Picking up from yesterday (and still somehow trying to make sense, but who knows if any of this ever will) –
I feel like there are some things I used to laugh about, that over the past year and half-ish started to seem a little unfunny to me – a specific one I can think of is “miscommunications.” Those can be reeeeally funny. (Three’s Company ran for 8 years and 174 episodes, after all!)
And I’ve laughed a seemingly uncountable number of times at this Key and Peele sketch. (Has that or has that not happened to all of us?)
I even wrote one of my audition songs for BMI about miscommunication! I obviously thought it was funny enough to write about then! (And I got in! So, they obviously thought it was funny enough to accept me.)
But in the last year and a half or so, to some extent, I’ve pretty much been avoiding nearly any subject that even sort of tangentially has to do with sexual assault guy….
For one thing, I dunno, everything feels like it’s just one half step away from getting so out of hand, or dangerous. I saw how fast “little miscommunications” turned into this abusive rabbit hole… Although, it doesn’t have to be that way… It shouldn’t be, and it’s very possible – even normal – to not be that way…. (That’s something I have to remind myself of over and over…(and over).) So… let’s hope that most likely it won’t always be that way in the future.
For another thing, I guess there’s a slight part of me that worries that someday I’m gonna write some sketch, some story, some song, some something that has to do with some “silly” relationship issue, and it’s gonna very teenily resemble something that happened between me and sexual assault guy, and then somebody will say something like, “ah, so that wasn’t a big deal after all.” Or he himself, will poof, pop his head right around some magical corner and say, “See?! You wrote a sketch about [miscommunication, or someone mansplaining, or someone who doesn’t listen, or any of the other sort of, kiiiiiind of-iiiiiish adjacent behaviors to the abuse he inflicted.]. Guess now that we can laugh about it in a [story/script/song] it’s all totally 100% normal. See? I’m great and not ‘abusive’ – what a mean word, Aurora. And everything was all fine – it’s all fine!”
And we’ll pick up here tomorrow!