course there’s a part of me that’s like, “Oh, I’m annoying, and she doesn’t care about me.” But that part is often quiet until someone explicitly says, “You’re being too intense for me.” [*takes a minute to pause and reflect on if I’m a socially adept human being. Decides not to worry about that for now.*]
Aaaaaanyway, I was actually pretty much giving up on the idea of her wanting to talk to me anymore since I never got a response (to my very sparse emails – I am kind of normal. ;))
But I decided to try one last time – and this is where I’ll pick up next time.