So, now that grad school’s over, I’m spending all this time trying to sort of ‘brand’ myself and figuring out what’s next.
And I’m making this sort of cute infographic thing. Actually, here, I’ll just put this in, so you can see what I’m talking about. (I cut off the top part, since it has more personal contact info on it, like for employers and stuff.)
Anyway!
So, I’ve been working on making a sort of infographic (for various grants and things), and working on a ‘normal person looking resume’ so I have options potentially outside of editing for a little while, and just various things to try to ‘brand’ myself better. (Tbh, I probably also should be thinking about whatever websites I have as well.)
And the infographic already leaves me with all these questions like, whenever I’m not applying to something specifically left-leaning and/or politically motivated/backed, should I put something else in that spot, and if so, what?
Also, is the pic I picked from a game show fun and dynamic, or does it make me look crazy? Is the adventure one fun, or am I not wearing enough clothes? And on and on questions.
(This maybe should’ve been two different blog posts, one talking about how to brand myself, and one talking about the sort of ’emotional’ stuff that brings up, but the infographic is not that important, as it’s supposed to be sort of a little ‘extra’ fun thing for various applications, so let’s not get lost in it [though I will take notes if you have them], but anyway, to my original point – )
As I’m trying to ‘brand’ my accomplishments to look impressive, or creative, etc. I’m just realizing how many ‘stories’ I have. People want to know about game shows and travels and all this stuff.
And that’s awesome. And it’s cool that I’ve lived like a million lifetimes. But it also just feels like I have so many stories that
a) It makes me nervous I’m like ‘old’ now. Like, how many millions of lives must I be living to have that many stories?
b) So many of my stories are pre-pandemic. I mean… I guess I did see the pyramids and make friends in Morocco and have the trip of a lifetime with Alex in the pandemic. So… I dunno… maybe the pandemic is starting to turn around to really be something. But… I dunno. I’m just feeling insecure…
And I’m also feeling a scared-ness for a lack-of-newness.
Like, I love running marathons, and scuba diving, and traveling, and all that. And I’m sure when I truly get back to it all in full force, it’ll be lovely. The bits of adventure I have had in the pandemic have been lovely!
But also… is that my life now? While all marathons, and all dives, and all game shows, etc. are different… on the one hand, I love that I’ve found kind of a ‘niche’ or whatever of where I fit in, at the whatever the world is at the intersection of those things. On the other, I’m worried there’s only so much true ‘newness’ to those things. (I can feel that way about especially have marathons, since I think I’ve done over 100, but not about scuba diving yet, as I’m not even rescue certified haha). But you get what I’m saying.
Maybe I just need to find more dance stuff. that’s a newness. I don’t have a ton of accomplishments or ‘stories’ in dance.
I dunno. I’m just craving something. Some kind of change or movement or something.
And I know your life generally doesn’t change unless you change it… but I do have to figure out how I want to change it, if I want a chance at successfully doing it.