So, in the fairly recent past, I was going through a lot of old blog posts, because I was trying to organize the “dark years” of my life, and I was reading about all my thoughts back then.
And one of the things I’d been thinking about/wondering about was whether I’d gone back to BMI “too early,” because I still wasn’t 100% sure I was ready. And I did still have some tough days. –
But(!) I did get into advanced. So, the outcome was exactly what I wanted, which makes it hard to begin to argue that maybe I went back “too early,” because while it was tough, it was handleable… and everything worked out. Not only did I make it into advanced (the goal/dream), I found a great writing partner. And I did projects I loved.
But, mainly, what’s crazy to see now is that had I waited one more year, which I kept, at the time, thinking maaaaybe I should have – I would’ve been doing freaking second year (scary, crazy, all-on-the-line second year) in the midst of this pandemic! And I can’t imagine that that would’ve been nice.
I’m sure I would’ve done everything I could’ve to make it work. And in some ways, maybe it would’ve better, kind of, if the world shut down and people had more time to write and practice the songs. But overall, I think it would’ve been a lot harder and a lot easier to get in your head.
I really feel for everyone graduating this year, or in cut programs this year, etc.
So, all that to say, I suppose there might not be a truly “perfect” time for anything ever. Because going back when I did felt like it might be slightly too early, and waiting would’ve seemed too late and I’d probably be wishing I would’ve gone back earlier… So, I guess it seems that with most things, probably now is usually just as good a time as any.