Interview #2 – Ryan Vickers

October 6, 2020

I am so lucky to know so many ridiculously interesting person.

Ryan is maybe the sweetest human being on earth? He always been SO unbelievably nice and ridiculously hospitable. [Yes, he’s Canadian.]

He introduced me to “Come From Away” [an incredible Broadway show]. He let me stay with him when I ran a race in Toronto. He is dope, and here are some of my takeaways with him!

  • He’s been on 13(!!!) game shows (between France, US, Canada, and Great Britain). Wheel of Fortune holds a special place in his heart because it was both his first and most profitable.
  • Some of his hobbies are scuba diving [he’s up to almost 1,000 dives!], cup stacking [yes, he’s combined these and done this underwater], running [he’s even done a Spartan race], and more.
  • I got to learn a bit more about the whole ‘world of cup stacking.’ He says doubles stacking is like a 3-legged race. Also, cup-stacking is “surprisingly athletic.” He told me about someone who got a D1 scholarship, they believe, in large part with the help of the small hand moments/coordination they got from cup stacking!

And on the all-important question I’ve been asking everyone, which is what is the point of life? Ryan said it’s to experience everything you can – and to make people happy, even in the small gestures like getting coffee for co-workers every Friday. “It is so little to do a good deed.”

52 Interviews In 52 Weeks

October 4, 2020

Yes, this is VERY old. I’m STILL trying to catch up. Doing my best! haha

Sort of picking up from yesterday (and how I chose/got to this project) –

What I basically landed on was ’52 interviews in 52 weeks’. I had/have no idea how this will evolve. I thought it could ultimately be many things – perhaps even a podcast.

I’m not sure if I’m gonna try to get any ‘famous’ people. Unsure if it will mainly be my friends (or strangers). (There are pros and cons to both.)

Not sure if it’s gonna be one specific question I ask many people, or how it’s gonna work.

So, I’m willing to let it change throughout the year. But in general, we’re going for ’52 interview in 52 weeks’ to pay more attention to other people, get to know other people better, be fascinated by people, get out of my own head, make some deeper connections – all that kind of stuff.

So, we’ll see what that ends up being!

Choosing My Next 52-In-52 Project (for 2019 – 2020)

October 3, 2020

[Yes, a very, very, very YEARS late post again. I’m trying so, so hard. I don’t know if I’ll ever get there, but I will be trying!]

As you may know if you’ve been around the blog a while, I try to do “52 in 52” projects in a way that in every calendar year I’m starting one or ending one. I hadn’t done one in a while, so starting in late 2019, it was time to get on it before the year was over!

[And sorry that we’re just now, almost a year later, getting to it. Obviously, there’s SO much to catch up on!]

Usually, when I pick these projects, I try to find something I feel I am either lacking in, or at least want more of (if we don’t want to use ‘lacking’, which is a bit of a negative-sounding word).

Anyway, I had gotten in my head about a lot of kind of my own internal-swirling issues around that time. I’d done better for the majority of 2019 about being open and connected.

I know when I got PTSD in 2016, one of my big issues was walling off from other people/getting in my own head/being distracted – that kind of stuff.

I had a lot of trauma therapy, and really did heal. And I got better! So, for most of 2019, I was present and happy, but in the fall, I started having more personal issues come up.

I don’t know if they’re ‘triggering’ from my PTSD. Or, perhaps sometimes people just still go through hard times outside of that. But whatever the reasons, I started being a little more in-my-head/distracted.

And to be perfectly (and embarrassingly) candid about myself, even when things aren’t going wrong, I’m a big talker (clearly). I do think I take up too much of many conversations.

I’m not sure if it’s because I want the speaker to like me, therefore they need to think I’m interesting. Or if I just hate dead air, so I try to fill it. Or maybe I’m just selfish. I dunno.

But I would like to be a more giving and connected person in conversation.

I’ve already done a 52-in-52 charity project. I donate money when I have it. Give blood. All that kind of stuff. So, it’s not that I’m never giving or connected… I guess I feel connected to a community at large, and less so to individuals.

And I’d like to be better at strengthening those individual bonds, being a better conversationalist, and taking a deeper care of those around me.

We’ll talk about what that might look like more tomorrow!

So How’s Returning To Undergrad Going So Far?

October 1, 2020

I think it’s going overall okay?

I’m happy to be back. Loooove taking classes with Prince Charles again. Always feel lucky when I get to be in his class!

I’m in 16 credits this semester.
[Full time is considered 12 – 16. If you take more than 16, you have to pay extra. (So, I’m not taking the true ‘max’, as you could pay to take more. But I’m taking the max for what’s included in normal tuition.)]

Every class I’m in is a 2 credit class. So, I’m in 8 classes. Of those, 4 are EPD (Electronic Production & Design) classes. And 3 are MP&E (Music Production & Engineering) classes.

(One is the final level of harmony I just never finished.)

So, it’s very full of a lot of technical stuff. Many people said it would be hard… And it is.

I have standing weekly EPD tutoring. And I go to the drop in tutorings outside of that. But I’m getting by!

I’m also getting to take a class with the INCREDIBLE Susan Rogers. I’ve been waiting forEVER to take a class with her. She was teaching MP-320 (Music Production for Records). So, I got in on it!

She’s got experience with a bunch of bands you’ve heard of (including working with PRINCE(!). She also produced and engineered on Barenaked Ladies’ “One Week.” She has a PhD. And I’ve never had a class with a woman in the department before!

I only have one final class after this semester that’s needed to graduate with MP&E – which I’ll be taking with Prince Charles. So, this was my last chance to get Susan, and I’m glad I did. [Edited to add: I heard she retired in 2022(?!) So, i really did get in under the wire.]

So yeah… chugging along!

Why I Chose My 2 Majors at Berklee (2nd – Electronic Production & Design (EPD))

September 30, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

I mainly chose EPD for all these ‘logical’ reasons… [And sometimes, it makes sense and isn’t an awful thing to make decisions out of logic!]

Pairs well with MP&E.

Helps you get deeper into some of the technical things you learn in MP&E, expanding far further on them.

Not a lot of girls still.

Not a lot of people double major in these two together. Everything thinks it’s pretty impressive if you do.

It’s the only other major at the school you must apply to get into. So, I wanted the ‘prestige’ of that.

I am obviously interested in the technical stuff. I wouldn’t be in MP&E otherwise.

But the people in EPD are just SO excited about all the ‘super nerdy’ stuff. I go to tutoring ALL the time to even have sort of a handle on all this.

I’m not positive I truly belong in EPD, but I am here. So, I’m gonna try to make the most of it!

Why I Chose My 2 Majors at Berklee (1st – Music Production & Engineering, The Not As Great Reasons)

September 29, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

Some of my not-as-great reasons for picking the major were:

1) Quincy Jones went there.

Now, you could argue this is a good reason. Who doesn’t want to follow in the footsteps of people they admire?

But it’s a little silly to pick a major or a school based on a person who went there. (Though, I have done it twice now, and neither time have I been disappointed. [I chose BMI because amazing composer Robert Lopez went there. And it’s probably one of the best things I’ve ever done.])

Anyway, as you know, Michael Jackson was my favorite performer in the world. Head over heels in love with him since before I could speak.

He didn’t go to a college. (Why would he have?) But his producer, who many argue (at least gotta be partially correctly) was the sort of magic pixie dust to Michael Jackson went there. And majored in MP&E. And I wanted to be like Quincy Jones.

So, I would call that a neutral reason.

2) To be impressive!

This is something that can really get me in trouble in life. I worry too much about what people think, or what I ‘should’ be doing. I did have all those great reasons for wanting to do MP&E. They’re valid. And that’s probably why it’s been overall such a wonderful experience. So, it doesn’t necessarily matter if I also have a not-great reason on top.

That being said, yes, part of me picked it because you had to apply to MP&E on top of applying to the school, so it feels more ‘selective’. And especially when I started, girls weren’t as high of an enrollment. So, I wanted to show I could do it – especially as a girl.

That leads us perfectly into talking about choosing EPD (Electronic Production & Design) tomorrow!

Why I Chose My 2 Majors at Berklee (1st – Music Production & Engineering, The Great Reasons)

September 28, 2020

Some good reasons I chose MP&E are that
1) I really love kind of using ‘both sides of my brain’. I crave creativity. But, I think I’m a liiiiittle too logical-distracted, and I like technical things so much. In a perfect world, I do something creative and also technical – where I get to use both things.

MP&E is that 100%. You have to be so creative. So technical. It’s hard, and it’s worthwhile.

2) I love making music. MP&E is potentially(?) the best major [or at least one of the best] for people who really want to make music. You’re taking an idea all the way to its completion.

It’s not just doing the sheet music. Not just imagining possible songs. It’s taking those ideas and making the tangible thing for people to listen to. So, I think it helps propel you a little more, getting your music out in the world in a way people can really hear it. And just kind of forcing you to complete things.

3) I LOVE the people. Really, I love them. You can take “Intro to MP&E” before you get in. And I did, hoping it would help my application stand out. But not only did it help it stand out, it was a great class I LOVED.

I loved the professors. The students were cool. The chair is awesome. So who wouldn’t want to be a part of this?

4) I also loved the facilities – both the physical ones, and sort of the ones they ‘made us’ get [the bundle with ProTools and everything]. They keep their recording studios up to date. And it always felt good to be in one.

I really love MP&E at Berklee. I think it was a great choice.

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

“Berklee Completion Student” – Part 7 (Adding Some Minors)

September 27, 2020

[Still hanging out in the weeds. If you wanna skip forward, you can go here (to the conclusion post). (Yes, there is no link there yet. I need to link it, once I write it haha)]

Picking up from yesterday –

[So, technically I was out of the purview of the Degree Completion people nat this point, so I could change the title of this post, but oh well. I’m gonna finish out the last parts of this all under the same title.]

Since I was going in on school, might as well add some minors, right?

I always love to do too much, and do the max. When I was there, I don’t think they had minors. If they did, they were starting them right as I was leaving, but I don’t think they had them yet.

Now they do!

You can do a max of two. And why not try to max out school?

When picking a minor, there were multiple minors I would’ve been really interested in – dance, for one, would’ve been a dream. Alas, they were not doing virtual dance classes. So, that was not an option.

Music & Society [and really any of their tracks – Africana Studies, Gender Studies, or Global Studies] would’ve been very interesting.

I was super interested in acoustics. I’d love to understand math and spacial things better.

However, the ones that seemed attainable – that had the classes offered virtually, and made it so I didn’t have to do a million (very expensive) credit hours of extra work were Sound Design for Video Games and Creative Coding – mainly because they were made up of a bunch of electives from EPD… that I had to take anyway.

So, once I had my majors set up, I also sent off a form asking the EPD department chair to sign off on the minors. I was told the minors thing could be done at anytime. But let’s just get it all in writing, and taken care of, and in motion.

So, there you have it. Majors set. Minors set.

I’m not gonna keep talking about it under this title, but I will talk more about Berklee and why I chose my majors tomorrow!

“Berklee Completion Student” – Part 6 (Talking To My Second Major’s Department Chair)

September 26, 2020

[Still hanging out in the weeds. If you wanna skip forward, you can go here (to the conclusion post). (Yes, there is no link there yet. I need to link it, once I write it haha)]

Picking up from yesterday –

Everything was fully worked out with MP&E (Music Production & Engineering). Then it was off to EPD (Electronic Production & Design.)

This was a chair I did not know, as I’m pretty sure he wasn’t the chair when I was there originally.

His original attitude was basically “well, you haven’t even started, so why not just do the newer catalogue year and you won’t have to substitute anything or do anything weird.”

But he really heard me out, and when he understood all the extra things I’d have to do outside of his major, he made me a plan to keep my base catalogue year, but change things around a bit for EPD.

Not an absolutely insane amount of things had changed… but enough.

So, he laid out the plan. We got it in writing, and we were good to go!

Now, I knew it would be a gamble for EPD. Since I had not yet started the major, the absolute fastest I could go through the major – [and that’s even squishing 2 semesters together, in a way that you have to get a waiver if you want to go slightly faster] – was 4 semesters.

So, that’s me either being able to go remote all the way through summer 2021 (which sadly, in may ways seems so possible, but who knows). Or not finishing. Or going back to Boston.

But since I’m gonna be in school anyway, might as well go forward in both majors and hope for the best.

Worst case scenario, I graduate with MP&E, and end up knowing a lot of extras.

So, everything was set. Everything was signed off on in writing.

For some reason, the Degree Completion people still kept an eye on me. I guess because my situation does feel in their purview. But, I mainly just dealt with the chairs of my departments. [The degree completion people were actually super nice. I just wanted to feel like there were options open, and I wasn’t handcuffed to a plan… that I could… I dunno… add some minors, if I felt like it!]

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

“Berklee Completion Student” – Part 5 (Talking To My First Major’s Department Chair Continued)

September 25, 2020

[We continue super in the weeds. If you wanna skip forward, you can go here (to the conclusion post). (Yes, there is no link there yet. I need to link it, once I write it haha)]

Picking up from yesterday –

The MOST important thing was to get MP&E on board. I can finish in 3 semesters (if I smush together 2 that would normally be separate, but they’ll allow that).

There was a chance, that when we were having this convo in the spring that things would be back to normal for fall and I might have to still not finish after all. Or go back to Berklee if I truly cared that much.

BUT they were gonna do everything they could to make it happen. And IF I could get through the fall, but we’re in person for spring, Prince Charles is willing to do independent studies over zoom for my final semester so I can actually be done – especially since the last classes are basically just ‘final deliverables’ of the major anyway, of finishing a certain number of songs.

So, as long as I could make it remote through the fall I was good.

And here we are, in the fall, me back in school.

I made sure when hoping in my heart that there would be a remote option in the fall (so I could know I would finish), that I was merely hoping for the option. For people for whom this is their lives, I was hoping they would be able to go back. I don’t wish more inconvenience on others for my benefit… But alas. Still remote in the fall.

But… Still remote in the fall! haha Yay!

The other thing about MP&E is, I did have to take one extra class to kind of catch me up on the changes over the last number of years. A sort of intermediate level (maybe hinging around beginner) class.

So, that’s what the summer would be – just catching up to 2020. Both with a catch-up class in MP&E – and I had to do something similar for EPD, but I was at the beginning of that major, so that was fine.

And we’ll get to more about EPD (Electronic Production & Design) tomorrow!

“Berklee Completion Student” – Part 4 (Talking To My First Major’s Department Chair)

September 24, 2020

[More super in the weeds. If you wanna skip forward, you can go here (to the conclusion post). (Yes, there is no link there yet. I need to link it, once I write it haha)]

Picking up from yesterday –

So, that’s basically the place from which we started. A Degree Completion student (in music business). OR if I really want to do either of my other majors having to start fresh with a new catalogue year.

And I was like, “no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. I paid for a class once every 4 years. That’s supposed to undo that rule!”

And they’re like, “Well, you’re in tech-heavy majors that are ever-changing. You can’t be away for so long and expect to be able to come back.”

Then I was finally told if I got permission from the chairs, I could come back in those majors – with my catalogue year. So, off to the chairs I went.

The first was the MP&E (Music Production & Engineering) chair, whom I already kinda knew from my time there. I did have *one* class left that was only ever offered in person, because it was a very hands on studio class about all the different mics and setups. Basically, you had to be running around physically plugging things in.

BUT they were starting this new thing of having potential different ‘tracks’ for MP&E. (I forget the actual names, but it was basically post-production, traditional/general, hip-hop/pop.)

I wanted hip-hop/pop more than anything else, anyway. And my one of my very favorite professors (Prince Charles) was in charge of that track. And that’s the one that can most be done “in-the-box” anyway, as opposed to in a normal studio.

So… we were able to work it out! And set up a progression that made it so that I would indeed be able to make a plan to graduate without ever going back on campus.

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

“Berklee Completion Student” – Part 3 (Some Background Info Degree Completion vs Returning Student)

September 23, 2020

[This continues to be super in the weeds. If you wanna skip forward, you can go here (to the conclusion post). (Yes, there is no link there yet. I need to link it, once I write it haha)]

Picking up from yesterday –

When I returned, at first they were labeling me as a ‘Completion Student’. And I guess it’s super nuanced, and maybe there’s no much of a different. But to my understanding, there is a difference. And a ‘returning student’ returns like normal.

There’s nothing that sets them apart from other students. They just continue on with things the way they had when they left.

But a ‘degree completion student’ I think is generally kind of ‘locked’ in a plan. And the plan is just to finish. The time for exploring and everything is over.

And I guess that’s okay. I am a grown-up and everything. And I did just want to finish. But I also wanted to be a ‘normal’ student. If I was gonna go back at full tuition and be full time, I wanted opportunity to add a minor [or two] if I wanted, and all that jazz.

And I DEFINITELY didn’t want to be stuck with Music Business.

When I was first reached out to (pre-pandemic) as an alum with more than 90 credits [counting the like 2 ish semesters(?) I tested out of], they said if I wanted a completion plan, they would do it for Music Business (since all my major classes would’ve been completed). They could figure out the simple things – like 2 more semesters of private lessons, that kind of stuff.

But… I didn’t want that. If I was gonna get a Berklee degree, I wanted it in at LEAST MP&E (Music Production & Engineering), and in a perfect world, MP&E, and EPD (Electronic Production & Design).

I asked if I could do the options they laid out, to at least fulfill those courses, to get me closer to graduating. But they said if I wanted to do the plan of remote lessons and things like that, I’d have to sign off on dropping MP&E.

No thank you.

And sorry, but this is getting long. So, this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

“Berklee Completion Student” – Part 2 (Some Background Info On Catalogue Years & Majors)

September 22, 2020

[Again, this is super in the weeds. If you wanna skip forward, you can go here (to the conclusion post). (Yes, there is no link there yet. I need to link it, once I write it haha)]

Picking up from yesterday –

We’ve talked before about Berklee catalogue years, because every four years, I’ve tried to ‘take a ‘class”.

(Since I left in 2010, the 4-year-thing has happened twice now.)

The first time, I took an ‘internship,’ and just had all the paperwork signed off on by my boss. The second time, I took a private lesson over zoom that I ultimately quit. I couldn’t keep up with it at the specified time once I got a job on The Daily Show.

I tried to withdraw, but I guess the paperwork never went through. So, officially, I have an F on my transcript. BUT, they didn’t say you had to PASS a class every four years. They said you had to ENROLL in one haha.

What I didn’t say last time was that in my last semester of my original time on campus (spring 2010), I got accepted in Electronic Production & Design as well.

You weren’t allowed to have more than two majors. But I didn’t mind officially dropping Music Business. I’d basically taken all the Music Business classes. [I got a waiver to finish out the internship years later.]

Basically, MP&E (Music Production & Engineering) and EPD (Electronic Production & Design) are the only majors you have to apply to get into at Berklee. So, you DON’T want to drop those once you’re in, unless you’re SURE you’re not going back to them (as you’d have to apply all over again and perhaps wouldn’t be allowed in again).

So, while I never actually took an EPD class on campus, I did sign the paperwork to make it so that at the time I left, I was officially a dual major in MP&E/EPD [should I ever come back]. And when I arrived, there was a bit of a brouhaha about it.

And I suppose this is where we’ll pick up tomorrow!

“Berklee Completion Student” – Part 1 (Some Background Info On My College Career)

September 21, 2020

[This is a really in-the-weeds topic. So, most people probably won’t care about this haha. But if you do, this is for you! And if you just want the gist – skip over to the general overview of this [which I need to link after I write it a few days from now – remind me if you see this, and I haven’t!].]

I sort of forget exactly how much I’ve shared or not. So, for context, I guess Berklee has been wanting their graduation rates to be higher and they reach out to students who had over 90 credits completed to see if they want to do a “Degree Completion Plan.”

They don’t change the requirements of the majors much, if at all. They just try to find other ways you can accomplish them (e.g. if it’s liberal arts, through CLEP or community college. If it’s conducing, perhaps a directed study on zoom instead of a class in person. That kind of stuff.)

When I first started at Berklee, I started Music Business in my very first semester. I’d tested out Intro to Music Tech, and some Ear Training, and Harmony. I CLEPped out of English. So, not only did I have some space available, I also signed up to take extra credits – like the absolute maximum allowed. (I think maybe even enough that I had to petition to go above the allowed amount?) Whatever it was, it was a lot. And I was CLEPping out of a lot throughout the semester as well.

You can’t start to take MP&E (Music Production & Engineering) classes until you’re accepted into the major. You can’t apply until your second semester, meaning the earliest you can start is your third semester.

With all the space I had in my schedule, and all the classes I took, it was easy to make a HUGE dent in Music Business by the time I started MP&E, and ultimately finish it out, I think, in 4 – fall, spring, summer, fall [except that technically I withdrew from fall 2009 because of my health issues, so really, I finished out Music Business in the spring]. [And then I took an internship which I think was the final requirement for Music Business) after I left, because I’d wanted to keep my catalogue year.

[Somewhere around fall 2010 ish(?) (soon after I’d left), they had a HUGE change-up to the requirements, and started requiring a MILLION more [maybe slight exaggeration, but you get it] liberal arts credits. I just did not want to do all that.

(I mean, I wanted to broaden my horizons. But didn’t want all that to be mandatory just in order to graduate from music school.)

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow –

I’m Back In Undergrad!

September 20, 2020

[Yes, at the time this is posting, I’ve already even completed a master’s degree. I’m gonna need you to go ahead and imagine/pretend with me that this is 2020 haha.]

As we’re continue to catch up from all we’ve missed, let’s talk about school!

[To anyone who missed it, I quit school about 10 years ago (when I was like a sophomore), dropping out after 3 semesters in a row of being in and out of the hospital – and getting a job that seemed kinda good haha.

I feel like I must have told that story somewhere on this blog already haha. [If not, let me know and I’ll get deeper into it!]]

Back in the late spring, when everything was going online. One of my old professors reached out and told me that Berklee was going to be completely remote in the summer. And if I ever wanted to go back, *right now* was the time [as something huge and world-changing like this is so unlikely to ever happen again].

I thought why not!

College is a subject on this blog that’s been touched on now and again. I’ve always thought about going back, or maybe getting a degree from somewhere else, if I never could go back to Berklee (e.g. Harvard Extension School, which you can do practically completely online).

It’s never been a main priority. And to my knowledge, it’s never truly held me back in my life. But… it doesn’t become an issue until it’s an issue. And if it’s ever an issue, it’s probably too late to do something by the time you’d need to. [e.g. if it is an absolute requirement for a job or fellowship or something you reeeeeeally want, and they want to hire you, depending on the place/the rules, if you don’t have it, but the time you could fix the ‘problem’ [if they’re not willing to waive rules], you’re most likely long-gone, and someone else is most likely long-in.

So, while it’s never been a problem, it’s not bad to be prepared!

Once you’re in at Berklee, you’re “in for life” – that’s what they always say.

So, there isn’t a HUGE process in coming back. Basically, you just declare you want to. (There are *some* other steps than that, but that’s the big giant step you gotta do.)

So, I did that. And you know what? Let’s just get into it in an overly detailed way, because we’ve got time. So, I’ll talk more about this tomorrow!

Giving Blood In The Pandemic! (March 2020)

September 19, 2020

[We were deep in the midst of Wheel of Fortune posts when I drafted this. I’ve already been eligible to give multiple times since this! So, while this post is old, enjoy it now as we continue catching up/keeping on!]

Welp, shelter-in-place orders officially started today. And basically the first thing I did was make an essential stop to give some blood!

I went to Cedars-Sinai. They are in a critical need!

It was such a weird scene. They had roped off the area you normally go to. You had to answer questions about recent travel and pass a mini-health screening just to be able to go down the hallway that led to the blood donor area!

I mean, it made sense. It just was weird and different.

Then you went to the blood donor area and that was pretty much same as normal, except that basically anyone in there today was a healthcare worker on break – not a lot of randos coming in off the street.

The guy who took my blood explained to me that most of their blood comes from blood drives (which I did not know – I always prefer to just go give at the hospital).

So, yeah, they’re in critical need!

I happily gave blood. And they were giving away tons of stuff if you did. I got an In N Out gift certificate, plus one for a coffee place, and a couple free stickers!

If you can give, I recommend it. Critical need time!

Canvassing for Aftab Pureval

September 18, 2020

While we’re talking about canvassing –

I also did some canvassing in Ohio during the midterms!

Man… am I not a good luck charm? I’ve canvassed for a lot of candidates who ultimately did not win… But! I made calls for Cory Booker, and he’s a Senator. So, I guess you win some, you lose some.

Anyway, I enlisted my dad to help! He really came through after the election of Trump and has been more democrat-ish that I’ve ever seen him in my life. (He would still say he’s a Republican, I’m pretty sure, but maaaaan does he hate Trump.) So, he drove me around to canvas for Aftab Pureval!

(It was really special to do that with my dad!)

And the craziest/coolest part is that while I was picking up my packet of addresses and things, Aftab himeself walked in the office! How random.

I love canvassing!

Canvassing for Elizabeth Warren! (February 29, 2020)

September 17, 2020

Again, we already know at this point this was moot, because Biden is our candidate. But it was nice at the time.

Cory Booker and Kamala Harris were out of the race by this point. I had a few other people I loved, but Elizabeth Warren was my next favorite.

One of my friends called me up, and asked if I’d go canvassing with them. I really appreciated that! Often, it’s me who’s the friend that’s like “let’s go canvas!” But I dunno. I’d been kinda busy and exhausted. And I appreciated the nudge. And I took it, and went!

So, nudge your friends. Volunteer. Be political. It’s enriching!

Going To Cory Booker’s Presidential Launch Rally In The VIP Section! (April 2019)

September 16, 2020

What fun this was. (I know by the time you’re reading this, he’s already well out of the race, but it was very cool and hopeful at the time!)

As you know, we love our bff Cory Booker. (And usually when I say things like ‘our bff Cory Booker’, I’m 90% joking, ’cause it’s not like we’re actually best friends.)

But! I got an invite to be in the VIP section of this presidential rally! It was so cooooooool! I got to go pick up my special credentials, and then I say by his college roommates!

[I have a small video of this I’m gonna be putting back into this post when I figure out everything with the media player and whatever.]

How special. Yay!

Volunteering for The March for Our Lives with Headcount (March, 2018)

September 15, 2020

As we continue to catch up on everything we missed from 2018/2019, for now I’m trying to do some of the bigger things in kind of chunks. And right now, we’re on sort of the ‘political/activism’ chunk.

And… there were just so many marches. Do you remember how many times we’ve marched and protested and everything in the last few years? My gosh… even though it’s empowering to feel you’re do something… it’s also exhausting.

Like… goodness gracious we need another President!

Anyway, if I’m gonna be completely real with you, I actually don’t remember every march, and every protest, in detail. So, let this just be a stand in post to say there were a million marches.

But one in particular I do remember a bit more than others is when I went to March for Our Lives, and it was because I was registering to volunteer voters, which was great!

Really getting your money’s [well, non-money’s haha] worth out there by showing support for the cause by being out there, AND registering people – especially since there were so many teenagers who hadn’t registered to vote yet.

It was pretty simple. You have a clipboard. You walk around. You take people’s info. You turn it in to the main tent people at the end. Boom.

A good day! [Well… as good of a day as it can be, protesting people being shot senselessly, and watching the potential fall of democracy in real-time.]

The Melancholy Slumber Party At The Supreme Court (October 2018)

September 14, 2020

While we’re on the subject of demonstrations and politics, here’s a post I drafted back in October 2018!

So, I went and protested two weekends in a row against putting Brett Kavanaugh on the Supreme Court. And after all was said and done, and he’d been voted in, I couldn’t sleep. So, I headed down to the Supreme Court somewhere around 3 o’clock in the morning to see if anyone was still around.

Sure enough, there were these two women who *just* graduated from law school. And they were heartbroken.

One was telling me how Ruth Bader Ginsberg was her hero, and that she’d lived basically her whole life dreaming of being on the Supreme Court, and that for a very long time, her nickname was “Justice [Her Last Name].” And she was totally empty. She was like “I don’t even want this anymore. My whole life, this was all I wanted. But this court is repulsive. It can never fully bounce back from what happened today. And I don’t want this at all anymore. My whole life’s plan is different now.”

And I know that sometimes when we’re upset things look more bleak than they are when we get a little distance. So, maybe she will decide to work toward that later, and maybe she will become a Supreme Court Justice after all.

But there are few things in this life that make me sadder than seeing someone’s dream die. It is so heartbreaking. And it was heartbreaking to sit outside of the Supreme Court with them.

I don’t really have a giant point of this story. It just really hit me how far-reaching everything that’s happening is, and how personally affected people feel, and are. And it’s just… I know I’ve already said it, but it’s heartbreaking.

I dunno. I’m still keeping some hope alive. As Cory Booker says, there is no hope without despair. Hope is a response. So, I guess at this despair is waging a crater in America, maybe in us… Hopefully it’s just leaving room for us to fill that crater with hope (and volunteer hours, and protests, and donations to campaigns, etc., etc.).

It’s been a tough weekend. Hope you’re all doing well.

xoxo

Protesting Against Brett Kavanaugh’s Supreme Court Appointment (Fall 2018)

September 13, 2020

Man oh man. Obviously the Brett Kavanaugh things was so upsetting.

Sadly, I didn’t draft this at the time. So, I don’t fully remember it all.

I do remember PRO-Kavanaugh people were allowed to stay in certain areas of the building that we were ushered out of. Also ending up in an elevator with a bunch of security/police-y people. [If I find the video, I’ll post it here.]

I met a bunch of cool people, even under sad circumstances.

I went to the Capitol building and watched Chris Murphy give an inspired speech at 1am.

It was nice to do something – to be somewhere, and feel like I was trying to at least do something… even if it didn’t do much.

And Then I Went To More Black Lives Matter Protests

September 12, 2020

I kept that momentum going, and basically every time there was a protest I went.

There were a number of them in downtown.

Some details that stuck with me:

One of the protests went all around and through downtown, and one of my friends from high school waved from off his balcony! That was very cool to me.

So, at one march, everybody congregated at some of the government buildings downtown. We did chants and things, and were warned so many times that at whatever time (I think 6pm maybe?), they were going to be arresting anyone still there. (I think there were curfews in place, maybe? I forgot why they were allowed to arrest us for being out and about.)

Anyway, it was always a hard line to walk – how much you wanted to truly protest and put yourself on the line vs all the other concerns (like if you get detained, maybe not making it to work the next day, and I was at a job I absolutely could not afford to miss, or way more pressing than that, potentially being in a cell with people who have Coronavirus as the pandemic was raging, and I have prior heart issues).

It’s tough, because I think sort of the whole point of protesting is being willing to lay down your own safety and things you have to do for others. But… we do, to some extent, have to look out for ourselves, right? (Especially with the deadly pandemic raging.)

So yeah, I stayed until cops started swarming, and then I walked out the opposite side of the park. I didn’t see the point in getting arrested for being arrested’s sake.

There was one time though where cops were very much pointing guns(?) gun like things? I think they had blanks inside. But I think that still makes it a gun? Anyway… at the protestors. And I stood my ground.

It. was. terrifying.

But, I saw other people doing it. And I saw a woman of color doing it. And I just thought as a white person I have practically no choice but to brave up. If I’m here, I’m here. And I stayed kneeled in front of a cop with his gun pointed like directly at me. And it was scaaaaaaaary.

At one of the protests I went to (not that one, but another one), there were people getting shot with blanks.

People (including me) love to think about how brave they’re gonna be at these protests. And I’m apparently brave to a point. But once bullets (even blanks) start flying, and once people actually start getting arrested, at least in these cases, I was out of there. I did want to make a point, and I did want to show solidarity. But when things were that dangerous I didn’t see the point of staying, if I could get out [although I’m not sure of the most ethical decisions on these things].

So, yeah. Some inspiring times. Some scary times. These were definitely the most ‘real’ of any protests I’ve been to. I was never actually scared at other marches and things. But these were like… run from the sound of blanks exploding of guns types of protests.

I Went To A Protest Over George Floyd’s Death (May, 2020) – Part 2 (Then I Wisened Up, And Did)

September 11, 2020

Picking up from yesterday – 

So, I saw *another* protest come by not too much later. I THREW on my shoes, raced downstairs, and got there in time.

It started to get a little scary when people started throwing chairs against a Starbucks. I wanna protest and chant. But I don’t want to vandalize the corner Starbucks.

But yeah, I went out and marched around. And then pretty much after the Starbucks things everybody disbanded because the cops were coming. So, it was basically over.

And then I saw a gadrillion cop cars just going and going and going – somewhere, who knows where.

And some black people yelled down from their balcony “thank you for protesting!” And look, I know I’m not doing a lot. I certainly don’t get a gold medal for doing what I should be doing. But I felt good that I got out and got my feet on the ground. It SHOULD be the privileged white people protesting and it should be the black people who get to comfortably watch from a balcony if they’d rather.

It is my job, from my privileged place, to put my feet on the pavement – not to just watch and assume someone else is gonna do it. If we all said someone else, nobody would do anything.

No justice, no peace.

I Went To A Protest Over George Floyd’s Death (May, 2020) – Part 1 (At First I Didn’t Go)

September 10, 2020

We continue to fill in things from the last few years. And here’s a draft I did back in May:

So, obviously for the last 70-something days, I’ve been hanging in my apartment, mainly. #QuarantineCity, baby.

[It will become so weird if there ever becomes a time that Covid-19 is so forgotten about that people do not understand the context of that first paragraph.]

Anyway, as I’m sure you’ve seen, there’ve been all these protests. Well, tonight, there was one in downtown LA. My roommate and I came to our balcony to see what the noise was about, and there was a crowd walking down the street.

I thought it would be nice to join them, but it was like “they’re already passing by. I don’t want to get Coronavirus. [Etc etc etc].

Then, just a couple of blocks later, we started hearing these huge explosions. We ran out again and smoke was billowing everywhere. I think tear gas had been released.

And at first I was a little relieved when I thought “that coulda been me.” But then I was embarrassed about that relief.

What? I think other people’s lives are less precious than mine? That I should get to continue to stay supremely safe with social distancing, in my little high rise tower and it’s for other people to put their bodies on the line?

No. This is important stuff. And I should be being tear-gassed too! We all have to show up and show that all of this racism all over America is unacceptable and we will not be tolerating any more deaths of black people at the hands of police.

I Passed Advanced Improv At The Groundlings! (Fall 2019)

September 9, 2020

Omg did you ever think we’d make it here?! Did you?!

I can hardly believe it. What a road it has been. And yet. I passed.

My high school theater teacher was there to witness it, which was amazing! And some of my very close friends were there too!

I had one of the most fun scenes of my LIFE. Of course it’s never quite as fun just recounting in a blog form, ’cause it’s kind of one of those “you had to be there” things. But we got to do a “Kids Incorporated” where we were from a group called “Cum Busters.” (Yes, our audience had a dirty mind.)

And my scene partner and I got to just dance and be super silly for quite a while. Our teacher even said ‘I’m never going to black this out.’ haha.

We were all having the best time. The audience laughed a lot. Then we stayed at The Dark Room forever talking and talking about improv and the night and my class, and everything. [One of my other good friends had also recently passed, so we also talked about what we were hoping as far as Writing Lab, and what we wanted to do to prepare and all that jazz.]

So, yeah.

I did it – obviously with the help of many other people.

I can’t wait to do Writing Lab and tell you all about it!

“I’ve Trained For This. I Know What I’m Doing. F*ck It. Let’s Have A Blast.” (November 2019)

September 8, 2020

By the time you’re reading this, I’ve done my advanced show, and am probably still out at The Dark Room [the bar across the street from the Groundlings] with my friends.*

[*Now that this is months later, that’s probably not the case. haha Anyway, I guess pretend it’s Saturday night, November 23rd, while you’re reading this.]

Tomorrow I’ll give you the low down of how everything went. But for tonight, I’ll just say how I’m trying to feel going into it.

We had a super fun class this morning. [And then I had a Lyft drive home with the most hilarious woman with her and I volleying joke after joke back and forth to each other about how we got the advice that’s the title of this post, but I was cleeeeeearly not following it because she could feel my nervousness bahahahaha.]

Our amazing, wonderful improv instructor – whom I really adore – told us today that we should have some form of this sentence going through our minds before we go out there tonight.

There’s a bit of pressure on the advanced show, because it’s a big part of whether you pass or not. And everybody wants to pass, of course!

This is the final level of improv at The Groundlings! If you make it past this, you get on the “performance track.” You get to perform on the main Groundlings stage! You get to write! You’re one step closer to the Sunday Company!

So, it feels like there’s a lot on the line – or at least there is in this lil’ world of ours.

So, our teacher said that to put us at ease and help us out.

I am in a DOPE class. We have had the most fun. Everyone is so nice and SO FUNNY.

Can’t wait for the show!

Failing Advanced Improv! [Just The First Time] At The Groundlings (Fall 2018)

September 7, 2020

Still catching y’all up. And this is from September 2018. [Although, spoiler alert. In November 2019, I passed!]

Aye aye aye.

Welp. If you are unfamiliar with the ins and outs/rules of the Groundlings school program, you get 3 shots at each level of improv [that changes when you get to the writing levels]. So, you can fail twice with no consequences. If you fail a third time, you’re out, baby!

And they even set up the program with the expectation that you will fail. Most people fail at least level at least once if not more.

And uuuuuuuuugh, it looked SO good for a while – until it didn’t. (Eep!)

So, I leapt into advanced with the confidence of 1,000 suns shining. I was like “I’m back in LA! I’m on a good trajectory! The only way to be good at improv is to go with CONFIDENCE. LET’S. DO. THIS.”

And my midterm went great! My teacher was so positive. “You’re doing a ton of different characters! You’re adding great information! You’re doing everything you need to do! I only really need you to work on one thing. You build on what other people do so well. But you almost never initiate. You almost never ‘lead’ a scene. So, I want to see more leadership. Just for the next few weeks, if you end up steamrolling, I’ll overlook it. I’d rather you go too far than not far enough on taking up space and ‘leading’ the scene. So, just do that, and we should be good.”

Omg. Are you kidding me? I just have to do one thing? That seems simple! I can’t believe how well this is going! Amazing!

But then *falls back in chair so dramatically*, I didn’t do it.

I tried to do it, but I got out-statused. Oof. My teacher was disappointed!
I tried to do it in my second scene up, and still got labeled as lower status. [I guess you can lead a scene as low status, but I dunno. I just… I wasn’t doing well!]

And then I just kind of spun down a drain. I was so disappointed in myself and couldn’t get footing after that.

And I was taking aaaall these extra classes and power wows [kind of like electives, at the Groundlings], and it was just too much. My brain overheated and I kind of imploded, and… it all petered out.

And even my final was basically like ‘I’m sorry. But you saw how the last few weeks went. It was an upward trajectory until it wasn’t, and just, with the way it went, I’m sorry to say I can’t pass you right now.”

So, it feels possible, it just didn’t happen this time.

I’m off to NYC for the BMI school year, but next year, I’m coming back, and let’s hope for the best!

Passing Intermediate At The Groundlings! – Part 3 (Who Were My Characters? (#4 & 5)) (Summer 2018)

September 6, 2020

Picking up from yesterday!

(And the 5 characters I chose)

  • 4. “My Best Days Are Behind Me (And I’m Grumpy About It)”

Point of View: “Life was so much better in the good ol’ days”

Her physical things were a gravely, lower voice, a concave posture that led down to a stomach pushed out as far as I could get it, never standing straight, and walking slowly and heavily.

I came in smoking and then being like “ugh, oh right, can’t smoke indoors nowadays.” She basically lived in disappointment of the now.

What she bought: A baseball mitt for her grandson, who she loved. [Because, you know, even if you’re gonna hate things, you can’t hate everybody. How are you ever gonna act with a scene partner, then? Easier to hate outside forces/things rather than people you interact with (oftentimes, not always). Anyway!]

So, she got a baseball mitt, but you know was all gruff about how things were better when we pushed kids harder, and “everybody’s a winner” type games are boring, and that kind of thing. And the mitts used to be higher quality, and things used to be more affordable, all of that kind of stuff.

Her theme song was “Jack and Diane” (John Mellencamp).

The notes on her were that he was so happy I finally showed him something really different. I almost always play some version of flirtatious/falling in love, deliriously happy, or super people-pleasing perfectionist (see 3, 5, and 1 haha).  But, finally I played a grump who wasn’t necessarily one note, or grumpy about everything [yay, her grandson!], but who had a very clear point of view on the world way different from mine and what I usually play, and who’s physically and voice were as far away from myself as I could get.

  • 5. “Life Is A Musical!”

Point of View: Every day (and so much of what’s in them) is a beautiful miracle!

Her physical things were a sort of sing-song-y voice, and almost overly-dramatic dancer-y type way of moving. She was always just on the cusp of breaking into song.

And then. Oh goodness, I BURST in the door (you know, being all excited about life and stuff), and fell right on my butt. And at first, the class seemed a little on edge, wondering if I was okay. I immediately shook it off, and made some comment about being clumsy.

And then I just added clumsiness as part of it, and tried to play it off as best I could.

And the best part is, it worked!

My classmates weren’t sure. Even my teacher asked during my evaluation if that was a deliberate choice or not. So, yay for seemingly pulling it off.

What she bought: A thermal jacket. I mean, isn’t it just amazing how warm it can keep you? It can open up the entire world! I can go anywhere! And it’s pink! By golly! Oh, I think I’ll buy one of these light-up clip-ons for the zipper! Yay!

Her theme song “Singin’ In The Rain” (from the musical of the same name).

The notes on her were basically, way to roll with the clumsiness and do some reeeeal ‘improv’, in this sort of “pre-planned” exercise [even though it obviously wasn’t all pre-planned, as we didn’t know the store].

So, there you have it!

I passed! It’s glorious!

Advanced improv, here I come!

Passing Intermediate At The Groundlings! – Part 2 (Who Were My Characters? (#1 – 3)) (Summer 2018)

September 5, 2020

Picking up from yesterday

Who were my 5 characters?

  • 1. “Super nervous/insecure girl” [I gave them all real names but these are the shorthands to get across their main deals of who they are.]

Her point of view on life: “I need to be perfect all the time in order to please every person I ever come into contact with.”

So, basically, she was just trying so hard to get everything “right.”
(An example of this is when the clerk asked how I wanted to pay, I was like, “whatever you want – I have cash, credit, debit. I can get my phone out and pay with bitcoin if that’s what you want!” Etc etc. a super pleaser, but like reeeeally pretty nervous about it.)

Her physical things were a more nasally voice, a resting face of scrunched up nose, kind of showing her teeth in this weird grimace/smile, kind of scrunched up shoulders, and a fast rambly speech pattern where she’d either give a million options, or try to convince herself what she was doing was okay and right.

[This character is my breeeeeeead and butter. She’s pretty much a super heightened version of a totally kinda veeeeery way-too-real part of me. I opened with her, so I’d feel comfortable, and open strong. I didn’t get any notes on her, because, well. She’s my bread and butter!]

What she bought: new shoes, because she wanted to start marathon training with her boyfriend [wanting to please someone in her life], and of course she was very worried about getting the “right” pair.

Her theme song was “I Really Like You” (Carly Rae Jepsen). [That song doesn’t have an anxious feeling, but it just felt right to me, like a little cutesy vibe or just totally being enchanted with the people around her (which made me think in my mind that then she wanted to please everyone she was so enchanted by).]

  • 2. “Female Frat Girl”

Her POV was basically “life’s a hella fun paaaaarty, bro,” in sort of a masculine way.

Physical/vocal changes: I tried to make my shoulders as broad as I could get them, talk from sort of a low place, but not too low. I had little buttons of sounds (sort of like a really-into-it fan might yell at a football game “woof woof woof!”). While leaving, I offered to chest bump the cashier, and pounded my chest a few times. I sprinkled words I thought were appropriate into her vocabulary like “hella, dope, gnarly.”

(When, I paid, I think I said something like, “I’ve got exact change, bro! What a dope ass coincidence! [bangs chest].”) And I tried to keep heightening. At one point, I think when I found out the camping equipment was on sale, I ripped my [fake spacework] shirt open with excitement*

Notes I got on this one are that he generally thought she was clear, but would like a little more specifics in the dialogues (e.g. instead of saying “I’m getting a tent, so my crew can go camping,” use that as a way to talk about my life, and who am I? Is my crew girls I maybe know from rugby, or lacrosse, or roller derby (or am I in a co-ed frat)? Etc.

What she bought: camping equipment.

Her theme song was “Here I Go Again” (Whitesnake)

  • 3. “Sex vixen”

Her POV: “[Everything is sexual, and] all I am in this world is whether people think of me as sexy or not.”

Physical stuff: Aaaaaalways pushing out any curves. Butt out, boobs out, slinking around the stage. Pushing cleavage together and leaning forward, hips stay popped out when standing. And a little babydoll voice.

I was worried that this one was maybe gonna be too stereotypical, but I thought if I made it that her point of view was that her confidence was completely wrapped up in her sex appeal, then it would give me a range of emotions I could play, ’cause if my improv partner’s character isn’t taken in by my character, then I can get sad, or offended, or try harder – it’s not just like everything is sexual, it’s that my character’s whole being depends on everything being successfully sexual.

[Edited to add: I’ve done this character now in some exercises in post-intermediate classes, and it’s shockingly worked! So, yay!]

Notes I got for this one: None. He just said “nice/good.”

What she bought: bungee chords (obviously, right? haha).

Her theme song was “Big Spender” (from Sweet Charity)

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Passing Intermediate At The Groundlings! – Part 1 (What’s The Final Like?) (Summer 2018)

September 4, 2020

Now that I’m finally blogging again, while we’re continuing to catch up on parts of my life, why not do The Groundlings?!

Let me catch you up on an awesome class from July of 2018! I passed intermediate at The Groundlings! [Actually, by now, I’ve passed advanced. And I’m sure we’ll get to that soon. Yay!]

So, I PASSED intermediate! Finally, right?! 🙂

After so many years of on-again/off-again with that school, I’m back in LA for the summer and passed. Now, most people who read my Groundlings posts on this blog just wanna know:
1) How did you pass that level? [Which will be answered in the rest of this post and the next one]
2) Did you like it/would you recommend it to someone else? (Short answer: yes)

[Disclaimer: I’ve never worked or taught at The Groundlings, so in case it isn’t clear, this is from a student’s perspective. Take anything that’s helpful, throw out the rest, and ultimately, do whatever’s best for you!]

So, the elusive passing!

Intermediate revolves a lot around the final, which is called “5-Through-The-Door.”

What is 5-Through-The-Door?

For those of you who don’t know, what happens is, when it’s your turn, you are assigned a store (e.g. Pier One, Sharper Image, The Hallmark Store, REI, and so on.)

You get a partner onstage who plays the clerk. The 5-Through-The-Door scenes are not like normal improv scenes, in that they are basically just character showcases. The person who plays the clerk is not supposed to do all that much. They’re just there to point you to what you’re looking for in the store, and ring you up.

[You have to ask for a *different* thing as each character, but we’ll get to that. Also, I think different teachers may have slightly different rules, but at least with ours, the clerk was not allowed to suggest anything, so even if you didn’t know the store, you had to guess to the best of your ability. And if the clerk accidentally said “what about these [shoes or other good]?”, then boom, you weren’t allowed to buy shoes.]

So, you come through the door, entering the store. You ask the clerk if they have any [whatever you’re looking for]. You give a little explanation of why you need it. Then you take it to the counter and pay.

You’re supposed to think about how your character would do all of those things. How do they open the door? How do they pay? What do they pay with? Do they carry cash, or cards, or what? How do they interact with other people, and with the stuff they’re buying?

After you leave the store, you come back in again as a new character. And, as you can guess from the name, you do this 5 times. [Again, some teachers are different in exactly how they do it. Some give you like 30 – 45 seconds (maybe even a minute) to consult notes and stuff before you come back in. Some want it basically immediately. I tried to come back in pretty quickly with each of mine, because I wanted to keep the momentum going. (My store was Dick’s Sporting Goods, by the way.)

How to differentiate your characters?

The main things the Groundlings stresses in each of your characters is that they have a distinct. point of view. on the world.

That’s the main thing. All your information should back up whatever that is (e.g. “I want to always get everything right.” “Life is a party.” etc.)

In addition to that, you should (to the best of your ability) have different voices, gaits/posture, and resting facial expressions for each one.

One way that I helped keep them straight in my mind was that I gave them each kind of a “theme song,” that to me either helped get a feel for who they were, or sometimes what their favorite jam was. And that was my shorthand for remembering who they were. Like, when I went back behind the door each time, I’d just think like “okay, Carly Rae Jepsen’s I Really Like You. Got it.” And I’d hear like a bar of that song in my head as I was walking out, and I’d know exactly who this character is (because I’d studied and practiced, not because songs could only apply to one character in the whole world haha).

Who were my 5 characters? I’ll get to that tomorrow!

If I Were To Visit La Paz/Cabo Again –

July 29, 2020

I was there for a long time. I feel I’ve fully seen that area. (After all, I “graduated” from there, as far as the man on the marina said.)

So, I think I can check it off and not necessarily ever go back. But IF I were somehow to find myself there again –

The things I didn’t ultimately do for whatever one reason or another, I’d like to try kite surfing, and to do the day with Cabo Adventures where you get to be a dolphin trainer for a day [although you can do that in other places too].

And as far as things I already did that I’d do again, I LOVED diving in Cabo Pulmo. I’d want to go out with the sharks and try to be on the very first boat of the day. And I would definitely take a GoPro down so the memories could not only live in my head, but on film.

If Chrissy was still down there, I’d dive with her again, because I loved her vibe.

I’d eat at Capuchino Cafe (incredible vegan food).

And that pretty much covers it!

Mexico’s a huge country, and I haven’t even seen the whole Baja Peninsula. So, I’d like to try to do more!

“You’ve Graduated From Cabo” (Spring 2019)

July 27, 2020

Welp, I did it.

I finished everything in Cabo!

On my last night in town, I walked around the marina, just to take it all in one last time.

And one of the people who was trying to sell things was calling me over to his booth. And I was like “thanks, but I’ve already done that.”

Then he was all, “I have other things! What about this or that”

And I was like, “Done it. Done it. I’ve done it all.”

And he was like “come over and talk to me. Let’s see if you’ve really done it all.”

Sure enough, every time he mentioned something, I had a pic of me being there/doing it.

And after we cycled through a bunch of things, he was like, “you did it. You’ve done everything. You can leave now. You’ve graduated Cabo. Congratulations.”

Not that I needed a stranger’s permission to leave, but I was very happy to have it!

I completed Cabo, y’all. I did it!

‘Secret’ Gazebo (Spring 2019)

July 25, 2020

The whole time I was in La Paz, there was an area of the boardwalk under construction. And i just kept waiting and waiting for it to be done, because I wanted to hang out on this cool gazebo.

And I was in La Paz forEVER. I was working down there! I was there for months! And the construction never ended.

So, on my last full day there, I thought about sneaking in. And then I just asked a construction worker if I could. And he let me have a mini-photoshoot.

So, I got to hang out on the secret gazebo after all!

Just Hanging Out On the Cabo Marina

July 24, 2020

So, this is like the main hangout joint of Cabo (I think; in my opinion).

Lots of restaurants. (I loved Sancho’s, where everything was delicious. And I have merch from there.)

There are always people to talk to. Cabo Adventures is right there. It’s a very chill area, and whenever I had time and didn’t know where else to go, I’d just hang at the marina, assuming something would be happening.

The silliest interaction I had at the marina was when somebody dropped a lizard on my shoulder. I was just hanging out and someone behind me popped a lizard on my shoulder.

All of a sudden, we were friends!

Just Obsessed With My Hair in Cabo

July 23, 2020

Going through the pictures to try to remember the various things I did, and I took so many selfies haha.

Because I loved my hair. It was always slightly messy, but in the cutest way. I feel like always being in the saltwater did something good?

I just liked it. I liked the vibe.

And I like the color. I feel like I’m always fighting with my hair color, because it’s always lighter than I want. And it often seems to lighten up if I’m in the sun too much.

But something about Mexico – it worked.

Maybe I should start bringing these pictures in to hairstylists.

La Paz Mexico – The Whole Job Thing (Spring/Summer 2019)

July 22, 2020

Some people have asked about the actual work part.

I loved that the trip was paid for. Even though a lot of my adventures took place in La Paz or Cabo, we basically shot in La Ventana, which is just a tiny little city where cows are just out there roaming around, which was so fun.

I saw more lizards than I’ve ever seen. They hang out in your room too.

We were told a million times not to drink the water. We even got like a GIANT jug of water a week, and if we went through it, we could get more.

Originally, I was in a sort of unmarked hotel with paper thin walls. And then, one day hanging out at lunch, I found out there were extra rooms at the Hilton, baby!!!!

Some people didn’t want to stay at the Hilton because it was all the way in La Paz, so you had to commute like over an hour each way instead of 20 minutes each way. BUT then you were in a CITY! A fairly major city!

You could scuba dive before work. You could walk to Dairy Queen.

They gave commutes for free to everybody. So, it’s not like it affected you monetarily. You still got the same van. So, PUT ME IN THE CITY, BABY!

It was a very ‘Americanized’ trip. Like, just because I ‘worked in Mexico,’ I worked for an American company based in California. So, nothing was affected tax-wise. And while I was there for a while, I did overall still feel like a tourist (because, overall, I was).

Everything was taken care of for me – where I was staying, transportation, etc. All I really had to do was figure out how to have fun.

That was another thing that was nice was there were ALWAYS people around. You could hang out in the sort of make shit ‘commissary’ to meet crew members. You could hang in the bar of the Hilton and almost always find someone. There were just always people around from the show.

It was super easy to have travel buddies – which also made it very Americanized, because I maaaaainly hung out with American people. BUT Cabo is often known as “Cabofornia” anyway, so it’s a pretty American place.

So, I don’t know how much I really acclimated to a new culture, since we had a bubble of sort of our own, in a place that was fairly Americanized to being with. But it was a great time. I feel really lucky I had the job. I’d love to travel for work again sometime!

A-maze-in Cabo Race

July 21, 2020

This was a really fun time, and I would HIGHLY recommend this as a way to get a quick overview of the city.

You so many silly, fun clues and assignments – cooking in a restaurant, playing silly games on the beach.

We even went to a beach I hadn’t been to yet, which was crazy. ‘Cause I thought I had been everywhere.

It takes you to the inward places of Cabo (museums and such)! It’s rad, because so much is on the water. I love the water, but this was a nice way to see the *city*.

I made a new friend, and had a good time. And I was a little stoked my show was cancelled early, as my day off had never coincided with when this race was offered! But when I had no more work, I got to just vacation it up!

Flora Farms (Summer 2019)

July 20, 2020

Toward the end of my time there, I stopped by Flora Farms. I think this might’ve been the best ice cream I ever tasted. If you’ve got the time, it’s worth the drive! Mmmm, mmm, mmm!

Wild Canyon, Cabo Mexico (Summer 2019)

July 18, 2020

I guess a trip to Cabo isn’t complete without going to Wild Canyon!

So, we took a stop by the animal sanctuary. We got to see Crocodiles up pretty close, and hold some birds. (I looked scared in the video, even though I tried to keep it together. So much for Mexico being the land of no fear, as I feel like I’ve said multiple things were at least a little scary. haha)

Everyone was really nice there. Everything was really nice. Beautiful day, beautiful animals, beautiful Mexico!

A Mall/Casino/Etc. Close To La Paz (Summer 2019)

July 17, 2020

Speaking of silly things we liked in Mexico, at some point, they started doing daily shuttles for the crew to this big mall type place.

So, I went once. We all had Starbucks. We went to some Casino there. I don’t remember exactly how much money I won, but it was at least a few hundred dollars. I was excited to go scuba diving for ‘free’.

And I went to see Aladdin in the movie theater, because I just wanted to see a movie in Spanish, and I figured a movie I knew pretty well, I would be able to at least somewhat follow along with! How fun!

Our Favorite Dairy Queen (Spring 2019)

July 16, 2020

This is silly!

But I just thought I’d mention, as much as we loved all the local stuff, somehow we all fell in love with the local Dairy Queen. I guess it’s always nice to have a little piece of him!

Coming back from whale sharks? We should stop at the Dairy Queen. Coming back from the mall? Have you considered stopping at the Dairy Queen?

We just loved our little Dairy Queen, as we loved everything else in Mexico!

Cooking Class in Todos Santos Mexico (Spring 2019)

July 15, 2020

Okay, so speaking of being in Todos Santos, I also took a little cooking class with Chef Iker Algorri.

He is brilliant, and funny, and kind, and lovely!

I’m not usually a huge guacamole fan, but his was such perfection I could eat it all day! We made the best guacamole anyone ever has!

We also all went outside to watch the sunset together while the main meal was cooking.

Great food. Great company. Great night!

Todos Santos, Mexico (Spring 2019)

July 14, 2020

So, speaking of fun little cities we went to see Todos Santos.

We got this little tour where they showed us the famous Hotel California… And sadly, over a year later, I don’t remember the rest of the little tour.

I do remember it was a cute and colorful city. But the company I used was Todos Santos Eco Adventures. So, wherever they take you on the historical tour, that’s where I went!

El Triunfo (Spring 2019)

July 13, 2020

After the show got cancelled (and they offered to let us stay in Mexico through the original time we were supposed to), I started trying to see some smaller cities in the area as well.

So, one of the cool drivers from the show took me to El Triunfo! It’s an old mining town, and we got to walk through the old mine. And we got to see the Museo de la Musica – the little music museum.

And I wouldn’t have immediately thought “ooooh pizza is the thing in Mexico,” but he knew of a great place – Caffe El Triunfo that had incredibly delicious pizza.

It was a lovely day exploring this lil’ ol’ town!

Boating Around Cabo (Arch & Everything) (Spring 2019)

July 12, 2020

While in Cabo, I took a little boat tour around the famous things.

We stopped at Lover’s Beach, and took some pics. And then, if you walk across the way to the other side, you to Divorce Beach.

They call it divorce beach, because the waves are very rough there (so you have to be more careful on that beach).

We also went by the famous arch, and took some pics there as well.

On the way back, we saw a boat that had a sea lion hanging off the side of it. And we were close enough I was told I could pet it, which seemed really cool in theory, but when I put my hand out, it opened its mouth (eep), and then before you knew it, it was gone (’cause it’s hard for boat’s to stay close to each other for so long).

This was obviously one of the more super touristy things, but it was fun to see the super touristy things!

Children’s Show in Mexico (Spring 2019)

July 11, 2020

One random thing I did was go see a theater piece at Professor Jesus Castro Agúndez Cultural Center, because, why not?

I wanted to see some theater while there (to check out what it was like somewhere else). That’s what was playing. So, let’s go! It was cute and because it was a children’s show, I think I could sort of follow the plot just by watching the emotions and everything.

The kids in the audience were really reactive, and I loved how excitable they were about everything.

It was a cute time, and I’m happy I happened upon it!

Some La Paz Loose Ends (Spring 2019)

July 10, 2020

I tried to see as much of the city as I could. And I think I ultimately checked off everything from the tourist book.

I went to the Plaza de la Constitucion – just the cute little main plaza area. Saw the Museo Regional de Antropologia E Hostoria, and ran around the museum by myself as I was the only person there that day. It was cool just being immersed in a different country, and seeing signs in Spanish and everything [even if I wished I could read the things I couldn’t! haha]/

Went to El Serpentario de la Paz and saw some of the reptiles and everything. I walked the entire Malecon Alvara Obregon, which is basically like a long boardwalk, that was pretty. I sat on parts of the beach and read.

I went to the different beaches – Playa Pichilingue, Playa Balandra, Playa El Tecolote. I met some cool people in one of the bars there, as you’ve already heard with Gary’s life advice.

And yeah, I just tried to do everything I could while I was there!

Capucino Cafe, La Paz (Spring 2019)

July 9, 2020

My. Favorite. Vegan. Restaurant. in Mexico.

This was incredible. I kept trying new things on the menu every time I went there (and I went there all the time before work).

Every single thing was good. And the people were so nice.

Obsessed. I just had to tell you all about this incredible place, because if you ever go to La Paz, you GOTTA go there. I wish they would franchise this place to California.

Hiking In Santiago Mexico (On The Baja Peninsula) (Spring 2019)

July 8, 2020

I found this guy who loves to lead hikes. So, Edgardo took me around.

We went down to Santiago.

We hiked around Agua Caliente Canyon, and Zorra Canyon. We swam in some water and saw some beautiful waterfalls!

We made friends with some tourists.

And between hikes, he went to pick up his little daughter from school and she came with us! It was cute to see this little girl enjoying hiking and swimming too!

A fun and active day!

Kayaking Again in Mexico (Spring 2019)

July 7, 2020

So, just another day kayaking to explore more beaches!

We used “Baja Outdoor Activities” again, because we loooove them!

And Mario, our half day guide took us around. We stopped for snorkeling, and lunch. And we saw a big party boat and danced to some of the music they were playing!

Just another day in gorgeous Mexico!

“Moe Bar” (Spring 2019)

July 6, 2020

Okay, I’m trying to put a photo with this post, and for some reason it’s not working. But I will try to upload one when I can!

Anyway, There was a Simpsons themed bar down there! Isn’t it wild?!

And I just wanted to show it to you!

[Even if, apparently, I can’t right now hahaha]

Cabo Adventures – Camel Riding (Spring 2019)

July 5, 2020

I don’t 100% remember the order I did everything in Mexico, so I’m just grouping it all in ways that seem to make sense to me. So, I might as well run through the Cabo Adventures right now.

Basically, they were having a sale if you put 3 things together, so I added this random camel riding, because it was the 3rd thing that they were offering during this season that lined up with a time I was free. So, why not?

[Although, looking back on it, it does seem a little silly, because camels aren’t even native to Mexico, so it feels extraordinarily touristy.]

You also get to ride in ATVs, which was cool and fun. And there was a tequila tasting.

So, it was a little on the extra-touristy side, and not really super up my alley, but it’s good to try new things, I suppose!

Nothing really more to say about this one, so let’s move to the next thing!

Zip-Lining Around Cabo San Lucas (Spring 2019)

July 4, 2020

Aurora on a zipline upside down squareSiempre Lista!

So, as I mentioned yesterday, I went down to Cabo with absolutely no plan. I thought I was just headed to Todos Santos for like a little lunch and walking around. I was wearing the same thing I wore most days for my time in Mexico – a bathing suit that doubles as a skirt.

So, that was all I had with me. (Though I did buy a little crocheted bikini top while I was out and about.)

I did not have tennis shoes. I did not come prepared to hike around and zipline and do all of that. But did I care? No, I did not.

Ziplining with Cabo Adventures was on my list of things to do that would probably be fun. So, since my day happened to open up, I headed out in my unprepared way.

We had multiple ziplines throughout the day that we went about in different ways.

Buckle in for a story where I brag a little ’cause I was so proud of myself *blushing face*.

So, the guides were telling us how to go upside down! They’re like “just lean back, kick up your feet, and twirl them around your wire.” Every person who went before me leaned back so hesitantly like they were gonna fall. The guides were ready to very slowly walk me through it when I got up there, but I just whipped my head back, and threw my feet up in the air.

So, then, every time from then on out that we had to do something new (like jumping off a ledge and just swinging around scarily holding onto our rope), they’d be like, “Aurora, you ready to show them how it’s done?”

And then I said, “How do I say, ‘I’m always ready’?” Siempre lista! – My new catch phrase.

I rappelled and did a slight bit of rock climbing in flip-flips or barefoot, hiked around, ziplined around, and had the time of my life all day.

I’d highly recommend zip-lining with Cabo Adventures, and can’t wait to see what’s next!

Siempre Lista! 😉

Unexpected Sunset Cruise In Cabo (Spring 2019)

July 3, 2020

Aurora lying on a boat on her sunset cruise in MexicoSo, a wee change of my original plans.

I’ve been trying to make sure I utilize every single day off down here. Obviously, it’s not every day you get a sweet, long gig where you’re paid to go out of the country for a while.

So, I’d set up my final scuba certification dive for this day!

…Aaaaaand then dum dum duuuuuuum [*scary chords*] I got an ear infection (oh no!).

I had felt a little off after my last scuba diving adventure, but I was hoping it was just a small thing like my ear hadn’t quite fully “popped” yet or whatever.

Because I worked nights, having a “day” off sooooort of kind of meant having two days off (or, at least, I tried to make it mean that). Like, if I had Wednesday night off, I tried to stay up Wednesday morning after I’d get off Tuesday night work and do something Wednesday, then sleep when I’d normally be in Wednesday and then do something Thursday before work as well. (Ya gotta fit it all in!)

So, on my Wednesday, I thought I’d head to Todos Santos for a bit, just to hang. The bus happened to drop me off close to a doctor. So, I was like, “you know what? Just to be absolutely safe, let me just pop in and cheeeeeck, because ears are important and I’m brand new to scuba-ing.

Aurora side view on her sunset cruiseSo, I stop off at the doctor. Maaaaaajor shout out to Mexico’s healthcare system. It costs nearly nothing to see a doctor, and it took practically no time either.

Anyway, wouldn’t you know it. I had an ear infection after all. Goodness gracious.

The doctor gave me a shot and some ear drops and said I couldn’t scuba for at least a week.

At that point, I was already down toward Cabo. I very sadly cancelled my scuba diving up in La Paz, and just thought, “if I’m already south, might as well go more south, since I’m not scuba-ing tomorrow!”

So, I jumped on a boat and made it to Cabo in time for a sunset cruise with Cabo Adventures (because I was getting a deal since I also bought the ziplining package for the next day – which, I’ll talk about tomorrow!)

Diving with Bull Sharks (in Cabo Pulmo)! (Spring 2019)

July 2, 2020

This. Was. Awesome.

I’d read that when down in La Paz/Cabo, you have to go diving in Cabo Pulmo with bull sharks.

So, off I went!

I came woefully underprepared to take any pics or videos underwater, but thankfully one guy in out group had a GoPro, and we were all offering to pay him a little extra or whatever if he’d share the pics/video with us later.

We were the first group out on the water, and there were sharks everywhere. It was totally breathtaking.

…And then the guy lost his GoPro! (Oh no!) I felt so bad for him.

All that beautiful shark footage gone.

I thought the sharks were so awesome and so breathtaking that by the time we got back to land, I asked if I could go back out again to dive with the sharks one more time.

So, I did, and I found someone with a Go Pro who came along, which was cool.

We were warned that as the day wears on, the sharks kind of disperse. So, we didn’t see nearly that many, but I loved swimming around with the ones we did see.

This is an ABSOLUTE must-do in Cabo – and I would totally recommend being on the first boat out, because hopefully you get to see a ton.

The sharks were used to tourists in the area, so they didn’t seems scary or aggressive at all. It was merely breathtaking!

Becoming Advanced Scuba Certified! (Spring 2019)

July 1, 2020

I ended up spending so much time in Mexico, and enjoying scuba diving so much, that Chrissy and I decided to just keep on going, and go for advanced!

In order to get advanced certified, you have to do 4 dives in different specialities.

[You can also certify in specific specialities. Just doing one dive in each doesn’t give you those certifications, but you can at least begin to get the gist on specific subjects when you get your advanced certification.]

The specialties we ended up doing were:

  • Navigation
  • Deep Dive
  • Buoyancy
  • Underwater Videographer

The reason we chose navigation and buoyancy is because I’m not great at those! haha

The reason we chose deep dive was because there was a dive in Cabo many people said you must do [though the visibility wasn’t amazing, but it was fine], and video because… I like taking videos.

On the video one, we went out to a little place where lots of sea lions were hanging out.

I’m so brave until I get really close to them. The video is a little hilarious where it’s like “this looks cool, no nope! I got close enough!”

Sea lions are big!

So, yeah, we had a great time. I got another certification, and I miss diving with her!

And I’ll talk about another dive tomorrow!

“You’re Not Gone, You’re Here” – Gary’s Interesting Life Advice

June 30, 2020

Aurora in the sun on the beachOkay, so as we get back to talking about Mexico, even though it’s a little out of order of how stuff happened there, I thought I’d post this post I actually drafted soon after I got him!

Soooooooo, the show I was working on got cancelled early.

And the way, it worked was I was given this option – “the hotel’s already paid for. You can stay ’til you were supposed to leave, or you can just go now since you’re done.”

Obviously I stayed. Who goes back from Mexico early? The whole reason I took the job was because it was free Mexico time from April – June!

(It wasn’t lucrative career-wise for me or anything. But goodness gracious was it some great (free) time in another country. This is pretty much the best outcome – I still get the free trip, and I don’t even have to work! What could be better?)

So, anyway, I stayed, but everyone else I knew on the crew left. [Basically, everyone was just getting homesick, and wanted to go back.]

In all my free time, just hanging out, I’ve been crossing things off in my book of things to do in the Baja Peninsula. And one of the many things is just heading over to Tecolote Beach to see what’s up.

While there, I found this bar full of locals and met Gary – this random nice older (ish) dude who happened to know a bunch of other people from my crew (who’d stopped by in the many weeks we’ve been here).

So, Gary’s like “where’s everybody else?”

And I go “I guess they were tired of being gone.”

And he says “you’re not gone; you’re here.”

Dang. Didn’t realize some random conversation at a bar I went to on a whim was gonna whip out some incredible life advice applicable to a bunch of stuff. And yet, here we are.

I found that to be such an interesting philosophical statement. “You’re not gone; you’re here.”

[You’re not living in a moment that’s passed by – in a place where you might be sentimental. You’re not in a place you used to be, or that you hope to be soon. You’re adding to the place you currently are. So, stick your feet in and enjoy it and add to it.]

I dunno… It just stuck with me, and I think it’ll stick with me for a while. I like it a lot, so I wanted to share it with you too!

You’re not gone. You’re here!

Taking a Harp Lesson! (June 25, 2020’s Something New) – Part 3

June 27, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

The most fascinating part were the pedals.

Unlike on the level harps, pedal harps could do naturals, sharps, or flats on every note, because the pedals have 3 positions. You don’t just press down or not, you lock the pedals in place at the highest, or middle, or low position.

(You can change it mid-song as much as you want, but your feet can move while the pedal stays on the note you changed it to.)

The order of the pedals – (I’m gonna write them out to show you where you’re sitting in the middle) are:

D C B.     E F G A
*YOU

The reason for the ordering, as you may guess from looking at it is that B and E are the most used flats, so they’re directly to your left and right (with B being most common and E being second most).

And then F and C same deal, only reversed.

So, I guess it’s to keep your mind as sort of the common flat keys are closest to me. Common sharp keys are one away. And then keep your feet in a way that most common of one is to the left, most common of the other is to the right.

And then we got into the theory of it all, and how if your harps was set up one way, instead of trying to move the pedals around, you’d use enharmonics, as much as you could.

[*This is where I want to add an example later. I hope I remember to do this. If you come across this and I haven’t, please remind me xoxoxo]

It was a fun day. I loved learning about the harp! Love music in general! Another birthday in the books!

Taking a Harp Lesson! (June 25, 2020’s Something New) – Part 2

June 26, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

So, people figure that out in the original tuning (which always can be changed, if really need be).

Then, when you want to play in a certain key, you switch all your levers to the correct positioning before it’s time to play. (You technically can switch them during song if you really need to (for accidentals, etc.) But… that’s hard depending on the piece/the speed/etc.

As far as how you know which string is which note [for changing your levels, or plucking, what have you], Cs are red, Fs are blue or black, everything else is white.

And then it’s all laid out exactly like it is on a keyboard… which is alphabetical order.

You set up to play by lining it up with your right shoulder. Basically, in many ways, you’re trying to sort of get it to mimic the piano. If it’s on your right shoulder, your left arm is going out longer. So, your left arm is playing the low notes (just as it would on piano). [And it then stands to reason your right arm is usually doing the higher notes.]

There are different methods to how people physically play as far as whether your body is more closed off, or you have elbows out, fingers diagonal/down, and wrists in a concave shape. [That’s the Salzedo method, which is the one Stephanie likes.]

You don’t use your pinky finger because basically it’s just too short for all you need your hands to be doing.

So, when you number your fingers, the thumb is one. And they only go up to 4.

Tomorrow, I want to end on talking all about the pedals! So, one last little highlight I’ll give today is after the lesson, as I was waiting for the uber, she asked who my favorite artist was, and she easily broke out some Michael Jackson on the harp like it was nothing!

It was very cool.

And this is where I’ll finish out tomorrow!

Taking a Harp Lesson! (June 25, 2020’s Something New) – Part 1

June 25, 2020

Yeah, yeah, yeah, we all know there’s a pandemic all around us!

[Sorry, I just hate talking about the pandemic, but it’s relevant context. Since, it’s the main reason I chose the thing I chose!]

So, basically I was looking for something possible to do, since so much is closed/not safe right now. I tried to think of some things I could do virtually [e.g. play chess over zoom with someone, rent a cello or something and take a lesson over zoom].

And as I thought about trying my hand at one of the few instruments I’ve never played [in any context], I ended up doing a socially distanced harp lesson, wearing masks, in a teacher’s giant living room.

Stephanie was super cool, great at harp, and brilliant.

Here are some of the things I learned about the harp. (This is gonna get real music nerd-y, so if that doesn’t interest you at all, please do come back after we finish talking about the harp! :-))

First – there are 2* sizes of harps. There’s a ‘smaller’ harp. (It’s still pretty big, but not the size you normally think of.) It’s generally a lever harp. But, it could be a folk harp, celtic harp, floor harp, and more.

And then there’s the big pedal harp we all know from weddings and fancy things.

*Technically, there’s actually an even smaller harp called the ‘lap harp,’ that literally goes on your lap. But it’s very rare.

A lever harp has actual levers at the top that you can switch on or off. Those levers change the note to being either sharp, natural, or flat.

On lever harps, they only have 2 positions – meaning you can have the natural version of a note and then sharp or flat. Obviously on notes that would be enharmonic with another natural note in some configuration (C, for instance, if you were to do Cb), you would tune your harp so that C# is the note available to you.

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Becoming Scuba Certified! (Spring 2019) – Part 2 (Getting Certified With Chrissy!)

June 24, 2020

So, in Mexico, I went out diving around La Paz with my instructor Chrissy!

She was really cool, and calm and interesting. One day on her vacation, she just straight up stayed in Mexico. She’s like “I don’t wanna go home.” Boom. Now, she lives there.

My favorite part is that, since transitioning from boat to water was a little hard for me, we would do this thing where we would exclaim “no estoy asustada!” [“I am not afraid!”] before we would jump in – because I was not gonna be afraid of going backwards off the boat!

My least favorite part of certifying is when you have to take your goggles off and let them fill with water, and then try to get the water out while you’re still underwater.

For some reason, water being trapped between your eyes and goggles makes me feel like I’m gonna drown.

That doesn’t make any sense. Your eyes don’t control anything about your breathing. And yet! It feels… again, I hate saying scary, because in Mexico, we’re not afraid… But if I’m being real, it was a little scary!

Yet, I did it! I passed all 4 of my dives. We logged them. And I am now an official scuba diver! Yay!

Becoming Scuba Certified! (Spring 2019) – Part 1 (The Written Test, Swim Test, & Pool)

June 23, 2020

So, I had a couple of weeks notice before I got the job in Mexico to go get my vaccines and everything.

And I got a trusty ol’ travel guide for La Paz and the surrounding area, and basically every single thing was like “scuba dive. Go scuba diving. Have you heard of scuba diving?”

So, I was like “okay then, I better go scuba diving!”

To do that, I needed to get certified.

And in order to get certified, I needed to learn how to swim!

I looked at various websites, and got a swim instructor – Jennif (like short for Jennifer). Love her.

And she patiently worked with me to be able to pass the swim test.

So, when it came to the actual certification, I went to Eco Dive in Culver City.

I picked up a book, went through it, answered the questions. Came back on the weekend and took the written exam, then went over to the pool.

At the pool, you had to pass the swim test. (I can’t believe in such a short time, I learned enough to be able to pass, but I did!) And then you had to do exercises with the scuba gear.

And that completed the first part! Then you had to do 4 practical dives. And those are coming up – in Mexico!

Kayaking For The First Time! (Spring 2019)

June 22, 2020

Another thing we did on Espiritu Santo island was go on my first kayak ride.

It was slightly harder than expected, because I have terrible upper body strength!

But the craziest part is – you have to show you can survive your boat being tipped over before you go!

So, you purposefully fall, kind of attached to your kayak (with the little cover thing they put around you and the hole), and then UNDERWATER, you have to undo that and get out and whatever. It’s stressful. I don’t like proving I can get out of bad situations underwater, but alas, I guess you have to, or you won’t be prepared. So, I get it.

But I was successfully able to do that. And then we went kayaking around! And it was pretty grand!

Feeling Like I was a Sport Illustrated Model! (Spring 2019)

June 21, 2020

Okay, so one of the most fun parts of this camping experience for me was hiking miles to a part of the island that could not be reached by boat.

It was SO serene and GORGEOUS. The most beautiful water I’ve ever seen.

I’d been mentioning getting cute like ‘swimsuit model’ shots or whatever, for funsies. My guide (my bff Tulio) said something like “if you ever wanted to pretend you were a Sports Illustrated model, this would be the beach.”

You don’t have to tell me twice!

Photoshoot, photoshoot, photoshoot, baby!

[I’m gonna add pics to this post later, but you can see them on my instagram, if they’re not here!]

3 Days (2 Nights) at Espiritu Santo! (Spring 2019)

June 20, 2020

Okay, so this is why you have to be blogging all the time! haha Because now, all this time later, I forget so many of the details (I’m sorry!).

But I’ll try to fill you in on what I remember.

So, basically, at work, most of the time, we only had one day off a week. But I forget what happened right at the top of everything, but there was something to do with set-up or whatever, that we didn’t have to work for ~ 3 (maybe 2 1/2) days straight. So, I tried to use that time as best I could and really adventure with it.

I went out to Espiritu Santo with “Baja Outdoor Activities” Company, with the awesome guide Tulio. They were awesome. He was awesome. I loved everybody. And I loved my trip.

Some highlights were:

  • Hiking up a steep incline
  • Walking around this pretty secluded place, and seeing large cacti and sprawling land
  • Camping and getting to see the stars in all their glory from this secluded island that basically had no electricity to my knowledge
  • All the food they brought for me (so many Doritos, like they know me so well! :-))

There are a few more that I’ll put in other posts. But this was really lovely. And really lovely way to kick off my time in Mexico!

Mexico! First Off – Whale Sharks! (Spring 2019)

June 19, 2020

Aurora swimming alongside a whale sharkSo, we were around LaPaz for most of the time in Mexico. And you could swim with the whale sharks! BUT you could only do it in season, and the season was ALMOST over by the time we all got there.

So, on one of my first days of work, during a break, I was calling around boats and places that would take you out with the whale sharks. One of my co-workers overheard me and asked if he could come along, as we shared the same day off.

And heck yes he could come along!

This is how I started being known as kind of the ‘party planner’ of Mexico who always knew something to do on people’s day off, and I wore that badge with pride!

So, anyway, we found a place, and we went out with the whales!

Now, I know this is insane because of how much of my life I lived in California, but I didn’t know how to swim, until I was preparing for this trip [which will come up in another post when we get to scuba diving].

And I had never been in the ocean before!

So, it definitely felt a little overwhelming just jumping in the water like that. And at one point, a sea lion came out of nowhere. And you can hear my give a little ‘yip’ on the footage, because it scares me a bit [although later, the motto of Mexico became, “I am not afraid.” So, like… let’s pretend I wasn’t scared!]

And it’s hilarious watching the video back, because in real-time, the sea lion seemed so close, but in real life on the video, I was gonna be fine.

We had a grand time. Whale sharks are so giant and magnificent. And I’m glad we got out there before it was too late!

A Bit Of Time In Mexico! (For Work) (Spring 2019)

June 18, 2020

Okay, so now that hopefully I’m getting back in the swing of blogging, I think, it’s time to try to catch you up on everything you missed in 2018/2019.

I don’t know precisely where to start, so let me just try to get story after story out in any random order!

And why not start with Mexico?

So, back in the spring of 2019, I got a job on a[n unnamed] TV show that brought me out on location from part of April through part of June! It was a really great time. And I guess that’s really all you have to know!

More specifics coming up!

I Hope I Got All The Stuff/Question-Answers/Etc In, About “Wheel of Fortune”?

June 17, 2020

Well, this has been pretty surreal, actually writing all these posts!

There have been so many times where I thought “didn’t I already say that?” And I looked back and I hadn’t actually quite said it yet. (And I’m sure there are things that I did say more than once.)

I think I’ve talked about Wheel so much like before the process, through the process, and after to friends and in my head and whatever, that I hardly know up from down anymore when it comes to Wheel of Fortune haha.

So, I sincerely hope I gave you the play-by-play you wanted [if you cared about that], and answered any burning questions you had! [And hopefully I didn’t repeat myself too much on anything.]

If you have any questions at all, please always feel free to drop them in the comments. Thanks a million!

What It Was Like Being The ‘Last Taping’ (I Think) Of Wheel of Fortune Before Covid

June 14, 2020

I had a weirdly very specific experience at Wheel of Fortune that I thought I’d at least mention a little, since some people were curious – and that is that we taped on kind of the ‘last normal day’ in the world pre-pandemic.

I taped Wheel of Fortune on March 13, 2020 – the day many people remember as the “last normal day before the pandemic.” For many people, this was the last day they went to work.

To my knowledge, this was the last Wheel tape day before the pandemic (though they may have had one or two the following week before the mayor’s order officially came down, but I thiiiiiink we were the last ones).

And it’s a little surreal to think about now. It was fairly simple. We didn’t even have masks yet! We didn’t know anything!

Contestants did have to sign papers that we weren’t having any symptoms, and I think they also said we hadn’t been out of the country in the last two weeks.

And there was no audience except for our guests. But what was funny was that they sat everyone right next to each other, so the audience would still look full for the camera, but it didn’t help the people, as no one was social distancing or anything.

And we weren’t allowed to touch Pat or Vanna, so if you noticed any slight awkwardness at times you’d expect him to shake our hands or anything, that’s why.

I most definitely wanted to hug him when I won the trip. And I got the sense he would’ve been up for a hug, or at least a handshake. Even though he can be a little sarcastic and make fun of people a little sometimes (as you’ve all seen on the show), underneath it all, he seems pretty warm! So, I got the sense he wanted to shake our hands and stuff. But alas, no touching. Of course, now that seems so silly, because us breathing on him is worse than handshaking. But we didn’t know anything at the time!

The funniest part of it all, to me, was people talking about what they thought was to come. And some of the backstage Wheel of Fortune people were just talking about how obviously they weren’t gonna shut down. Some places might, but not Wheel of Fortune – an institution. They’d figure it out.

Little did we know!

We were all so naive back then.

But yeah, so some precautions. Some innocence. Some rumblings of what was to come. It was a little weird, but not sooooooo different from a normal day, I don’t think.

In My Dreams, Someday I Get My Redemption On Wheel of Fortune ;)

June 13, 2020

Well, we are basically done following along on my Wheel of Fortune journey. I may have a few more posts about it, but we’ve pretty much covered it all. And thank you for coming alone with me!

I know that it is beyond extraordinarily unlikely that I will ever in my life get to play Wheel of Fortune again – especially because right now, the rules dictate I can’t.

Once you go on once, you can never go on again.

Now, there are outside possibilities – like, conceivably I could maybe become a celebrity at some point, and get to play celebrity Wheel of Fortune (because I’m guessing in a special circumstance like that, they probably let you play again if you’ve played as a normal person before).

Also, when Bob Barker retired from The Price is Right, they changed the rules so that if you’d been on in Bob’s era, you could now come on with Drew. (The official rule is you have to wait 10 years since your first appearance.) And now Drew has been on for so long, you could’ve been on in Drew’s era, and still come back.

So, perhaps when Pat Sajak retires, they’ll change the rules.

Like, things are always possible… but… unlikely.

I also kind of worry the Wheel of Fortune people hate me, but I didn’t like destroy set pieces or act like a complete jerk. I just had a toddler moment when winning the game. But I don’t think I was mean to anyone per se. So, I think the insecure narrative in my head that they hate me is probably not super accurate. 😉 (Hopefully!)

I do wish they did the Jeopardy! thing, where if you win you just keep going. Can you imagine if I’d been able to keep it together, and play multiple games? [And the insanely ridiculously long blog series of breaking them all down.]

It really wasn’t toooooo bad of a game. I mean, I got the Express Wedge, and the trip, which was an absolute dream. So, if I never get my “redemption,” it could certainly be worse.

And I think the idea that lightening would strike twice – that I could have a theme week that made the puzzle so obvious that I could solve it with no letters, and that I’d happen to be in control of the board at that moment… That’s super unlikely. So, I’ll probably never get that moment back (although again you never know).

I did the best I could with what I had, and where I was in life that day. And that’s all you can ask for, I suppose. I’d love to play again, but with how fickle games of chance are, you never know if it would go better. So, I’ll just try to enjoy the time I had… And go on my sweet, sweet trip!

My General Attitude Advice For Wheel (And For Every Game Show, Really)

June 12, 2020

After talking so deeply about everything, I think my last real piece of advice is one I didn’t take but looking back on it, would try to now (I think).

I think game shows are really meant to be fun.

I’ve talked at length about wishing I’d gotten the viral moment of solving a puzzle with no letters. And while I do let that regret get at me sometimes, I would’ve looked reeeeeeeal stupid had I done that for funsies, and not won the game.

But yes, I think we should be playing to win. But we should be playing to have a good time!

And those are quite interchangeable. But you gotta take the pressure off.

You can’t view it as all the money it could be. Too much pressure on it is gonna take away the confidence, which is gonna make you worse at the game, and have less fun.

And my whole life, I’ve hated when people are like “just go out there and have fun” ’cause I’m like “winning and having fun are synonymous! How can you have fun if you don’t win?!”

But first off, I think Ben had fun, and he didn’t win. He had a good vibe though!

And secondly, there are lots of ways to “win” – there’s having a fun viral moment by showing off solving a puzzle with no letters. That could’ve been a ‘win’ in and of itself, even if I hadn’t won the game.

So just… No pressure. Just take the pressure off.

I’ve gotten this type of advice with a lot of things in my life. I went to a marathon talk once where an Olympian said the race is the reward. The training was the hard part. The race is the celebration.

Same with an improv class I did. The final performance was basically a ‘final exam’, but it was also supposed to be a reward/celebration.

So, if you’re on Wheel, you’ve studied your butt off… The game the reward/celebration. Have the best time playing!

My Wheel of Fortune Gameplay Advice/Strategies

June 11, 2020

Okay, I’m already getting slightly rusty, because I haven’t watched since my episode taped.

And I did make a few errors on my show, so take what I say with a grain of salt. But since people ask, since I’m geeeeeeenerally pretty good at Wheel of Fortune, I’ll give you the strategies I do have.

  1. Know your “definites”

    So, the things that are definitely there. If it’s “what are you doing,” ING is in that puzzle. Start with some combination of those letter. If you’re doing “song & artist,” BY is in that puzzle. Call Y & B in whatever order makes sense.

  2. Know your ‘oftens’

    “location” and “vacation” show up a lot in the 3rd puzzle. I haven’t done the actual math/data, but it seems like S in general shows up a lot less in the 3rd puzzle, so I wouldn’t be guessing S until I was reasonably certain it was in the puzzle. If it’s an 8-letter word, I’m probably hoping it’s “location” or “vacation” and the way I’ll know the difference is if I call O and it’s in the 2nd spot of the word as well.
    “Chocolate” shows up often enough in categories having to do with food, that if I saw a 9-letter word in a foot category, I’d be guessing T, and if it’s in the ‘right’ spot, building from there.

  3. Buzz in just a SPLIT second before you know the toss-up.

    The idea is that in the time it takes for the ding to go off and Pat to call your name, you’ll fill in the rest in your mind, if you’re super close.

    This CAN bite you in the butt. I buzzed in just a HAIR (one letter) too early on the 3rd toss-up*. But, I did get 4 of the 5 toss-ups, which is reasonably good, so I do stand by the strategy. (I just miscalculated one of the times.)

    [*Side note on this: The whole point of this strategy is that you trust yourself. You trust how you’ve studied. You’re buzzing it early because you believe in you.
    You should have like a feeling, like a gut feeling that you know it, or almost know it, or probably know it, and your brain will catch up in the extra second after you buzz.
    However, in the 3rd toss-up (and only the 3rd) I buzzed not because I was super close to getting it and trusting myself. I buzzed because “oh no, I don’t know it, but too many letters are being revealed. I have to buzz or someone else is going to.” I didn’t know it, and I didn’t even think I knew it. I was just getting scared. So, I wasn’t actually following the strategy. The strategy is not to ring in early all willy nilly. It’s to ring in when your gut says to because you trust yourself. And the one time I rang in because of fear and not my gut, I missed it. So, ring in when you aaaaalmost know it – when your gut tells you (and trust yourself).]

    I already sort of thought this, but I got confirmation that made me feel better, when I heard Ken Jennings talking about always buzzing in a split second before he knew it [just to make sure he beat his competitors on the buzzer] on Jeopardy! and trusting himself that he was gonna know the answer. And if you studied, and you trust yourself, way more often than not you’ll be right. (And on Wheel, you don’t lose money for a wrong answer, so I’m willing to gamble on this.)

  4. Trust yourself and follow your gut!

    Speaking of our guts, at the end of the day, trust yours. I’m not gonna say ‘don’t listen’ to the contestant coordinator people, as they’re super smart and doing their job. And also, it would be disrespectful of me to say that after all they do for us.
    However, don’t let them get in your head. You’ll get SO much info between the audition, the packet(s) you get in the mail, the full entire many hours of the tape day [and a full standby tape date, if you’re a California resident!] that it would be easy for them to potentially get in your head a little.

    Don’t have them in your head to the point that you’re starting to second guess yourself, or wonder if this is how they would play, or how they ‘want’ you to play. Don’t get caught up in if you’re doing it ‘right’ (on the subjective things, that aren’t like literally rules of game play, because those you actually do have to get right).

    The contestant people picked you because you can play. So, play the game you want to play. You’re the one going home with what you win or you don’t, and how you come across on TV, and all of that.

    Don’t play ‘for them’. I mean, sure, if you can make it a good game, do so! And I personally like people who gamble more, and keep going, and pick the mystery wedge and all of that! So, hopefully you’re like that! haha. But play the game for you.

These are the most simple, straightforward pieces of advice I have, but if you have any other questions, let me know!

My Wheel of Fortune Audition Advice

June 10, 2020

  1. Send in a video now. Right now. Right this second. Do it now.The process from me sending in the video to my show airing was almost 2 years. Some people do have the process go faster. It depends on a few factors. But it takes a while. So start NOW.

    That is really, truly, fully my biggest advice. That’s the most important bit. Don’t wait for the Wheelmobile. Don’t worry about your video. Just do. it. now. Go now. Do it now.

  2. As far as what to put in the video, I’m not really sure. I shared what I put in mine. Like most game shows, you probably just want to be excitable/enthusiastic and if you can, show a general understanding of the game.
  3. At the actual in-person audition, just do as best as you can on the test. And when you play the practice game in the audition, have the confidence like you’re on the stage. Talk loudly and clearly, and call smart letters. (And if you land on “free play” in the fake wheel spins, call a vowel to make them happy, even though in normal game play, I’m against it the vast majority of the time – in the audition phase, play how they want you to play. In the real game, do what you want.
  4. Why are you not applying right this second? Do. it. now. That’s the most important takeaway. There’s no time to lose!

When Applying For Wheel of Fortune, I Recommend Skipping the Wheelmobile, and Doing a Video Instead

June 9, 2020

I’m gonna get into the step-by-steps and questions tomorrow. But for now, let me just start by addressing the Wheelmobile, which is where I started, but not where I should’ve started.

I made a fairly terrible mistake with starting by going to a number of Wheelmobile events. Anytime they came anywhere close to a place I could get to (in fact, I even think I specifically flew somewhere once just to do that), I would go.

I would highly recommend against doing this. I think that I used to think, “oh, they must get so many videos, that seeing them in person has to be a better strategy.” But, I think differently now.

It is extraordinarily hard to get seen at a Wheelmobile event. There are tons of people. They have you fill out cards with your info, and then they pick them at random. So, you could be the first person in line and still not get seen.

At one, I sat behind a woman who was brilliant and solved every puzzle with such quickness and ease. She said she’d been going for 7 years and never gotten seen, but she would’ve been great for the show.

So, sure, if it’s in town, and/or if you sent a video and never heard back, and/or if you want to go, go.

But also, I don’t know what the true “point” of the events are, because I thought it was to audition, but I think it’s actually just to hype people for the show? Or maybe a little of both?

They spend a TON of time just being silly and getting the audience to chant things. They’re not running it in a way in which they’re trying to see everyone as fast as possible. They’re just chillin’.

So, just be prepared that you’re not going to anything that feels like an actual “audition.” It feels more like a Wheel of Fortune fan event, which isn’t necessarily bad. But it’s good to know what you’re getting into, just FYI.

I can’t believe it took me so long to send in a video. Even if you think you don’t have anything amazing to wow them with in 30 seconds, even if you think they’re so inundated they’ll never watch, whatever. Might as well try. If they don’t like you, or don’t see it, it’s no different than if you sent in nothing at all.

So, just go to their website and find the section about uploading a video. And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow.

Breaking Down the Money I “Lost” on Wheel of Fortune

June 8, 2020

I don’t know if this is necessary, since we kinda did the story of the show itself.

And, it’s a game, so things are always changing. It’s hard to say what was truly ‘lost’ or not, since then we’d also account for things I got I shouldn’t have. And then we’re just describing the game.

But, just for funsies –

What I lost in straight-up player error: ~$6,000, give or take. I rang in on one toss-up too early, before I knew it (losing $2,000), and I couldn’t get “Honey bun.” We don’t exactly how much I would’ve gotten for Honey Bun, but based on what I had and where I was on the wheel, it would’ve been in the general range of $4,000, probably.

So about $6,000 was lost to player error.

What I gained in player error: ~$17,930. I lucked out majorly on the prize puzzle. There was no reason I should’e ever been in control of that. Ben didn’t really have reason to call S. Absolutely no shame towards him, as I obviously also made two mistakes (above), but when he relinquished the board, I had the luck of a lifetime to get Express and get the trip. So, that was an extra $15,930, that shouldn’t have necessarily been mine.
And then Steve ping-ponged back to me the toss-up that shouldn’t have been mine. I’d buzzed too early and lost $2,000. Then he buzzed, and didn’t get it and I took that $2,000 back.

So, I still netted + $11,930, give or take from player error alone.

Then we had:

Unclear: In the 4th puzzle, I relinquished control of the board again, which was bad and could’ve been building up money, which you could argue was money I was losing, but that also gave the wheel a chance to get back to me, and have me almost land on the $5,000 space – with a consonant with two instances still on the board.  But I landed on bankrupt.

So, that was sort of player error for letting it leave my control, and sort of Wheel luck for spinning bankrupt. So, I would say math-wise, this is just too hard to know what the total “should” have been, and what ‘fault’ there was.

Played “correctly” but didn’t have it: I don’t fault myself when playing games for the things I did “correctly,” but just didn’t go my way. So, on the bonus puzzle, I picked the category I never got wrong at home. And I called statistically good letters – 2 of which to try to figure out what was in that first word.

You could argue there was maybe a better letter to call than H, but the letters were reasonable. I tried to keep in mind everything I knew as the puzzle played out. And I just couldn’t think of it.

I know some people got it in those 10 seconds, but not me.

The reason I don’t view this as “player error” is because I made actual definitive mistakes in the other examples – not calling the letter that most makes sense, buying a vowel when I should’ve spun, buzzing in before I know the toss-up. Those are things that are definitively wrong.

But, just doing your best at a puzzle and not knowing it is more like Knowledge error – that’s your brain not having it, as opposed to an actual mistake.

So, knowledge gap/error/whatever you want to call it: $37,000 (Oof, that hurts.)

Wheel: ~ $10,000 (give or take). This one is tough to say. Could’ve been a lot more. Could’ve been a little more. But on that first puzzle, I was gonna just keep going. I already had over $5,000, which plenty more consonants left. And I got a lose-a-turn.

(I also think we probably could count the 4th puzzle in here, because at that point, I did have money in the bank, and I was in control of the board, and I was about to guess a letter that was in the puzzle. So, the wheel did do me in there. But since I had ‘thrown off’ where the wheel could’ve been by losing control earlier, I won’t totally make the wheel take the blame for this.)

Conclusion: So, as you can see, there was SO much room for more or less money – that’s kind of how games [at least partially] of chance work. But that’s kind of the breakdown with the money. I’m ultimately happy with what I had, overall.

What It Was Like to Be a ‘Controversial Figure’ Online After “Wheel of Fortune”

June 7, 2020

Boy oh boy. Where to even start?

I had such a *minuscule* amount of “virality” in comparison to what so many people have experienced on the internet. But I had SO much more than I’ve ever experienced. So, here’s what it was like for me.

First off, the internet at large. It was crazy to see random articles popping up from big companies (like yahoo) to small blogs, just talking about how I had a “meltdown” at the bonus puzzle.

Many articles were very lighthearted and felt like they were laughing with me, whereas some of course felt like there were laughing at me.

There was one website, that I’m not even sure if I should give the name of where men rated whether I was ‘f*ckable,’ and if they’d want to. That was very surreal, as they were guessing what I’d be like in bed – based off my Wheel of Fortune appearance? That’s one of the least sexual things I can think of, but because I was loud, they assumed I’d be a “screamer,” etc.

I guess(???) it’s nice that everyone I saw indeed thought I was f*ckable, but like do I care about these random guys on the internet?

(The bad stuff felt worse in the moment. Now that I’ve had a little time away from it, it doesn’t feel so bad.)

Then there was social media. A number of people on twitter were talking about me. But what was really funny was that every time I responded just kind and like a human, every person walked back what they had to say.

Some people said they didn’t like my outfit. I chose it based on all the many guidelines. If I explained that, people would immediately walk it back.

If I kinda joked along with people, also poking fun at what a spazz I was, they’d be like ‘agh! I’m just so jealous of you! I’ve always wanted to be on a game show!’

The thing that surprised me the most was how weird people were about my pigtails! I love pigtails. Wear them all the time! I feel like they’re the best hairstyle on me. Like whooooooo cares? Everyone was so weird about the pigtails. I did not imagine they’d be controversial at all.

The cool part was seeing all the people who loved me! I’d been really embarrassed (for many reasons), and yet, there were people who said I made their night! There were people who said I was their favorite contestant I’d seen in years!

They said they liked the energy I breathed into the show.

So, I loved that people loved me! And I loved them!

Thankfully, I wasn’t so hated [or so loved] that anything got way out of hand. No one doxxed me, or showed up at my home or anything. I had a very tame mini-viral moment.

[And I do always say, I think I’d rather be loved and hated than nothing at all!]

It was definitely a weird couple of weeks, hearing from so many strangers, or seeing so many strangers talk about me in front of me (again, felt worse/weirder in the moment, but better with time). But as quickly as it happened, it pretty much melted away.

And the world keep spinning.

“Why Were You So Disappointed When You Still Made A Pretty Nice Haul?” [The Money Part (Part 2)]

June 6, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

There aren’t a lot of game shows where you can make reasonably “life-changing” money. “Life-changing” money is gonna depend on the person – and also on how much you want your life to change/what you need.

Also, maybe game shows aren’t meant to change your life. I thought of Price is Right and Let’s Make a Deal as a lark. Usually the most you can expect to win on those is around $20,000… Maybe more like $40,000-$50,000 if you have an extremely lucky day on Price, win your game (probably for a car, and maybe money on top of it) and make it to the showcase, and have a good showcase as well.

Even at those amounts of money, I usually expect those things to be trips or cars, so you know you’re not gonna get the full amount. You’re kind of going on for fun – which is probably exactly what game shows are supposed to be.

But on Wheel, $40,000 doesn’t seem like the top amount – it seems totally within reach! $37,000 is the MINIMUM amount for the bonus round! Just win that, and you’re good.

And if I could just get to the bonus round and win even the minimum, then I was basically gonna be able to have the surgery in the free and clear. I thought “finally – FINALLY – my life is about to ‘start’ baby!

We can pretend these ups and downs never happened. I will happily take my gorgeous gift from the universe, and I will go audition and dance my little HEART out, in a body that makes people think I can be cast to do that.”

[And I reeeeeeeally don’t want to hear any “body positivity” things here. I work really hard for my body. And I’d like it if extra skin from being fat wasn’t in the way.]

And you can argue that it’s all my fault – maybe I should’ve somehow known about my heart condition before college. Or maybe once I found out – even with all the surgeries and the time stuck in a hospital bed, I should’ve tried to figure out a way to not let my life take a such a downward turn, and not gained the weight (and that’s a fair critique!).

And/or when it finally made an upturn, I shouldn’t have gotten involved with that guy. [Trust me(!), I have thought about it a lot in my life. I don’t so much anymore, because there’s no use dwelling, but that thought has been fully fleshed out in my brain.] And I shouldn’t have let it affect me and blah blah blah. There are shoulds not not have gotten where I am, but this is where I am.

Yes, I could’ve done things differently to not need plastic surgery. I also could’ve saved a lot more money in my life to be able to have it! Yes, there are a lot of things that wouldn’t have put me in the spot I’m in. I do recognize that! You don’t need to tell me hahaha.

But I am in the spot I’m in. And I’m not getting any younger! I WANT to dance for an NBA team before this life is over. I still have a really fair number of years ahead of me where that is not an insane dream, but those years go by FAST. I wanted to have plastic surgery this year.

And maybe I still will! We don’t know. It’s just that, I don’t know. I kind of had this dream that Wheel was gonna be my nice re-set – not just for my physically, or money-wise, but a fun, great story that could be an exciting triumphant story to re-start blogging again!

But that’s not how it happened.

So, there’s more to say and more to talk about. And yes, I will work on trying to find multiple sources of income. [e.g. I’m trying to get people to commission songs. I’ve signed up to teach lessons online. I’m seeing what else I can do for extra cash.] I’ll do my best to make it happen.

Just woulda been nicer to do it without all this extra work. And I am disappointed and embarrassed in myself in many ways, but *shrug*. So be it. You just gotta keep moving forward, I supposed.

“Why Were You So Disappointed When You Still Made A Pretty Nice Haul?” [The Money Part (Part 1)]

June 5, 2020

Hey there!

Okay, so… Sure. Let’s get into it.

[And, I do realize everybody on Earth has dreams, and nearly everybody needs money. I’m not acting like I’m soooooooo special to have dreams and something I want to spend money on. But this is my specific story.]

I’m gonna tell you something SUPER embarrassing, but it’s the truth of it all, and it’s probably gonna make this make some more sense. So, I’m just gonna tell you ’cause that’s the simplest thing to do.

For those of you who haven’t been reading my blog all these years (or even maybe for those who have) – here is an extremely quick rundown of my life [or at least the bullet points that are relevant to this story; there probably are many more]

The beginning

  • Toddler in diapers – watches Michael Jackson, LOVES music, dances her butt off
  • Middle school – dance, dance, dance. [Heck yeah, we did Thriller at my recital]
  • [Also in here, my dad and I start going to watch The Indiana Pacers play in a different arena every year. I love the NBA. This will become clear why it’s relevant in a minute haha.]
  • High School – sets up schedule to take basically ALL performing arts classes Junior & Senior year. Does tap in the morning at the local professional dance academy.
  • Berklee College of Music(!!!), one of the best music schools. Gets known around school as a dancer – goes on the local Boston news to teach The Single Ladies dance as a fun ridiculous random thing having to do with… school(?), I forget.

Dum dum duuuuum

  • Find out I have a weird congenital heart defect. Goes from being known as “the fun girl who dances” to “the heart girl”
  • In and out of the hospital for a year; has open-heart freaking surgery.
  • Between aaaaaaaall the various heart surgeries and complications, etc., I gain TONS of weight (like a lot, no joke). And I lose all my fitness.
  • I claaaaaaw my way back from all of that. I lose the weight. I pay off the medical bills (with help – thanks parents and loved ones).
  • Finally in a stable condition (financially and fitness and everything), I get some headshots. I start dance classes. I start auditioning for things. I make it into my dream writing program in NYC. I think my life is FINALLY truly beginning.
  • and then I get date raped/end up in a domestic violence relationship and it absolutely ruins me. I get so depressed, I can barely get out of bed. I gain all kinds of weight again. And it all seems like it’s over.

And then, like a Phoenix… haha

  • I get very intense therapy, and get all the tools I need to function in the world again and not be quite SO freaking depressed and anxious all the time
  • I somehow lose nearly 100(!) pounds, FINALLY getting back to normal
  • [I even FINISH my dream musical theater program – making the cut of the cut program – after deferring because of everything that happened]
  • Aaaand I write a musical on domestic violence that makes it into multiple festivals!
  • I start up in ballet. I get en pointe. I try out for the Clippers dance team [I told you the NBA would be relevant haha]. [It even goes better than expected! I don’t make the team, but I do better than I think, and am soooo ready for the following year.]
  • But now… Again, SO embarrassing. And not to like be gross. But with gaining and losing 100 pounds, I have some loose skin on my thighs! [And some other places, but that is the most egregious!]
  • I desperately need some help putting my body back together. That takes a plastic surgery. I want plastic surgery – not to make an impossible body. Not to shave 5 millimeters off my nose. To put my body back together after letting it get out of control a couple of times. So that [ew ew ew ew eeeeeeew, sorry] my extra skin won’t get in the way when I dance – so that I don’t have to worry about looking weird in booty shorts, and that when I try out to dance in the NBA that people are looking at my muscular legs, not my loose skin. (I want to live some dancing dreams, before I get too old to do it.)

Okay, this blog post is kind of way too long as it is, so I’m gonna do a part 2 – tomorrow!

“OMG You’re RICH! You won like $23,000!” [Not Really!]

June 4, 2020

Now that we’ve gotten all the main game play and stuff out of the way, let’s start getting into the reactions and general questions.

The first one is (and I’ll talk more about the reaction to my episode later), but many people have been all over me for not being super happy at the end of the show, and how dare I think about $23,000 is not enough.

I’m super grateful for any extra money ever, of course. Yes. But to every stranger online who keeps telling me how $23,000 would change their life, and I should be grateful for it – I’m ultimately gonna get about $5,800 (give or take).

Still a lot – but like 1/4 of what everybody’s saying.

I already did a post on game show taxes. And we’ll just do a little general math here.

Remember, I won about $14,500 in cash on Wheel. The rest is a trip – and I still pay taxes on all $22,930 (of cash and prizes).

So, let’s say about 10% state tax. And let’s say about 25% for federal. So, that’d be:
$22,930 – $2,930 (10% of total amount for state) = 20,000 – $5,732.50 (25% of total amount for federal) = $14,267.50 – $8,430 (the price of the Barbados trip, so this is not *real* money I’ll see) = $5837.50

Just putting that out there for anyone who thinks I can take the trip of a lifetime, or pay for a semester’s worth of an expensive impressive school… No, I can like, pay my SAG initiation hahahaha.

STILL incredibly(!) cool, yes. Absolutely. But like, just – I know I’m being a little defensive since a lot of people were really intense about me needing to have a better attitude about a ‘windfall’ or what have you, but it’s less than people think. And even if it’s cool, it’s not a truly life-changing amount of money. And Wheel does sometimes have people who win life-changing amount of money.

So, yes, I should be grateful. I also see why I was upset (which I will elaborate on for you in the coming days!)

[Also, you don’t get it until *months* after the show airs, so as of right now, I’ve won nothing!]

xoxoxo

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 20 – The Day Ends!)

June 3, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

So, then I play the game, which I have very much covered, in length.

(And the main behind-the-scenes thing about during-game-play is that we have to turn around completely so we can’t see anything they’re doing on the wheel as they change out wedges. We’re given make-up touchups and water and pep talks.)

When I’m done with the bonus round, the guys have already gotten their stuff and left. I get taken to a room to fill out the paperwork about accepting the trip. You have to sign paperwork whether you’re forfeiting it, or choosing not to forfeit it.

They give you the info for the people you’ll be communicating with. The people in the room are super nice, and congratulatory. They were complimentary and said they thought I was a good player. (They knew I was beating myself up about the bonus round, clearly, the world knew as it was all on camera.)

Then I’m taken back to the contestant room, which is empty as the people in the third show are on stage. I grab my stuff (including my phone out of my locker and everything), and then I’m walked out to where my friends are at the edge of the audience.

I think potentially had you really wanted to stick around and watch everyone else, I’m guessing they would’ve let you (though I’m not sure). But I’d already gone to a full standby tape date. And I figured I could see how everyone did when the shows aired.

Plus, I wanted to meet my friends. Sorta. I mean, I wanted to hide from my friends, because I felt bad that they’d showed up and didn’t even get to run onstage. (And, obviously, I was embarrassed.) But still. I wanted to see them.

So, I met up with them, we walked out of the Sony lot. We got some food. They were understanding, but also like… you gotta pull yourself together. You can’t be this upset about winning ~ $23,000 in cash & prizes.

And that was the day!

If I missed anything, please let me know!

[I do have a few FAQs and stuff I will be answering over the next few days, but that is indeed the gist of it all!]

Thanks for following along!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 19 – The Block of Games Begin!)

June 2, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

So then, it’s time for the block of shows to start.

If you’re in the first group to play, you stay behind to get mic’d and things. If you’re in any of the other groups, you go to a designated area of the seats to watch. (It’s way on the edge, away from other audience members).

And you’re supposed to stay away from any audience members. Everything has to stay on the up-and-up. There can’t be any appearance of anything that’s not fully above board. So you can’t have your phone. You can’t talk to anyone who’s not a contestant or contestant coordinator (or the lawyer). You have to be watched and good.

So, we all sat there and watched the episode. And of course everyone is very quietly playing along, which is funny, seeing the people around you with the various strategies.

One thing that was interesting when I’d been a standby contestant and got to see all 6 shows, was as far as me and the other standby contestant could tell, when they put the mystery wedge on the wheel, they switched it every time. So, for instance, if the mystery wedge that showed $10,000 was near Free Play in the first game, then in the second game, that space was bankrupt. And in the 3rd game, that space would be $10,000 again.

Or at least that’s how it *looked* to us, from where we were sitting, but we couldn’t be 100% sure. And I’m sure there’s no way they do that every single day, because people would catch on and always know for their game where mystery wedge was (assuming they were watching it be set in the games before them).

I was curious though to watch and pay attention to if that pattern reemerged during this tape date. But alas, I was the second show. So, I didn’t see any wedges being switched out except on one game before mine.

So, yeah, we all watched the first game.

And juuuust a little bit before the game is over, the take the next group down to the contestant room again for last minute make-up touchups, to grab some water, and to get ready to go on your game!

And then as soon as the players who just played are coming back, you’re going out and getting mic’d up and everything.

I was a little bummed that we were being taken back before the bonus puzzle, because I really wanted to see at least one full game to practice/warm-up/get in the swing of things.

But! The good news is, they had the bonus puzzle up on the TV in the room. And I got “Riding a Bike” JUST in the nick of time. (I know bike is always a go-to word if it’s an activity and I don’t know what it is.)

So, I felt confident-ish going into my game.

And then it was our turn to play! And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 18 – Finish Make Up, Pick Our Color Spot)

June 1, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

So, at this point, the make-up stuff is still going. People are going in and out for touch-ups. (We were supposed to come basically camera ready, but they elevated everyone, so we all looked better on television.)

I was in the make-up chair. And I got to pull my color! There was a random little bottle thing we pulled our colors out of. (Most things were as randomized as they could be, for fairness.)

In my heart of hearts, I was hoping for the blue spot. It’s the 3rd spot (lucky number). The prettiest color of those 3. The closest to being directly in line with the used letter board. You’re on the end, so less likely to be distracted by anyone around you (in my opinion).

And I was so super pleased to get blue! (Yay!)

I tried to pretty much remember things in order, although I think I may have not gotten the order totally right, because I thought we were on stage before this, but also after this? Did we go onstage twice.

Well, either way, this was the gist of the day in approximate-ish order of how it happened.

Also on stage, they had people record their hometown howdies, and get a press photo taken (that they’d send us before our episode aired, so we could put it on social media and everything).

And also, someone (a director, I think?) would be looking at us through the camera, and telling other people (on earpieces or something?) whether our outfits worked, or if we needed to change anything.

And yeah, I think (I hope) I covered everything from when I auditioned to when the round of shows were about to start, and I guess I’ll start there tomorrow!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 17 – We Got Our Group And Show Number)

May 31, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

So, then… After we get back to contestant holding, they announce our group of 3s [the people we’ll be playing with]!

Now, before this point, during any little breaks or downtime, they’ve been showing former games/puzzles on the TV in the room. I was gonna just be quiet and everything, but as soon as someone else shouted an answer out early, oh, well, baby, it’s on.

I got “Hamburger and Fries” (which I think was a toss-up) after like one letter, people were a little taken aback. And I laughed, but also, inside, I had a little fight in me of like “let’s get it! Let’s GO, y’all!

So, as people had made friends around the room that day [and we had lunch and everything too; they kept everyone well fed], I bonded a little with Steve (on my show). He said he’d studied a lot and we compared study methods/tips. (I studied more than he did. ;))

And we talked about our Wheel strategy. His was more conservative than mine (as we also saw on the show).

And so by the time we got our groups of people, Ben started joking like ‘oh NO’. Not these two nerds haha. (I mean, he was doing it in a funny self-deprecating way, as though he wasn’t gonna be able to keep up with us, now that we weren’t nerds in a bad way.)

So, after we got our groups, one person was designated as the person who would picking a number out of a container to know which show you’d go on.

They tape 6 shows of Wheel of Fortune in a day. So, if you get the 6th show, you’re on a whole different theme week. And I think that could be a little rough, getting so used to one theme week – the one you’ve studied and studied for. I mean, it’s not a surprise. They tell you to expect that. But I was definitely hoping not to get the 6th show (which I didn’t).

In our group, Ben pulled.

I was like ‘don’t get the second show – the ‘unlucky’ show (as 2 is my unlucky number)… He got the second show. And we laughed about that.

So, we had our show number, and the people on the show. And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 16 – They Explain The Space To Us & A Practice Game)

May 30, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

They also took us around the set, and showed us everything.

It was sort of funny (and really endearing) to me how some people were so amazed by a television set. In that way, I guess it was nice to be an LA person who’s been on a number of them, and in that way sort of has ‘home field advantage’.

It was just interesting seeing people in real time be maybe even distracted by the ‘lights’ and everything, and just feel extra pressure, whereas I very much felt at home. And when I was practicing and playing, I didn’t even notice the audience, or anything like that. I’m locked into the game, baby!

So, anyway, I know a lot of people on the internet have talked about this, so I think it might be common knowledge. But there is a “used letter board” to the upper left (as you face it) of the puzzle board.

The letters are all lit up. The vowels are separated out. And they’ll go dark once called. So, they explain that to you, and say you can always look up there if you need to be reminded if something has been called or not.

Also, to the left of you in general (not by the board, but more to your actual left, instead of in front of you), is where are the scores are kept – so we can see what people have in that round and total, so you can be doing math to know if you think you should keep spinning.

Those are really the only other places you’ll ever have to look. And most of the time, you should probably be focused on the board.

Then we split up and play a practice game. So, 3 people at a time get to go up to the spots on the wheel while others wait behind. (We’re all kind of whispering behind, and the contestant coordinators are coming around asking us like ‘what do you think that word might be? What might you call?)

And I’m pretty strong at this while I’m playing behind. So, that’s good.

But then when I got up there, there was another crossword puzzle! (I don’t know why the thing I’m usually good at, I could not get ahold of that day!)

But the clue was “______ line” And one of the words was _UNCH. I don’t think there was any other info that would’ve given us the first letter.

And yet AGAIN – not trusting my gut, and going too ‘Wheel of Fortune general rules of thumb’ about it, I said L since L is in RSTLNE. But it was P!

P was in my gut. I was overthinking it. I wish I could say I fully took that lesson in the practice, and did better in the game. But not. I overthought the game too. But whatever. (You already know that from my game posts.)

I do think… I dunno how to put this exactly, because I don’t necessarily think the right phrasing is “over-coached,” because I don’t think the Wheel people did anything wrong at all. They’re trying to help and make sure everyone is ultra-prepared.

But in my opinion, if you’re really prepared going in, and you have your strategies thought about and everything, I think you should stand in your confidence and don’t let other people get in your head.

My standby tape date, I came READY. And then I was in a slightly worse place in my personal life by this point. And so I was just like mentally weaker in the moment, and like I just had too many thoughts/ideas swirling in my head. Gotta get that mental toughness up! But alas. On we go!

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 15 – The Question I Kind Of Wish I Would’ve Asked)

May 29, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

3. Related to that, it doesn’t super matter what their opinion is on it, when it’s your game/time on air. I mean, they’re letting you on the show, so to some extent, you should try to give them what they want, if you can.

And as much as I thought I was very well-studied and knew the game very well, they work there. So, their opinion is gonna be super smart/relevant/not to be dismissed.

But at the end of the day, I think you want to try to make it so that their opinions and coaching don’t seep in tooooo much, because I think one of the real tricks to doing well [not only at this game, but in life] is truly trusting yourself. So, I didn’t want to worry tooooo much about their advice when you have to trust yourself when you’re that studied and read, and it’s your big day.

But the one thing I wish I would’ve asked(!) is if anyone ever in the history of Wheel of Fortune has solved a puzzle with ZERO letters in the puzzle – not one. Just looked at it and solved. Because I kind of assumed at some point, somewhere it must’ve happened.

But I haven’t been able to find anything about it online. And had I known I would’ve been the first ever, I might have done it for funsies. I still kind of doubt I would have. But I might have! It woulda been pretty cool. It would’ve been a fun viral moment.

(But it’s possible that they wouldn’t have known this off the top of their heads, and perhaps it would’ve been seen as a dumb of conceited question, so, I dunno. Maybe it wouldn’t have gone over well in the moment, and maybe it would have. Who knows.)

BUT things are so clear in hindsight – when I knew I already went semi-viral for something I don’t like, so I would’ve rather it been for something cooler. And when I already know I landed on the Express Wedge and won the game. It’s the information I didn’t have at the time that makes me wish I would’ve. And I didn’t have that then, so *shrug*.

And I’ll get back to all the pre-show stuff tomorrow!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 14 – Encouraging People To Get Their Bag/Keep The Show Interesting)

May 28, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

One thing I am in HUGE agreement on with the Wheel of Fortune people is that people are there to PLAY.

So, again, while you are not obligated to do any of the things they suggest, they do talk strategy that they find to be good most of the time. And I’m in agreement with them on a lot of it – including this.

They told people that if you’re spinning, and you figure out a puzzle that still has multi-consonants (like 4 of the same consonant), that it’s usually good practice [if you want] to keep spinning! You could end up with a really big payday that way, and it’s more engaging for the viewers at home.

[Imagine landing on a $5,000 space with 4 consonants remaining!]

And while they were telling us this, I *almost* asked if that were the case that there were lots of consonants, but NOTHING had been called (or even just like one letter) – if it was potentially going to be a very impressive solve, would they rather us just go ahead and go for it, if we felt like it, to have that potentially viral moment.

Just something was pulling at me to ask it. (It’s almost like somehow my gut knew I’d be put in that spot [like it was destined, or something silly like that]!)

And I think looking back on it, while you’re there in person, you should ask literally anything you want. What are they gonna do? Not pick you? You’re already going on the show. I guess you could do something heinous enough to get kicked out, even after you were picked, before you tape. But after quite a long process, I would guess you’d have to do something pretty awful to get kicked out. I think you’d be safe asking any questions about game play or strategy advice you wanted – even if they were dumb or annoying.

This is your only chance to get the words straight from the horse’s mouth. So, you might as well take the opportunity, and not be left wondering things later.

But anyway, the reason I didn’t ask is:

  1. What kind of question is that? That’s pretty presumptuous to think you’re gonna be that good at the game that you’re gonna know a puzzle that quickly, and that you’re gonna be lucky enough to be in a spot in which it would even matter anyway. So, do you really wanna be all teacher’s-pet-nerd-alert in front of everybody else, and set a bar that’s really hard to live up to? [Usually better to underpromise and over-deliver, when possible].
  2. I generally though it’d be smarter to go for money than viral-ness anyway. So, even if they said, “we’d love a viral moment,” I doubt I would’ve listened, because at the end of the day, I really wanted to win the game.

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow.

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 13 – A Little Wheel Practice)

May 27, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

So, as they were telling us about the wedges and everything, more people were getting hair/make-up done (and they were making sure they stayed included).

Then, they took us out to the Wheel.

And they explained some stuff to us, like the stuff that goes “upstairs” vs “downstairs.” And basically what that means is that if it’s on the little padded thing where you might rest your hands or whatever, that’s “upstairs” (so like, a wild card, a gift tag).

Downstairs would be like where the million dollar wedge, or things like that go. It’s where a full wedge is leaned against the thing below your score.

Everyone got to do practice spins, just to get a sense of the wheel.

It was made very, very clear that we were not to spin with a destination in mind and if they caught you doing it, you’d be in trouble. They encouraged us to spin pretty hard, you know, you don’t want it moving just a handful of wedges.

So, everyone got some turns at a practice spin.

They loved calling out if someone got Free Play, “Oh that’s Free Play!” as in “you know what to do, call a vowel.” (I feel like I’ve already talked about the Free Play thing enough, but it’s a strategy thing that’s talked about over and over. They obviously won’t make you call a vowel, but for some reason (that I still don’t fully completely understand, as I already explained my feelings on it), it’s encouraged!

And I know this is a bit of a short post, but I have just a specific thing that’s sticking in my brain that I’m gonna talk about in its own post, and I’ll do that tomorrow!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 12 – Even More Paperwork Pre-Show Morning!)

May 26, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

So, after the lawyer visits, the coordinators lead us through any last questions, and they collect all of our IDs.

Random fact, and I’m not sure why this is, but if you do not have a psychical social security card with you, you do not get to play.

(They deeply warned us about this, so everyone knew to bring theirs. And maaaaaybe they do something if you forget yours in a far away state that they’ll let you play but not give you prizes until you’ve proven with your physical card. I don’t know, but I wouldn’t chance it!)

So, they take our paperwork and our IDs. And Vanna comes to say hi, which was really cool!

She pops her head in, and is super nice. And she’s totally gorgeous in person (as she is on screen), even before she gets her make-up on.

The contestant coordinators also go over the general rules of Wheel of Fortune. The explain the various wedges, the wild card, all of it. They have replicas of those pieces they hold up and show us.

They talk about the various categories and general smart game play.

They mention on Free Play that you can also try to solve the puzzle… I actually forget what the final outcome of the question was, but I did wonder if you can take a gull on puzzle guess on Free Play, if it’s wrong, do you keep spinning. I *think* the answer was no. But I don’t remember… I do remember there being some of thing about Free Play that seemed like something I was unaware of before… and I think it was that you could just guess the puzzles. But I don’t know if that’s true, because if it is, then if it was wrong, but was a free play, you’d get to keep going.

I’m sure I was overthinking it, and it was a moot point anyway because I don’t think I’d ever use Free Play to guess the puzzle.

The coordinators said over and over at the audition and on the day that they thought Free Play would be good for vowels. I still vehemently disagree with this, as I’ve stated, but hey, to each their own.

Now… I don’t know if I felt more worn down this day because I’d, within the past month, been back in the hospital for my heart issues popping up, or if it was because I’d been on such a weird sleep schedule for work, or if it was because it was the top of the pandemic, or if it was because I’d already been to a tape date and was going through the whole thing again, but I did feel a little worn down at the rules/advice part – especially as they continued them while we were out on the stage.

And like I don’t blame them at all. I don’t think they’re doing anything wrong. They’re trying to get a good show. They’re trying to remind people of things. They’re trying to download info to people who may or may not have been studying. They’re trying to do their jobs, but I do think because I was in a more exhausted/vulnerable state than the average day, I was kind of worn down and became slightly more in my head with all of it, I think.

I mean, it’s fine. It didn’t affect my gameplay in any markedly different way. Like, I don’t think the outcome would’ve necessarily been different just off of all this drilling alone, but like, I dunno. I was a little worn down haha.

Anyway, I’ll pick up with more of the day tomorrow!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 11 – The Rest Of The Lawyer Talk)

May 25, 2020

Picking up from yesterday

So, we had a visit from ‘Erin’ [again, fake name just to protect the privacy of Wheel of Fortune people].

And not only did she go in depth on the eligibility parts of the paperwork, she also said that if EVER at ANY point in the day, we saw ANYTHING that we thought wasn’t fair – an outcome we think should’ve been called differently (e.g. a puzzle solve that wasn’t counted for pronunciation reasons, but you believe your pronunciation is actually generally acceptable, or like if you said B and Pat heard C, and there was no C, and you lost your turn, but there was a B, or just blah blah, aaaaaanything that you deemed unfair or wrong in aaaaaany way) –

She was like “if you have ANY problems, you just tell them you want to speak to ‘Erin’. You do not have to explain yourself or anything. Just say you want to talk to me, and I’ll jump up and talk to you ASAP, and we’ll try to get it worked out.

To my knowledge, nothing happened on either of the tape dates I attended that involved calling her in. But IF something had happened, they reminded us that it’s WAY easier to fix day OF while you’re standing right there, while they may be able to do another puzzle, or have lawyers look over it in real time.

Basically, to my knowledge, people don’t get to re-come on the show if there was an issue. So, you gotta get it taken care of right then and there.

BUT they run such a tight ship, and they cover themselves in so many ways with paperwork and going over rules and things a million times, that I’m assuming issues are rare.

And this is kind of a short post, but seems like a good place to stop. So, I’ll pick up here again tomorrow.

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 10 – It’s The Day Of The Show, Y’all – Paperwork Time!)

May 24, 2020

Picking up from last time –

A woman named [redacted], ’cause I don’t know if I should be sharing the names of staff, so I guess let’s just call her Erin, because why not, comes in and goes over some legal stuff with us.

She has everyone verify that we haven’t been main contestants on more than 2 game/reality/dating shows in the last 10 years. And she asks if we’ve met anyone from Sony/Wheel/affiliated people.

And everyone gets a chance to ask as many tiny questions as they want, as they very, very thoroughly do this paperwork with us.

The only one that I had a question about was that it asks if you’re “professionally trained,” or have appeared as an entertainer. I was like “I’m really not professional. But I technically have my Equity card, and I did perform off-Broadway once, but like… in a beaver costume, so I don’t think anyone cares.”

I think a lot of people started over-thinking their answers and asking pretty specific questions like that about any number of things on the form, because the Wheel people were just so methodical, and really trying to make sure we were thorough about it all.

So, it’s like, dang, okay, if you wanna be thorough, I guess let’s all get thorough and ask every minuscule question we can think of haha.

There were some parts you had to initial, or specifically put n/a, instead of just leaving blank, and some parts I feel like we glossed over a little, maybe?

Or at least, I didn’t remember a lot of things until I started perusing it for this blog post.

We had to verify that we have never [bolded] been on any version of Wheel of Fortune, which is sort of surprising, because I think they’d have a giant database of that, but maybe not! (Apparently not)

I also didn’t realize we agree to play with anyone who has a physically disability who has reasonable accommodations to play (with the Wheel and everything). Obviously I so super agree to this. It’s just interesting to me it even has to be in writing. Like, duh, if someone’s in a wheelchair, of course I still want them to be able to play and someone else can spin or whatever is necessary?

But I understand why they have to put it in writing if it’s changing things at all for anyone.

There is a paragraph that feels very reality-show-eque haha that they can take our likeness, voice, etc. and ‘rearrange’ things (not the actual show, obviously, I’m assuming, but if they wanted to put things on social, or do a special, or whatever whatever). We just have to be prepared that Wheel of Fortune can use whatever about as, as much as they want, wherever they want, however they want, anywhere in the universe in perpetuity, which tbh, is to be expected.

Sometimes things you’d expect like “yeah, obv Wheel can use my clips” sound so intense in papers like this.

Also, we’re not allowed to sell the companion part if we win a trip. I’d never even think about doing that – going with some stranger just to get some extra money? No thank you. But clearly, some people must, since it’s in there.

Also, just like with the lottery (or at least I think that’s how it works with the lottery?), if you win the million, it’s not a million today.

It’s either a million over 20 years, or $778,000 lump sum now.

Anyway, you get the gist. So, we have this big ol’ honking contract. And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow.

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 9 – It’s The Day Of The Show, Y’all – Arrival!)

May 23, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

So, once we get to Sony, we go into this contestant room for Wheel of Fortune people.

It’s stocked with bagels, drinks, snacks. They do a great job of keeping us fed all day.

On the side of the contestant area is a make-up area. They’re right next to each other/connected by a door that’s generally kept open the whole time.

So, some announcements and things can be given while people are in make-up, because make-up needs to cycle through people, and you can hear in there.

(Some of the more important announcements, they’ll stop down make-up, but for some of the simpler things, they won’t.)

Three people can go to make-up/hair at a time. So, three people start in on that. People are snacking. The day is starting.

We all get little lockers in the back of the room where we have to put our phones (and really, basically everything we have, as we’re not allowed to have much while we’re there).

A contestant coordinator comes in and explains “Hometown Howdies” to us – which is where people will tape a little thing for their affiliate stations.

They have a little board where it gives the script, and says something like “I’m [name] from [city]. Watch ME play Wheel of Fortune tonight on ABC 6.”

So, we go around the room and one at a time, someone stands, says their little script to practice, and then gets notes on it (which for most people is just ‘louder’ and ‘more enthusiasm’), then sits down.

Angelinos don’t do “hometown howides,” because our local stations don’t care/don’t play them. But we still get to practice them for funsies!

And I felt special, like I got a little ‘gold star’, because they were very proud of how I delivered the lines with the inflection the way they wanted it – plenty loud and enthusiastic!

It is so funny to me the difference between being an LA person and people from other places. Because, not to knock them at all, I’m sure other people have plenty of skills I don’t have.

But I am SO used to being able to “turn it on”and kind of get that inflection of like upbeat-game-show contestant that they want, that when people seem bewildered by it, I get bewildered at their bewilderment!

But then again, try to put me in their day-to-day – I’d have absolutely no idea how to like cook for a toddler, or drive a manual car, etc. But I sure can hit my mark, and smile big. I’ve been practicing that since I was a toddler!

Anyway, enough about being overly-trained on how to be an over-the-top LA person.

Then, it’s time for paperwork central!

And that’s where I’ll pick up tomorrow.

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 8 – Pat’s Secrets To Winning On Wheel and My Giant Opinions On “Free Play”)

May 22, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

In the big packet, we get a mini-packet of things from Pat Sajack – his “secrets to winning on Wheel.”

He basically talks about how important he thinks it is to buy vowels. And he talks about how he’d always use “Free Play” for a vowel.

I’ve always vehemently been against using Free Play for a vowel in most cases. Yeah, sure, it’s “free.” So, you don’t have to buy your vowel. BUT they still give you $500 for any consonant you call while on Free Play! So, if you landed on Free Play, got a consonant for $500, and then bought a vowel for $250 right after, you’ve still netted $500!

Now, $500 is a pretty low amount, so maybe you want to burn the turn to spin for more money, so you call a vowel just to do it. But I don’t think it’s “saving” you money, per se.

Also, there are only 5 vowels, but 21 consonants! And vowels, for the most part, must appear in every word. I think in general, with context clues and just probability, I think you generally have a better chance of calling a vowel in the puzzle than a consonant (if you’re lost as to what the puzzle is, and don’t have other things to build off of).

So, I’d call what I’m less likely to get correct.

I think what free play is best used for is stuff like:

– something you think is a strong possibility, but there are other good options and it’s risky to call on a normal turn, so you’d luck out in having the safety net

– a “good letter” in a puzzle in which you are almost certain of a part of it, but you don’t know the other part. So, if you’re almost CERTAIN about like a “T” and “N” are in the puzzle, and that will complete RSTLNE, and you don’t know what another word is, guess like a P, or a C, etc. – something reasonable, but iffy.

The only time I can generally imagine using Free Play for a vowel is if I’m really lost on a puzzle and we only have two vowels remaining, and free play is gonna give me my answer.

Because if there are only 2 vowels left, and you call one on Free Play, you then have a ton more information.

If that vowel is in the puzzle, and there’s still another vowel remaining, and it’s the last vowel available, then you can immediately buy it after Free Play, and have all the vowel information.

If the vowel is not in the puzzle, same deal, buy the one that is.

If it’s in the puzzle and you get the sound that you’re out of vowels, congratulations. You still have all the vowel info.

I mean, I guess you could argue that I said in my second puzzle I may have used free play for a vowel when there were 3 vowel possibilities left, because there were only 2 letter spaces left on the board, and I was at a loss, and I needed whatever info I could grab onto.

But in general, I think vowels are a bad strategy on Free Play, overall. And yet, Wheel of Fortune very, very much encourages you to use Free Play for vowels.

Anyway, his other things are like pay attention to the category, which I totally agree with, and to be willing to take gambles and how frustrating it is if someone doesn’t pick up the mystery wedge when they only have like $1,000. I also super wholeheartedly agree with that. Like he says if you don’t really wanna play, “why are you here?”

And he says pay attention to the scores… Like if someone built up a ton of money and got lose a turn, and the next person called a wrong letter, and then you’re in control, if the game is close between the two of you, you may want to try to block them from getting the puzzle and not just spin hoping to rack up a little more, as you may get bankrupt and hand their windfall back to them.

And I think that’s fair.

I mean, he knows the game better than nearly anybody. So, of course I agree with most of his sounds tips, but that Free Play thing! It gets me every time!

And this is where I’ll pick up tomorrow!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 7 – Most of the Rest of the Packet)

May 21, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

It also tells you not to bring any outside reading material. (In game shows, they just have to be so careful to know no one is cheating… I don’t really know how you can cheat at a puzzle game with a newspaper, but just in case!)

They give you a mini-packet that has all the common game categories, and explains what they are (e.g. person, titles, landmark, what are you doing, living things, in the kitchen, and on and on and on and on). (The mini-packet of categories is 6 pages long.)

They give us a little pink sheet of tips on how to be a great contestant, which are all pretty straightforward. Study. Be confident. Have fun. That kind of stuff.

They also give you a full contestant release, so you have a chance to read it before you get there (even though the lawyer will go through the whole thing with you).

And Pat Sajack has a little “tribute to Wheel’s Contestants,” which is very cute! It basically just says people come from all over the world to play Wheel, and he appreciates them all, etc.

I know this post is a little on the short side, but I need a full one to talk about another thing from the packet – Pat Sajack’s secrets to winning on wheel.

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 6 – The Packet – Including Info On What To Wear)

May 20, 2020

Picking up from yesterday –

So, before you go on Wheel of Fortune, they send you a big packet in the mail.

They give you a nice letter hyping you up, and telling you it’s your time!

And they tell you about 80,000 times that you better be on time, or they’re throwing you to the crocodiles. (I may or may not be exaggerating slightly, but be on time, or chomp chomp might be in your future.)

It includes a big paper all about what to wear. This is super specific. Have you ever noticed that not one single woman has ever worn a dress? It’s always two-pieces, always?

Well, they have to switch mics from contestants so quickly between tapings, there isn’t time to take them to a more private location, and run the mic all through a dress, and attach it to like a mic belt inside your dress, or someone’s underwear or anything.

Since they do it in front of the audience who they don’t want you to have to partially undress in front of (and since they probably want to avoid the sound person having to touch contestants in any even sort of intimate way), they make it as easy as possible and just drop it down the back of your shirt, and hook the mic pack to your skirt (or pants).

The line I thought was funniest was telling us to make sure we had proper padding in our bras since the studios would be cold.

You can’t wear silk (issues with the mic staying on). You can’t wear white, black or cream tops. Nothing with busy patterns. Nothing with logos. Nothing too low cut (since you’re leaning forward so often). No necklaces (can’t touch the mic). No bracelets (can’t get caught on the wheel).

It’s funny, because it seems like so much, but ultimately, it’s all at least semi-simple.

But yeah, people wondered why I wore a generally shapeless top. That’s why, baby! Trying to hit all the requirements, which in some ways was hard to do, but I got something that worked, and it was fine.

The packet tells you all about your contestants, and when they’ll have to be there, and what they should wear, and all of that.

They tell you many, many times it will be cold, so bring that sweater!

And I think I’ll pick up here tomorrow!

Becoming Wheel of Fortune Contestant! (Part 5 – I Got My Tape Date)

May 19, 2020

Okay, so my tape date!

[This blog post is just kind of over-explaining, so if you want to skip this one, feel free to go for it.]

I got the notice that I was invited to play “Surfin’ Safari, which will tape on Friday, March 13, 2020.

I had sort of a lot going on at the time. (That’s mentioned in another post.) So, it wasn’t the best time for me to go on.

And part of me wondered if maybe I would’ve been better on another theme week, or if “Surfin’ Safari” could really be my jam.

But I didn’t want to start pick-and-choosing theme weeks. And even though the timing wasn’t perfect, I felt like I had to push through the fact that I’d gotten used to working nights, and I’d recently been really ill (in the hospital for 3 or so days), etc. Like, it was time to just do this – as, by this point, I was at the very tail end of the one year and 6 months mark.

Again, they made it super clear that they won’t pressure you to go on, and they’ll extend it if you need.

But I didn’t want to take any chances. (And now, knowing that day was basically the last day things were normal before the pandemic, not taking chances is probably even better.)

So, I went on the show.

You got to pick your four people who were going to go as your audience members. I very much enjoyed the friends who went, but my core supporters like my dad, and B, and Alex – they were all doing things they absolutely couldn’t get out of.

So, again, a slight sign that this isn’t the best ever time to be doing this tape date, but whatever. It’s time. At this point, between when I originally sent in my audition tape, almost two years prior, and doing Wheelmobile events for a few years after that, like… it was TIME.

So, on March 13th, I wake up super early in the morning.

I watch a full episode of Wheel just to kind of shake my brain awake. I head out in an Uber pool. (Isn’t it crazy to think we were still using Uber pools – without masks?!

This was truly like the last innocent day, basically.

I was way overly excited and made slight friends with my Uber driver before other people got in. Then the other people didn’t seem as ready to party at like 6am, so i had a little quiet ride to the studio where I tried to just calm my mind, and remember the ‘rules of thumb’ of Wheel of Fortune as best as I could.

And then I got to the studio!