Picking up from yesterday –
And I guess that’s literally how the world words – we all see it through our own lens. But it’s crazy to really experience that on a larger scale. Even though I could’ve been clearer in my video [including that I did follow her before this song, I just thought she came up through her TikTok quarantine songs], I don’t know that you can ever be clear enough to have everyone understand you.
And *I* see things through my lens too! Because we ended up going down a whole entire rabbit hole. Someone mentioned how Jax had performed for Trump. And there was a Fox New interview I posted about – as I feel like I’ve been posting nothing but Jax stuff (again, why I’m gonna need to delete it all at some point – I don’t want to be a random seeming fan page for a girl I barely know. We all know if I were gonna have a fan page, it’d be for Michael Jackson).
Anyway, I posted this Fox News things and tried to stay generally as neutral as possible for 2 reasons.
1) Jax was trying to stay as neutral as possible. She said she was apolitical and just wanted to support her brother in the service and her dad (a 9/11 first responder), and that’s why she was performing for an event at the White House.
I don’t personally believe in being ‘apolitical’ when it comes to Trump. But that brings me to –
2) I don’t want to try to ‘cancel’ her! I don’t need to give a speech about how I thought that was wrong or whatever. For one thing, it was 4 years ago, and I can only how she changed. For another, I just had a dumb though talking about a random chapter of someone’s life I missed. It’s not my goal to then try to ‘take her down’. I didn’t want this whole thing going negatively.
So, anyway, someone comments: “Missing the part where this was a bad answer for a 22 year old girl?”
And *I* think they’re calling ME out because *I* was supposed to say more about it was a bad answer for someone fully 22 years old – old enough to have voted in a Presidential Election. I thought she was basically saying it was wrong to present something wrong as neutral on my page – like the part she was missing was MY context of framing of saying it’s wrong.
So, I responded, basically being like ‘it’s not great, but I generally think I like her. And we have to hope maybe she’s changed in the last 4 years’ – something that shows I think it was wrong but I don’t want to go nuts about it.
BUT.
The woman was saying she thought that by the act of posting it, I was already saying it was wrong. And SHE is missing why I would think it IS wrong because Jax was ‘only’ 22.
And it was just crazy to me how one comment can be so different in how you look at it.
I think I was feeling really insecure for not treating Jax as seriously as I would have anyone else who went on Fox News. So, because I already carried that guilt, I thought the comment was about that, ’cause I guess that’s what I was looking for.
Had I not thought that about myself, it might not have affected the lens at which I view things! Just a thought!