[This is a backdated post from September 19th. Sorry. I know there’s still a lot to catch up on… I’m not gonna stop trying!]
Perhaps I spoke slightly too soon when I declared, “I’m not leaving New York!”
I’ll most likely get more into the specifics of this stuff next month when things have calmed down a little… But, as of now, I don’t have my apartment after September 30th.
BMI was supposed to start tonight, but for personal reasons so much bigger than just “I did poorly in the class wah wah,” (that, you know, maybe we can get into at Denny’s sometime, but unfortunately not here, not now)… I am not ready to go back this year. So, I am deferring yet again. (And if you’re rolling your eyes at me, don’t worry. I’m rolling them at myself too.)
So, to recap:
- No job
- No apartment
- No school either
I’ve got no plans and no responsibilities.
On the one hand, it feels like my life is in shambles. A mere 6 or so weeks ago I had the dream job of my life, an apartment pretty close to Central Park, and a commitment to going back to BMI.
It was such a beautifully set-up life and practically exactly what I wanted (for now, at least) in oh so many ways.
On the other hand, though…
I’m free right now.
I don’t have to worry about making my expensive rent in New York. I don’t have work I have to report to. I’m not tied to New York on Mondays for class.
I can go anywhere. I can do anything.
I’m still certainly hoping to do BMI next year. (But, for real, though.) So, I have about a year to experience… So… what do I wanna do? Go to school? Go to Europe? Just work in television like normal?
I am a little bit free, and that’s a little bit exciting…
I cannot wait to see what in the world happens after next. I am ready for ideas and adventure!