Can you believe I’ve been blogging for 2 1/2 years? It seems both like an eternity and like no time at all. Isn’t it weird how time works that way?
Anyway, I’ve been going back through the blog from the beginning – now that I feel I generally actually know how to blog. I’ve been making sure everything is categorized, and that there are pictures in every post, and all that jazz.
I thought it was going to be sort of tedious and laborious. It’s actually been heartwarming, and interesting, and even kinda fun.
And I just had to share this entry, which shocked me. I came in last – last – in a 10k. I was expecting to read about the shame. Instead, I read, “As people say, ‘the last place finisher is the slowest winner’… I’d rather come in last than not come in at all!”
Who is that? Who’s that who’s talking? I have been of the “if you’re not first, you’re last” mindset my whole life. I took home silver instead of gold in the math pentathlon in 3rd grade, and I hid under a bench crying for an hour because of how disappointed in myself I was for not winning.
That is me. That is Aurora. So who is this crazy girl who’s happy just to be there?
Then, there’s a paragraph at the end about how thankful I am to be running. It was so interesting to me… I mean, I am thankful to be running of course.
But I think now I sort of feel this pressure because I have a blog and people actually know me as a runner and all of this. And I can’t just be slow and silly forever. I need to improve my times. I need to improve my fitness.
But I suppose it is good sometimes to be able to think back to that level of thankfulness, and say, “yeah, I guess it is great to be able to run.”
I don’t know if I really said anything in this post, but I was just surprised and wanted to share…