When I was in Barbados with Alex, we had a lot of really deep and meaningful conversations.
It was a really magical time where I got to know him even better than I already do. And I skipped most of those in this blog [away from being too much for public consumption], and just kept them in my heart.
But I will tell one that’s relevant to the Wheel stuff.
Obviously Wheel came up a number of times, since that was like… the whole reason we were on the trip.
And one thing that came up was he didn’t realize how much backlash there’d been and how I had a mini-viral moment and everything. And he was like “what? I didn’t even know this at the time!”
Then at one point I talked about how I did have a small fear that that was how I’d be known or remembered – as that ‘weird girl’ on Wheel of Fortune who pretty much embarrassed herself.
He was like “it’s not what you’re known for now. And if it’s not what you’re known for now, it’s unlikely that’s what you’ll be known for.”
And, I dunno, it gave me a little sense of peace. Not that I’m “known” for anything… But yeah, even the stuff I am ‘known for’ in whatever circles I run in (so like, 52 half marathons after open-heart surgery), even that has really fallen away over the years.
For most people, the good and the bad will fall away, or will meld into a mush over the years, as long as you don’t have something suuuuuper sticky.
And I don’t think this was suuuuuper sticky for me. So, hopefully it’s not defining. And here’s looking forward to more game shows, and more paintballs on the canvas of my life, and this being mushed in with the other things! 🙂